This are my fucking feelings so you can don't bloody read this:

I hate my life, so so wish I could rewind or had someone else's life. Nothing good happen in my life, so many things have been happening, all so bad. I won't fucking care if I get hit by a car, or killed by lightning, or something that will end the fucking life. Secondary school life should have been the best time for everyone, but it fucking sucks for me, myself and I. I give up hope on everything now, seems it's useless trying for whatever I do or don't. I only want to study, get good grades and hurry up and die. Life was never fair, it never will be. Happiness was never meant to be, and never it will never happen. Someones happiness, comes another despair. Now I have different prospective of life and of everything, an negative and more pessimistic one. Attitude, so what if you have a good attitude? No one bothers, they only care about being smart. When they know who to choose, no matter what, they will keep to the ones they choose. There is no way you can change their minds. I'm giving up, I'm giving up on everything. I have been saying about not giving up and all that shit, fuck all of that. If you can't get what you want, go fucking give up and jump off a building. I hate sympathy now, even if you sympathies someone, you don't understand how they fucking feel, so you can just fucking fuck off. Ignorance is really bliss. Now I don't know if my friends are even my life now. Congratulations to those who got it, I happy for you, you all deserve it. You all should deserve more, that's why I did not eat. I feel left out when I'm around with you people now, totally different. I want to die quickly, cause I don't think I will go to heaven, from the looks of my life situation now. So I will come back as a different person, reincarnated with another life. I don't want to have feelings anymore, I don't deserve it. Without happiness, what is the need for feelings? I could use the space in my head for something else. I think my life would be better without it. I feel like erasing the memories I had, so I don't have to die, so it will be easier to start a new life. I wish I had amnesia. You want to say whatever you don't like about me or this post go ahead, like ' you think your life is bad blah blah, other people is worst than you blah, blah, blah...'. Because I won't argue, I will just accept it, and carry on with my fucking life, just put your name so I know you hate me and fuck.

I got homework today, and it's Mathematics. My Show-&-Tell is tomorrow, I don't know what to do. NCC was... Congrats to those who got in SCC. Sad I was not in it. Went to MacDonald's after that. Did not eat there. Home now. The contest is still on, if no one tag about it by tomorrow, I'm closing it.

I hate my fucking life. It's meaningless, it's a waste of time, and nothing happy happens. I'm living because of the drugs in the world...