Love, simply put it, it's weird. It sounds so simple, yet the complexity of it is so grand. It sounds simple to some, to others it is a unknown phenomena. But nobody really know the exact meaning of it. It can be a type of feeling, action etc. Different people have different definitions. Out of the countless grains of sand on the beach, only few are shape the same. Some people experience 'puppy-love' in their youth. Just having a crush on someone, hiding it from her, and telling your close friends about it. It is a thrill of somewhat, just to crush on someone. After you tell him/her that you like him/her, he/she either accept you and start going on dates from 1 week onwards, then one of you suggest the break-up, then find another guy/girl or continue with you and him/her love life. Or he/she rejects you, then you find another or try a to get through the guy's/girl's heart. If still rejected, get another. If accepted , then the above happens. Usually, after 'puppy-love', it MIGHT result into a deep relationship, or continue 'puppy-love' till you get older. Love can kill. If you truly love some one, and that some one disapproves, you can feel your heart being crush into small little pieces by a tiny toy hammer. And it seriously hurts, trust me. You can go into a state of trauma, and can take your life, but sometimes it helps. You might feel better after saying, and even be a better person. But remember, don't get forced by your buddies to tell the little Miss/Mr perfect that you love them. It is a mistake I will never forget. Most times, relationships at age 12-17 would not last long, but the older you get the tighter the strings attached. At this time, if you go dating, it is just to prepare you for the future. But in some cases, very rare ones, it could last for a lifetime. There are many cases of love, now I'm just talking about some of the different types of love. See, the topics about it is endless, even if you wrote it in a book for a lifetime, there will be no ending. 'Love is Blind', and it is. This phrase has about a few hundred meanings, depending how you interpret it. I will just say a common one, you could just love someone for their looks, but not their personality. Even if you have him/her, how do you maintain it? If you break up, is there a way to get back? How? There is so many answers, so little time. I love this girl for her looks and her personalities, but she likes another, and the another likes another. The friends who supported me ask me to give up now. So should I carry on? My heart is tearing in to bit-size pieces. It helps me in some ways, and crushes me in another. Even some people like me can't even answer my own question. If you truly like some one, you might think differently what others might think about him/her, so I can't really ask advice from them. Now I feel like I have reach a dead corner. I'm stuck in the freeway. See others, they have their own story, and have to decide it their self. Love is a twilight zone. It is totally full of mysteries... Talk about it some other time...

Today, had Chemistry practical and as usual, I will mix all of the chemicals given together. Sat with Benedick cause he did not want to sit with Corey. Had some mathematics lessons, and NDP rehearsals. Went to the gym even though it was raining... Have to make it a habit. Used the computer and played with my buddies, and now blogging. Anything else? Took a bath, ate, congratulations to those wearing your No.1's in the parade, rain, rain, rain so part of the parade rehearsals cancelled. Alex, I fucking hate your guts. Ryan, Hi. Guo Sheng, You suck, just kidding. Corey, you are not the Alpha Male anymore, Nigel, nice trick with the cube, I can do it as well. Nothing else I think of, plus I'm kinda sleep right now...

The majority of sand that is painted green (DRUGS), is in a small amount...

Love you NCC. Judo, coming back after NDP.