There will be only one person in your life that will be specially for you, and you are specially for that person as well.

Everyday, we have to sacrifice something, or there will be no tomorrow. You either sacrifice this or that. It could be anything. And time is the one we always sacrifice the most. Most importantly, was it the right choice? Was it the right choice sacrificing this for that? If you think it is, it is. But to others it may not. That decision might favour you, but it may not favour the others. Then you have to make another sacrifice, for the others, or for yourself. It could be for various reasons that you might be push to choose the opposite of what you wanted.

I'm bored, life is meaningless. Today, been using the computer and playing my PSP. Completed my Naruto. Nigel came to my house to play on the computer. He said that his computer have a problem or something. Then... played DOTA with my cousin and his friend. Played DaiTi online with SinLee, WeiZhuang and Cindy, played only 2 rounds cause mum scolding.

Drugs, can you do something exciting?

Each passing year, time is moving faster and faster. There is so many things I want to do, but so little time. I tell you life will be meaningless the coming week, what the fuck should I do? Waste my time on stupid shit? Fuck that. I want to do so much before I die. And yet, time is against me. Becoming shorter and shorter as it moves by. Trying to multi-task, but it does not work at the moment.It's school holidays... Boring... I need the excitment, I need to try something new. I need to go out, I need to see the world. I need my needs...

It was kind of boring today, went to beach road to buy my badges with SinLee(Mother), Joyce(Cousin), Ryan(Cousin, also Joyce's younger brother), Alex(*blank*), Gerrald(Grandfather) and Wei Zhuang(Little brother). Met up with them at Serangoon Bus Interchange. Then took Bus 100 there. Everyone in the bus all tired and sleepy. They made a mistake with my name tag, they wrote 'Glex' instead of 'Glen', so the people at the shop resowed it again. While heading towards Bugis. we were talking about random stuff. I told them about my friend who cancel the 'ex-offender' on the advertisement at the bus-stop and wrote 'kick me' there. Then they were talking about fingers. If you can make a 'L' shape where the first two joints from your fingernails will form a 90 degrees angle and was the longer side, then you are considered a insect. So Wei Zhuang can do it, he is a freak. Just joking. Along the way, we acted like tourist, except for SinLee and Joyce, they walked futher away from us. Wei Zhuang and Gerrald were taking a picture a triangular building, wich looked like 2D from and angle. Ryan acted as our tour guide. He was like and idiot, swinging Corey's stuff in the air as the flag tour guides usually carry to lead the group. Then we saw a biker gang. The engines roared like thunder. We saw an another group of bikers, but were those slow moving ones that was ridden by old middle-aged people. We said that the middle-aged bikers wanted to chase the biker gang, but were too slow and got owned. SinLee and Joyce went into this toy shop. They got this sick pencil holder. It was a figure of a guy and a girl, and was was the hole? Make a guess. Here's a clue, when you put the pencil in, there will be cries of pain being emitted from the pencil holder. Reach Bugis and had lunch. Took a glass lift up to the food court. Wei Zhuang say we were fishes in a bowl, then he he made this 'glup' sound. Alex took Wei Zhuang's Ice Kachang jelly and flick it on someone below us. Funny shit. Laughing at both situations. Went around Bugis after that. Took MRT home. SinLee, Ryan, Wei Zhuang and me alighted at Kovan, I guess Alex and Joyce alighted at Hougang. SinLee went home first. Then Gerrald. The rest of us went with Ryan to give back Corey's stuff. Then took 112 home.

I wish Drugs can bring you back in time, or slow it down, or both...

Seems that people do plenty of crazy things, for fun, enjoyment etc. etc. Just like me. Jia Liang, you rock, thanks for letting me shoot you.

Now, I'm going to make it a fast one since I have no time. Teachers Day, had Physics and Chinese. Had our run. Jia Liang, Jeremy, Buo Lun and me jogged the who way. Some jogged ten started walking. Went back to class to play PSP with Guo Sheng, Nigel and Corey. Then went to hall to see Teachers Day performance. Love the dances and the singing, hate the jump style, it's getting boring since everyone is doing it, no originality. Had NCC celebration with Sirs and Mdms. Creamed Eugene with cake. Ten Went to MacDonald's to eat lunch, and to play the PSP. Marjore won Corey in Naruto, HAHA. Guo Sheng and Corey came to my house to do some stuff, called 98.7 FM, for fun. It went through the radio. Then played gunbound the whole day, had tuition as well.

Drugs, no time for them today...

Rewards-Something given or received in recompense for worthy behavior.
If you have done something good, you will always receive a reward. Even if the reward is big, small, non-visible, expensive or cheap, this reward is given to you because you deserved it. But you will always have at least 2 rewards. One is given after doing that good deed, and the other is during the action of the good deed. Usually doing something good for yourself and others, will give you a warm, happy feeling inside, that is how I feel. Don't give huge rewards for something small, or it will harm the receiver. He could take advantage because of this... anyway today I don't really know what I'm typing, just trying to make a habit of doing this...

So, I slept in Mathematics and Chemistry lessons. It was raining the whole day, too cold, had to sleep. Had Biology, wanted to sleep there as well, but had to copy notes. Had History, and Chinese as well. Went outside the liabary to see my 'family' during recess. Had English after the break. I waited for Wei Zhuang to finish his F&N work. Guo Sheng and Corey waited for awhile, but got impatient and went off. So waited for Wei Zhuang a little while. Then took 112 with him. Wei Zhuang don't Despo la. Went home, play some online games with my buddies.

~Drugs~

Sometimes help can't be received from others, you need to find help within yourself. Even how much advice I give you, you will have to make that final decision. However difficult it is, you still have to face it, and choose. It's a roadblock in life, even if the outcome will knock you off your feet, you still have to stand up and continue that road until the next one.

Had all three Sciences today, Biology was boring, slept during that time. Physics was quite hilarious. Chemistry had a test. Then had English today, also slept. Boring life... Chinese was also the same. I found out where Mr Chia learn the word 'PiaKia' from. Had NCC meeting, so did not go for homework help. We were planning for End-of-the-Year NCC Camp. Then went for Judo. I'm bloody tired now. Came back, turn on the computer, used it to play Warcraft with Nigel. Before that had a chat with Jia Liang and Nigel. Then called Wei Zhuang, talk about Sims. I want to go your house you idiot. Then went to eat. Talked to Ryan on the phone, laughing like idiots. Then took a bath. Had a chat with my Primary school friends, they needed my help. Now here blogging...

Drug is Sanctuary..

Shortcuts, detours, roadblocks.

Shortcut- to take a faster way then the normal route/procedures, and getting the same end result. There are some shortcuts in life, both legal and illegal, but it usually depends if you can figure out what that shortcut is.

Detours- taking a alternative route that could be longer but safer or shorter but more dangerous towards the destination. There are some detours in life, you got to choose which will be your path, long but safe way or short but dangerous one, and once you move towards that paths you can't go back.

Roadblock- a obstruction in the route, which prevents you from carrying on. There are many many roadblocks in life, but still you can't just sit there and wait for someone to move it away, it might just take way too long, or it might not even come. So do something about it, or just get stuck there.

Physics and Mathematics, I'm afraid I can't catch up. No music, English was playing a bit of PSP, CME had a test. NCC, I did not bring amulet, so I change into half-U. Did not do first parade and last parade. SSC cadets went for training, Marjorie, Cindy and Guo Sheng took part As and Juan and Javen took part Bs. I did my homework in the NCC room, then went to find them, went MacDonald's after NCC, then went home to eat, now on the computer.

Life is meaningless without Drugs... have I mention that already?

It feels weird, but it's better than the other path. Although I haven't walked on it, I know it will be worst than the one I'm walking on now... I have this weird feeling though... But since I've done what I've done, just continue walking...

Seems like a semi-boring day. Had lessons in school, none of it was anything worth remembering... Oh except PE, it was a hell lot of fun in soccer, but my shoes were all wet and soggy... Anyway, needed an excuse to get out of judo today. Then went to PizzaHut with Ryan, Gerald, Joyce, SinLee, Nicole and Shi Ying for Wei Zhuang Birthday. Talk and laugh, a lot of funny shit, it was just too much I can't really remember. After eating, went to walk around with Wei Zhuang, Ryan, Gerrald, SinLee, Joyce and Nicole. Shi Ying had to go home early. Then we wanted to go to Wei Zhuang's house, but someone was going to fix his computer. So Ryan and Gerald stayed with me to talk about men's stuff. The girls left long time ago. Then came back, bathed and played my PSP till quite late. Had dinner, than had a chat with Wei Zhuang on MSN. We are making a NCC family, got a dog and a cat in the family once he get Sims2 Pets. It's hilarious. Now blogging, made it short and sweet, got plenty of things to say but I don't have the time, need to sleep...

Never listen to the drugs today...

Seems that my life now, as a teenager, from a rating on how good it is, is below average. Life will get worst when we reach maturity. Adults, compared to teenagers and below, have problems that can actually kill us at this stage of teen-hood. My Physics tuition teacher, shared her experience with the class about her life. She's right that we spend our money without thinking, thinking that it drops out from the sky. She is right if our parents or whoever is scolding us, they actually care about us, trying to force us not to repeat the same mistake.

My tuition teacher lived in Singapore and studied in Cedar Girls if I'm not wrong. She had two brothers. She was the oldest among the three. Her family was in poverty. When her uniform teared, she will just sow it back and back. The teacher was so fed up and bought her a new one. Usually, the only food the brothers hand her had was 1/3 bottle of black coffee for breakfast and lunch. Then teacher couldn't stand seeing this so the teacher would give them 10 cents each. And at that time, 10 cents was a lot. My tuition teacher is very smart. she is top in everything. She got plenty of scholarships, top in O'levels, but that was in India, cause she had a scholarship there. She was also offered a job as a junior scientist in another country, but here parents was afraid something might happen as she was the oldest, so she turned down the offer. There was once she was accepted for a certain scholarship, but due to this, she could not go to school as she had to pay off of that scholarship or something. The teacher though she had dropped out, so the gave her a call. So the school in the end help her pay. Then she was working hard to get her masters. but due to the lack of fees, the house had no electricity and was out of kerosene. So how did she study? Her father would bring her early in the morning, 2-3 am to the nearby lamp post, sit there and ask her to study as much as you can for the next 1-2hours. She got her masters in the end. But no one in her family could attend her ceremony, cause they did not have the money just to travel there. From then on, she went working as a teacher, to earn an income for her family. Then tragedy struck. Her father got seriously ill. She was invigilating an O'level examination. There was a announcement for her, a call asking to leave there immediately. She knew something bad would happen, but she wanted to complete the examination first. Then there was a second one, she ignored it. The third one came where it said that here father was in critical condition. The students turn and looked at her, ignoring the paper. She told them to continue with what they were doing, and she stayed. after collecting the paper, and sealing them up, she rushed to the hospital. Her father died of a heart attack in the hospital. Her mother told the doctor not to touch the body until she came. Although it was heart-breaking, she still had to continue to work to bring the family up. But then, seven years ago, her husband and brother died. It's was even worst. The other brother had to comfort her cause she had lost two people who were very close to her. It tragedy after tragedy... But she is still strong, and bring up her 15 year old boy well.

Today I took 112 bus six times, took 72 six times, and 34 bus, a taxi and a trip on the MRT one time. first pair of 112 was from tuition and back home. Next pair was to my cousin house and back before tranfering to the pair of 72. Went to his friends house to play PS3 and play LAN. Then the taxi was to my cousin's friend house, while 34 was to my cousin's house back from his friends house. The last pair of 112 was to hougang, then I took the MRT to Kovan, then a112 back there. Had to buy WeiZhuang his birthday present. It's freasher when it is bought later.

PSP is a stronger drug than the ones I have right now...

Destroyed but remembered, remembered but regretted, regretted but prevented. By destroying anything, anyone, anywhere, you will be able to remember how and what was destroyed. That which was destroyed in the past will create remorse. But from that of which we regret, We learn to prevent that action of destruction...

Breaking the bonds that restricts you from what you want to do or get, possible.
Binding the bonds that prevents that from happening or being retrieve, possible.
It's a cycle. Either the attacker or the defendant will give in, weather if it's a battle of wits, power, trickiness, stamina or the mixture of those mention. But if they are equally matched, either both goes down or come to an agreement. See which happens first.

NCC today, had some drills and Wayne had to do mutrals. Then had a break, those SSC carried on with drills, others had games with the Part As and Bs. It was basketball today. Then Ryan fallout, after our games ended. He had a stomach or something, kept on shitting. Than had a talk with the part As and Bs, about Camp Feast and Specialist Course. Then about the the Sargent they hate in among Part Cs, guess what? They all gave the same answer. Then went to ask Sir Eugene what to do. Told me to release the juniors first. Then Part Cs walked around the canteen about 2-5 times. We had our heads down, our hands place in front of us. The Sirs wanted us to reenact a how a funeral looks like, since they won't be able to see it up close when they die. Waited for Part Cs to leave since they wanted to teach Shi Ying the basics. SinLee scold her like fuck, the many people got pissed. Then I wasn't involve, since I don't want to hurt people's feelings and and make people think bad about me, because my life is as bad as it is already. So scold, pump, scold, pump fallout, fallout, scold, pump... sit there ignoring it, although me and Wei Long felt guilty of not joining. Then in the end she got it. It was 2PM already. So went to eat KFC. The girls went MacDonald's instead. Then stayed at KFC till 4.10PM. Had to go in Number 4 to tuition. Went home and got hock on the PSP. Then bathed, ate, surf the web...

DRUGS, DRUGS, gallons of the stuff...

I request for the NCC Room Key, as QM, I should have the right to have it. They should make a rule that all QMs should have that right. I'm to hard-working when I do group work outside school. Yesterday help do the project, today, helped to do other groups project, bored. And while I was doing, they were wildly fooling around. And instead of doing 3 shapes like my own group, I did 5 for them. After done, play like idiot. Then went home. It's fun if I'm the one in control of the computer.(random crap)

Had Physics, lame, Chinese, waste of time. Ask me to put down my parent's number because she wanted to call them, talk in class... Anyway, I gave my own number instead. Then Mathematics, boring. Then recess, then History. I was very attentive in History, but I'm forgetful as well. Then Mathematics again, then went to do the project. Suppose to have Biology, but someone told Jia Liang there is no Biology so we all never go.

Too bored to do anything, PSP is a new Drug now...

... ... ... ... boring... ... ... ... It is seriously getting lamer and lamer by the day. I don't know what the hell to do now. Play play play that's all I do. Once I come back home, I eat, I play I sleep. How can it get exciting like this?

No mood to blog. Had Chemistry lessons and practical, I love hydrochloric acid. English did my show and tell on random stuff, stupid. Got 27 marks. Free period during Biology. Mathematics is too simple. Got back my PSP. Corey say he might not be able to go SSC, but mdm calling his parents, so I think he can go. Went to Guo Sheng's house to the the Mathematics project. Very focus, after we were half done, Corey had to go home first. Then Nigel and me stayed to play for awhile. That's all for my life today.

Some drugs are getting boring

It seems that feelings can't be taken away, I wish it could. Anyway feel better from yesterday, just letting out some steam, I will never hold a grudge, but unfairness still lurks around me. I'll try to let bygones be bygones, but than I still think secondary school sucks, worst time of my life. Who cares, just live on with this fucking life till I leave this school. Friends are weird, but I think I still need them. Now I must fuck care about things that are not related to my studies, except CCA and friends. Forget about who like this and that, giving up on all this nonsensical shit. My life is changed, but it's OK, it's for the better. I gave up on a lot of stuff, but that doesn't mean I won't give up on things in in future. Giving up everything now, so I can clear my mind. I hate life, but I just have to live with it, dying soon will be easier to get a new one. Now the scars are everywhere, and aid is at its minimum. My life sucks, but who the hell bloody cares? I don't think anyone reads this shit though.

Next on, I don't think the contest is going to make my life exciting, so I'm canceling it. English was on first. I should have done something for Show-&-Tell. Found this note pad in my bag, wanted to use that, but didn't have the time to think, shall do it tomorrow. Did a failed Biology experiment. Had a boring Chemistry lesson again. We started learning Electromagnetic Waves in Physics. It is also known as a electromagnetic spectrum. From the longer to shorter wavelength in order: Radio waves, Microwaves, Infrared, Visible Light, Ultraviolet rays, X-rays and Gamma Rays. Wow, I can remember that much. Then Chinese, listen to Drugs then went to sleep. Had a really heavy lunch. Then went to Judo. As a QM, I want the right to have the key to the NCC room.

Drugs, it helps.

This are my fucking feelings so you can don't bloody read this:

I hate my life, so so wish I could rewind or had someone else's life. Nothing good happen in my life, so many things have been happening, all so bad. I won't fucking care if I get hit by a car, or killed by lightning, or something that will end the fucking life. Secondary school life should have been the best time for everyone, but it fucking sucks for me, myself and I. I give up hope on everything now, seems it's useless trying for whatever I do or don't. I only want to study, get good grades and hurry up and die. Life was never fair, it never will be. Happiness was never meant to be, and never it will never happen. Someones happiness, comes another despair. Now I have different prospective of life and of everything, an negative and more pessimistic one. Attitude, so what if you have a good attitude? No one bothers, they only care about being smart. When they know who to choose, no matter what, they will keep to the ones they choose. There is no way you can change their minds. I'm giving up, I'm giving up on everything. I have been saying about not giving up and all that shit, fuck all of that. If you can't get what you want, go fucking give up and jump off a building. I hate sympathy now, even if you sympathies someone, you don't understand how they fucking feel, so you can just fucking fuck off. Ignorance is really bliss. Now I don't know if my friends are even my life now. Congratulations to those who got it, I happy for you, you all deserve it. You all should deserve more, that's why I did not eat. I feel left out when I'm around with you people now, totally different. I want to die quickly, cause I don't think I will go to heaven, from the looks of my life situation now. So I will come back as a different person, reincarnated with another life. I don't want to have feelings anymore, I don't deserve it. Without happiness, what is the need for feelings? I could use the space in my head for something else. I think my life would be better without it. I feel like erasing the memories I had, so I don't have to die, so it will be easier to start a new life. I wish I had amnesia. You want to say whatever you don't like about me or this post go ahead, like ' you think your life is bad blah blah, other people is worst than you blah, blah, blah...'. Because I won't argue, I will just accept it, and carry on with my fucking life, just put your name so I know you hate me and fuck.

I got homework today, and it's Mathematics. My Show-&-Tell is tomorrow, I don't know what to do. NCC was... Congrats to those who got in SCC. Sad I was not in it. Went to MacDonald's after that. Did not eat there. Home now. The contest is still on, if no one tag about it by tomorrow, I'm closing it.

I hate my fucking life. It's meaningless, it's a waste of time, and nothing happy happens. I'm living because of the drugs in the world...

Changed, closest answer gets the prize, so the money confirm will be given out.

Contest 1- What is the reason I posted this song?
Contest 2- What is the next song I'm going to post?

Contest one winner gets $2 SGD
Contest two winner gers $5 SGD

Rules:
-Only one post per person for each contest
-Only first entry will be accepted
-Note invalid entries will not be accepted

This is the format :

Contest 1
(Name):(contest)(space)(answer)

Contest 2
(Name):(contest)(space)(Title)(space)(Singer)


Tag it on the blog, closing date is August 25th 0000h, which is Wei Zhuang birthday! The fastest and most accurate entry will win. Good Luck. Winner will be anounce on that day.

Music on my blog express the emotions and how am I feeling now and what I'm going to do. Music is my form of expression, sometimes. Music is connect to me. If you know my current situation now, you will know what I will do to overcome that situation, from the song of choice. Predict it rightly before next Monday and you will get two singapore dollars! No joke, I'm serious. This may make my life more interesting. It's getting worst each day. Anyway if you know how I feel and what I'm going to do, then tell me. Now this is a different contest. If you can predict the next song I'm going to post, then it will be five Singapore dollars! But sadly I don't think you can, haha. But it will be somewhat linked to my life and the previous song, so if you do not know me well, then fuck off. Dateline is the same, so don't miss out, you can try as many times as you want, just post it on the tagboard with your name, and either contest 1 or 2, and your answer. Contest 1 is 'What's the Reason For the Song?' and contest 2 'Is Predict the Song Next'. The first person who gives me the right answer will win the two dollars and the five dollars! If no one finds it out before the dateline, then the money will still be mind. I might have other contest on next time. So look out! (being bored has it's benifits, and loses)

This is a Quiz Wei Zhuang ask me to do...

)The person who tag/pass you is:
Wei Zhuang a.k.a Weizydoo
2)Your relationship with him/her is:
My close friend
3)Your five impression of him/her:
Hyper, Funny, Insulting, (don't kill me for say this) Short, Normal
4)The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
You mean bad or good? Bad: ALOMST ending my life. Good: cheering me up after that
5)The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
'Hi Glen.' He says that to me everyday
6)If he/she become your lover,you will:
Kill myself because I'm not that desprate to find a guy
7)f he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
His gender (just kidding)... That will never happen
8)If he/she become your enemy,you will:
I will create a chemical that will make him obey to my every command, then I can easily toture him
9)If he/she become your enemy,the reason will be:
I killed his girlfriend, stole his money, and make him wear a bikini in public
10)The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Boy, you got a lot to learn... and Hi
11)Your overall impression of him/her is:
Funny
12)How you think people around you will feel bout you:
Random
13)The characters you love of yourself are:
Being Emo
14)On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are:
Emo...
15)The most ideal person you want be is:
Me... or someone in my class
16)For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Find your path and reach towards it
17)Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel bout you.
1>Jeremy
2>Wei Zhuang
3>Marjorie
4>Jia En
5>SinLee
6>Jia Liang
7>Corey
8>Guo Sheng
9>Nigel
10>Ryan

Top five have blogs, bottom five doesn't, But I don't care :p
(all in random order)

18) Who is no.6 having a relationship with?
It will be a long time before he can get one

19)Is no.9 a male or female?
Shemale

20)If no.7 and 10 are together,will it be a good thing?
I think it will be weird if a guy and a guy go out holding hands and kissing, so yes it will be good for both of them

21) What is no.2 studying about?
The subject's that the school is giving us

22) When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
This morning durring recess

23)What kind of music does no.8 like?
Japanese songs from anime

24) Does no.1 have any siblings?
A brother

25) Will you woo no.3?
No. She's my little sister

26) How about no.7?
No... his a guy who gets horny to easily

27) Is no.4 single?
Don't know. Don't care

28) What is the surname of no.5?
Ng

29) What's the hobby of no.10?
Pornography

30) Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
They barely know each other so no.

31) Where is no.2 studying at?
At home or with friends at a mall or something

32) Talk something casually about no.1
Made Made Dane

33)Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
No, and I never will.

34) Where does no.9 live at?
Somewhere near Hougang Point

35) What colous does no.4 like?
Sunshine! (serriously I don't know)

36)Are no.5 and no.1 best friend?
No. They don't even know each other, I think

37) Does no.1 have any pets?
He never mention of any

38) Is no.7 the sexist person in the world?
Yar. Hot, Sexy and horny. Just kidding, his not.

39)What is no.6 doin now?
Playing and maybe hacking some online games


School was borring as usual, PE is getting lame and boring. Mathematics as well. I like History, but I suck at it somehow. Recess went outside the libary to chat with Marjore, Wei Zhuang and Juan, after changing back to uniform and being chased out by Mr Roslan. Corey and Juan were doing magic tricks with the deck of cards. Marjore and Wei Zhuang were fightin over something, I forgot what. Then had Mathematics again, then English. Corey, Guo Sheng and me were have a man-to-man-to-man's talk. Assembly, got retarded show, then PC period. Talked about our grades and the class T-shirt. From start of the year until now, not done. Anyway had our Lunch with Ryan, Darren, Gerrald and Wei Zhuang. Then the three of us walked with Ryan and Darren to the other bus-stop. Then started making jokes about each other. Did not go judo today, Cause my collar bone was hurting. I had a injury there once, my collar bone fractured due to judo. So did not go judo today.

Drugs gave me something to think about deeply, I know the answer, thank you drugs.

My life is so meaningless. Go to school, then CCA. If no CCA, go home, do homework. No homework, play computer, eat then sleep. Nothing exciting thrills my life. It's all same old same old. I can die because of this. Committing suicide is not a bad idea, seems that there is no meaning to life for me anymore. But hey, it a sin to commit suicide, even if it gives me the thrill of dying. Boring, boring, boring me. What the hell can I freaking do to make it exciting? It is weird. I can go up for courses, but I have school. Tuition won't change a thing since I have attended many. It's a boring life for me, I want to go out, but I need people to go out with. It is bloody fucking boring if I try to go out myself. I need to go out! Fuck this, play, play, play, play, play, when will my life fell exciting other than sitting in front of this fucking computer! This is just something to pass my time... Arrgggh... My life is a mess and I can't do a shit about it, have I mention?

Went to tuition today, had a change of class. I went to see the notice on the previous room where I had my tuition. It say 'Physics tuition will be in room 7 from now onwards'. The ironic thing is... That was the notice I saw on room 7's door. Then it was actually at room 11... Went to Buddhist class, and then to Compass Point. Ate at Yoshinoya. Then walk around with them in Best and TimeZone. Then got bored and we all went home. Play all day long... boring... Watched the Table Tennis Finals between China and Singapore. We lost although Singapore won the matches in the heats by a landslide. Now after 48 years we got a sliver again. 48 years ago, the sliver was achieve from weightlifting, and cause there were only five people participating. Nothing else, maybe update the blog later, now going to play another game... Boring...

Qwerz is officially a Drug Addict

We can't really let go of things we truly love. We sacrifice to get what we want and adore. You might have to sacrifice something big and important, just to get something small inexpensive and worthless. It could be the other way around sometimes, or might be on par. But this is the thing, that small something could mean a lot to him/her than to anyone else. It could symbolises a certain type of connection with someone, something that involves deep emotions, something that reminds you of your love ones, or something special happen on a certain occasion. You will do anything to get and protect it at all cost, because it has meaning to you, because it's special. But if if you would give that up to save something that you don't adore but it is important, which would you choose? It will hurt to give that special something away, cause to you, it might be worth more than your life. So everything always depends on you, whether or not you are willing to give in. Saying this is simple, making it happen could be much more harder.

This day was fun for awhile until it turned dull. Woke up early and went to school for NCC. PT was first. Then we went for a break. Alex came late cause he overslept. Played this game 'Virus'. Like catching, but the catcher is 'infected', so if the person get caught he gets 'infected' and joins the catcher to 'infect' others. Last one standing wins. Played two round of that. Then Break a few times, went on to volleyball, was not fun, so went to soccer, than basketball. We ended training once it was about to rain. Had KFC, went home and play. Then tuition from 4.30Pm to 6.30PM. Home and play more, then now blogging. Fuck this, nothing exciting happens, have I mention that?

DULL DULL DULL DRUGS DRUGS DRUGS

Beauty of the Phoenix. It flaps it's wings majestically, so magnificent. The personality always changes, since it can forget of the past from it's recantation. But sometimes memories come back. Some are great on certain occasions, but most of the time it haunts the Phoenix. The flaming teardrops drips and burn in the air. It is why no knows it's feelings better than the Phoenix itself. The Phoenix is a friendly creature, but if provoke, it can strike with deadly force. It's feathers are always burning, always. Bright red and yellow, it is simply a wonderful sight. The flame will never extinguish and will burn for an eternity. (I might be misinterpreting this majestic beast)

Today was lessons, lessons and more lessons. The only thing that shock me the most is that my group in the stamp competition got a sliver, and it was last minute work. Even Jia Liang's group only got certificate of particpation, and they worked on it for a few months. anyway it was boring the whole day. Played Gunbound and help Jeremy scan some stuff for his HLC. Boring life I have isn't it?

My Drug container only has two bars left, must refill...

Impossible - Unable to be, exist or happen. Unable to be done or endured or carry out. Incapable of it being true. It's Difficult and hopefully unsuitable.

Can the impossible be the possible? Or can the possible be the impossible? Anything is possible. Anything can also be impossible. Thinking if it is impossible, it will always be impossible. But thinking if it is possible, it will be possible. The post where I was talking about wishes, it's everything that is needed for possibilities to happen. Negativity will always bring you to your downfall. Even if you have tried so much, and you think it is time to give in, claiming it is totally impossible, you shouldn't. Even if you gave up, learn from the mistakes, grasp it tightly and remember that you cannot let that happen again. Even at a lost, there will be a equivalent gain, Yin & Yang, Karma, Tit-for-Tat. You just need to find the gain. But it is best not to give in and up. Everything is possible, not impossible, it is all up to you. If it is possible in a bad way, then you better not continue or even start. If it is good, by all means go for it. If you don't know if it's right or wrong in that sense, it is all up to choose. You can change it from possible to impossible and the other way around easily, like snapping your fingers. It is all in your mind and heart to think that.

Had lessons as usual. So boring, I not going to talk about it. But lessons ended earlier, cause my class and other classes went to the Singapore Flyer. The scenery was beautiful. My classmates were taking photos. It is a very cosy area. My buddies played Duel Masters and Chinese Chess in there. Then came back to school. Was looking for Ryan. Then played Chinese Chess with him. Lost, cause I suck. Then went home. Pictures below...

Scenic view

Inside/Outside the cabin. (look my classmates are in it)

My friends(and look what they are doing)

Corey, Doing this behind close doors.. (toilet at flyer)

Strings and threads, both are used for tying and connecting things together. Wires, they have copper threads that are connect, mashed and linked to the main source of energy. Shoelaces, tie them up to give the right fit for your feet. People, connected by imaginary strings. The thicker it is, the stronger your bonds will be. The thinner it is and 'snap!' There goes the person you could have or once known. Everyone in the world are connect to us, by those 'strings', so there should be six to eight billion odd 'strings' attached to your body right now, all of different sizes. Everyone is considered our friend, we just haven't met them yet. It is up to you weather or not you want to meet them and know them better. The more you talk and get to know about them, the stronger and thicker the strings will be. The lesser you get to know them the string will go thinner and thinner, until you can't even see it, and might snap anytime. We are all linked. It is like I know this friend, his father knows my teacher, and my teacher knows me. Like in Friendster, it is also somewhat like these 'strings'. Now my strings are quite constant to me. most of it is thickening. Only one is shrinking smaller and smaller, day by day. But what can I do about this. I would love to be that person's friend again, but in my current situation, I doubt so. How I wish the bonds would grow again. Why is life cruel to the majority, or is it only just me? If it is me, I might already know why...

I'm so freaking tired, I just want to sleep... English was amusing, and insulting as well. Wonder if you get a freaking A2, will you fucking cry because you could not get a A1? Someone in my class just so happens to react that way. Just because Show and Tell, that person got a A2, cried. I don't think I can even get a C5, and I won't cry because of that. That person tried to explain another thing that was totally not related to his/her own topic. Get sympathy marks from Mr Woo. Now what should I do for Show and Tell? Anyway, had Biology, then Chemistry. Recess and had Physics test again. Chinese was slack, again... Had homework help, bloody funny over at Hougang Primary School. Then went back to school for Judo. Now got a cramp on my right calf, but no big deal actually. Learn something from Biology about why this happens. Going to eat now.

Drugs only can be used in certain sports and exercise

Since my mum allow me to crap my thoughts out, I shall.

What I read from my friend's blog, I totally agree. Love is a weird game... you like him, he like her, you hate her, he hate you. All this will just bring you back to step one. You will start forming a love triangle/rectangle/hexagon/pentagon etc. It is like I said, it is endless. We can't stop loving, everyone has to love, it is human instinct. It's chance, like a Snake & Ladders. Either go all the way to the finishing end or move all the way back to the start, using the dice as the guide to move that number of steps. Too fast and all the way down you go. Too slow and you get beaten to it. You still have to continue going right? no matter what. Now I'm MIA, stuck, not knowing what to do. I have fall all the way down to out of the game. I want to be friends, but talking to you feels awkward. I want to open my mouth to you, but looking at you reminds me the the incident before... It's heat-breaking like you said. How to get back... I'm trying slowly, but I do not know how long it might take for that to happen, I can't keep my mind off this, I don't know why. Having feelings truly hurt, but it to can heal your wounds. Have no feelings might have it's advantages, as well as disadvantages. I want to be friends, but if I can't even say a word to you. I want to forgive, I can do that. I want to forget, but I'm not sure if that is possible. But there is always a chance in infinity. We might have the same thoughts about this, but we are totally different people. The feelings I have is the same as before, and the feelings you had before is coming back into your life. Change, it is a weird thing. We can never fully change, cause part of it is some where deep down in that we call a heart. Maybe it was me who trigger the memory of that you are having now. If it was, I'm sorry. Mistakes were made, and I wish time would turn back, we all wish for that. It was foolish, careless and a real idiot in believing that you would like me. Life is cruel isn't it? I got shot down by myself... I wish there is something to make this feeling go away. Even if there was, fragments of it will be left within it. This feeling can never go away, it will live on till the day I die... but I got to thank you for something, after that incident, it somehow made me feel more of a better person, just a small bit. I don't know how. It was just a small blessing in disguise...

Drugs, it is a pain-killer to a broken heart, after it wears off, the pain comes back

I shall cut the crap today and head straight to what happen today. I have no time to blog since I helped Wei Zhuang create his blog....

Seems that today is quite slack, my Physics was pulled up to A1 because of my class test. Then now starting on waves, and I suck at it. Then three periods of Mathematics... I wanted to sleep during that time. It was so boring. Then recess, Music discussed about having a class chalet during the school holidays. English period and we were informed to give a Show and Tell presentation, and Mr Woo did not even tell us about this, great. Now I only got three days to complete it. CME was listening to my music the whole time. Then had NCC. Well no one told me I have to bring Spec Course Shirt, and the fact we do not have training today, made me pissed off for bringing my No.4 (I'm not that short-tempered, so after awhile I don't really bother)... I went to the blog a few times and no one posted anything about today. Maybe I just visited the blog to early... So I sat one side looking at them play. Play, chat, talk, challenge each other and blah ,blah, blah... Went to MacDonald's, had a 6PM lunch. Then went home, bathed, took dinner and help Wei Zhuang with the blog.. that's all...

Drugs has a wide array of flavor...

Humans, we all make mistakes. Stupidity, curiosity, unawareness could cause these mistakes. How to prevent it from happening is up to the person. Even if you give ideas to that person, it might not get through him. Do not blaming them for their mistakes. Lowering their self-esteem would make them ignore, as to them, it might seems as you are mocking them. Use your words carefully before say anything. Some people don't even bother you blaming them till they ask for compensations of whoever mistakes it was. When humans hear something involving money, they start to turn their heads towards the speaker. We all want money. Money it the dirtiest thing on the planet and is the root of all evil, although it helps make the world go round. So many people has exchange notes with one another, and that people will do anything to get hold of more. That is where people regret. When doing such things, it will cause somethig big, thus resulting to one of their biggest mistakes of their life. If it is a small mistake, some people can forgive and forget, but to others, it could be something that you broke, which was very precious. Mistakes are like that, they travel around in circles. It's human error.

Wasted my whole day. Sat in fount of the stupid 'box' and 'flat cardboard' for the whole bloody day. Fucked up. Woke up at 10AM plus. Had breakfast and watch some shows on the TV. Then went to the computer. Played DOTA for 1 hour plus. Then mindlessly surfing the web for no reason. I was just jumping from websites on my list. Took a bath, then lunch, the back on this. Went searching for new online games. Then Wei Zhuang chatted with me on MSN, like for 5-10 minutes. So bored I went back watching Naruto Shippuden. Had dinner already... I think I killed myself, not just from boredom, but from other things as well...

The Planet is starting to split, slowly crumbling in bit-size pieces. The survivors of the war are starting to give up, they have lost all hope, and awaiting their death, all but one. He thinks it is worth fighting for it, why? "Even if its a one out of infinity, there is still that 'one'." That was what he said.

Most people thought he was crazy, "who in the right mind would go up against an army of three hundred thousand?" that was the majorities question, "it's a losing battle, it's equivalent to suicide! You will still die in both ways!" Some join him in battle, "I would rather die fighting that stay here waiting for doomsday."

The a group of a thousand men and women each was formed, and went up against all odds to stop the menace from invading this planet. The weapons we had were limited, two lasers, three rocket launchers, seven C4, eleven M16A1, fourteen Desert Eagles, thirty-one samurai swords, sixty-eight cluster bombs, and a ninety-nine handmade melee weapons, and counting. Ammunition was limited, resources are scarce. The first thing planned was to raid their ammunition cargo. It was full of useful weapons which could defeat the alien scum.

It was midnight, there was a total of eleven people. I was assign captain of the team. We moved in a triangular formation. I was the centre man. We were closing in towards the hangar where they were storing their technology. There were two guards at the entrance, they were opening the gates. Our luck came when we saw a huge thirty-two wheeler driving through the hangar.

Once the gates close and the truck was inside, we immediately took action, four men quickly assassinated the two alien guards. No one inside noticed. We had the element of surprise. I ask the four to guard from the outside. The other six follow me to the top of the roof. We crawl through the air ventilation shafts. All were station at their positions. We were about to go for the kill, but gunshots were fired off from the outside. We had to hurry and hijack the truck, or I would be responsible for my men being annihilated...

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Went to Physics tuition today morning. after, went out with my two good friends Ryan and Wei Zhuang. Went Kovan to have lunch. The Japanese cold noodles sucks, I should have ordered ramen. Then we went went to Harborfront to play arcade, but in the end all of us did not have a powercard, so went window shopping instead. Then we took a detour to Doby Ghaut so we could play some games at ZoneX. Then went window shopping again at Plaza Sing. Then went to the arcade again. Had some ice-cream before going home. I now want so many things, especially a desktop and a laptop. I want to be rich... sleepy now, got to go, nighti-night...

My buddies and the scrap metal alien

Wei Zhuang, don't intimidate him, one call and the mother-ship will blow up our bloody planet, so don't bloody ambush him from behind.

A day of drugs makes you sleepy...

Watch half of the National Day Parade on the television. I was only looking forward to the Contingents and the march pass. I think I saw someone I know in the NCC supporting contingent, it was moving too fast though. Waiting for the NDP Sing-a-Long, and the two shows after the NDP, so I'm here blogging for a bit to pass the time. Loved the Black Nights performance. Now my parents just change from Channel 5 to Channel 8, to see the different, now they change to Central and Suria. Now back to Channel 5. See how bored I am? I think I saw some guys in the NCC supporting contingent. I thought it was a all girls thing. Watching at home feels weird after Primary 5, when it was my first time watching it live there. Oh, how I wish I was there to be a spectator. Now it's act three, 'Lion of the Seas'. NDP this year was not as good as the pervious one, I shall stop here, I think the Sing-a-Long is about to start...

The Drugs on National Day are one of the best...

I'm beginning to rot at home. As I'm sitting on the chair at the very moment, I can feel my exterior shedding away and turning into dust. I'm bloody tired, cause of the long hours in front of the flat-screen monitor. I want to go out, but not alone. I'm dying of boredom. It's a Saturday and I bloody have nothing to do than to sit facing the radiating myopia-inducing machine, we call a desktop. Why the fuck is my life like this? Did I do something wrong to deserve this? I don't really know the different between right form wrong (Some thing only). I hate this, even if I log on to MSN, no conversation happens... Only when my friends ask me to play DOTA... I'm seriously getting sick of that game... This is a fucked up life, in a fucked up world..

Had tuition at 9AM-1030AM, it was a Physics extra lesson. Then tomorrow I'm having another one. This is the first time I'm looking forward to tuition. My Chinese tuition was cancel cause it is National Day. I came back, my cousin call me for a match of DOTA. We lost. I ask him if he was going out later. Wild Wild Wet with his friends... Played one match with him then he got to go. Going to have lunch soon, time freaking moves to slow, especially from morning to mid-afternoon. It feels like forever...

Happy National Day by the way. Great job China, at the Bird's Nest Stadium for the Opening of the Olympics, it was totally spectacular and breathe-taking.

Drugs only make my life feel interesting.

Why does life seem so cruel, it is never fair to the majority. Kill me , why don't you... If people who does not know the situation, please do not butt into my life, it is already painful to have such a big wound. My life is boring... Oh how I wish it could be so much exciting. I want to be a superhero... if that ever happens. I want to wield two samurai swords, two board swords, and two revolvers... If I have that money. I want a pairs of angel wings, one black and one white... If genetic mutations were allowed. How I wish my life would be so much more better...

Drugs can serve you well...

Generosity, it goes a long way. It gives me a sense of happiness, not in a I think I'm richer than you a kind of way, but like if I help you, in the future, I will get help in other ways possible. I believe in karma. By doing good things , you will be bless by it in the future. If you do bad things, it will come back to haunt you. Somehow, it also gives me a warmth feeling inside me. I don't know why, but that's my nature. It makes me feel happy when give things away. Maybe it's because of the smile I see went the receiver gets it, even if it is a fake one. It is the 'Gift of Giving'. See someone else happy, makes you happy as well. Even if some one scammed me, I might feel happy cause I donated my $2 away... I do not know what is causing this phenomena, but I just that way.

I do not know why I was Emo, after the concert, I just felt that way. I think I got a split personality, according to Wei Zhuang. But if I know I have a split personality, that means I actually don't have one. National Day Parade in school. Came to school about 6.20AM, then prepared for the actual parade. Soon it started, and was not as bad as I expected. Anyway, went to the hall after that to practice singing. Had recess, then the concert started, 3E1's Cheer rocked, but it came in second. Went to MacDonald's after that. Emo the whole time after that. Guo Sheng and Wei Long, you two are like peas in a pod. Corey, don't get to pissed up over small things. Ryan, you have a pussy. Marjorie, I found out that your Ernie can be shove in a small size cup. Wei Zhuang, you like putting stuff toys into small cups. NCC, good job, I sometimes feel it could be quite bias, but it does not bother me much, maybe to the others.

I feel that my life is wasted on simple things, and I really do agree.. I wish i could do more...

Drugs are not plushies..

Love, simply put it, it's weird. It sounds so simple, yet the complexity of it is so grand. It sounds simple to some, to others it is a unknown phenomena. But nobody really know the exact meaning of it. It can be a type of feeling, action etc. Different people have different definitions. Out of the countless grains of sand on the beach, only few are shape the same. Some people experience 'puppy-love' in their youth. Just having a crush on someone, hiding it from her, and telling your close friends about it. It is a thrill of somewhat, just to crush on someone. After you tell him/her that you like him/her, he/she either accept you and start going on dates from 1 week onwards, then one of you suggest the break-up, then find another guy/girl or continue with you and him/her love life. Or he/she rejects you, then you find another or try a to get through the guy's/girl's heart. If still rejected, get another. If accepted , then the above happens. Usually, after 'puppy-love', it MIGHT result into a deep relationship, or continue 'puppy-love' till you get older. Love can kill. If you truly love some one, and that some one disapproves, you can feel your heart being crush into small little pieces by a tiny toy hammer. And it seriously hurts, trust me. You can go into a state of trauma, and can take your life, but sometimes it helps. You might feel better after saying, and even be a better person. But remember, don't get forced by your buddies to tell the little Miss/Mr perfect that you love them. It is a mistake I will never forget. Most times, relationships at age 12-17 would not last long, but the older you get the tighter the strings attached. At this time, if you go dating, it is just to prepare you for the future. But in some cases, very rare ones, it could last for a lifetime. There are many cases of love, now I'm just talking about some of the different types of love. See, the topics about it is endless, even if you wrote it in a book for a lifetime, there will be no ending. 'Love is Blind', and it is. This phrase has about a few hundred meanings, depending how you interpret it. I will just say a common one, you could just love someone for their looks, but not their personality. Even if you have him/her, how do you maintain it? If you break up, is there a way to get back? How? There is so many answers, so little time. I love this girl for her looks and her personalities, but she likes another, and the another likes another. The friends who supported me ask me to give up now. So should I carry on? My heart is tearing in to bit-size pieces. It helps me in some ways, and crushes me in another. Even some people like me can't even answer my own question. If you truly like some one, you might think differently what others might think about him/her, so I can't really ask advice from them. Now I feel like I have reach a dead corner. I'm stuck in the freeway. See others, they have their own story, and have to decide it their self. Love is a twilight zone. It is totally full of mysteries... Talk about it some other time...

Today, had Chemistry practical and as usual, I will mix all of the chemicals given together. Sat with Benedick cause he did not want to sit with Corey. Had some mathematics lessons, and NDP rehearsals. Went to the gym even though it was raining... Have to make it a habit. Used the computer and played with my buddies, and now blogging. Anything else? Took a bath, ate, congratulations to those wearing your No.1's in the parade, rain, rain, rain so part of the parade rehearsals cancelled. Alex, I fucking hate your guts. Ryan, Hi. Guo Sheng, You suck, just kidding. Corey, you are not the Alpha Male anymore, Nigel, nice trick with the cube, I can do it as well. Nothing else I think of, plus I'm kinda sleep right now...

The majority of sand that is painted green (DRUGS), is in a small amount...

Love you NCC. Judo, coming back after NDP.

If you did read the previous post, there is a linking to this post as well. This is going to be quite simple cause I have not enough time.

Your thoughts is very important, without it you can't really do much. There are categories of thoughts. One of it is day-dreaming. It is something to stimulate your mind when you are bored. Usually, this distracts you from the real world, as you go into your own world of possibilities. Being a superhero, being rich, being a undercover spy etc. All the things that you think will make your life more exciting than it is now. But don't day-dream too much, you might affect your studies, work and life. It will take up your time thinking about the impossible, and when you are deep in thought, you usually can only think of one thought at a time (unless you are a very good at multi-tasking), thus neglecting your studies and work. Your life can be affect as well, indulgence could set in, making you belief it it happening in real life, but this cases are rare. Day-dreaming could help you also. It can bring up the confidence in you. If you feel down, you read through your thoughts about peacefulness etc. Whenever you are feeling bored, take breath, and start day-dreaming, just don't get caught by the teacher.

Received back my Physics paper, which was a B4, Biology paper, C5 and Chemistry paper, C6. Chinese failed by 1 mark.. Nothing much happen today, Had NDP full-dress rehearsal. Didn't go to Gym today cause had no time. Ending it here, because there is nothing else important to post.

Drugs, can they bring you back?

I wish, you wish, he wish, she wish, we wish... Everyone wishes that their dreams would become a reality. I wish for a game console, I wish I was smart, I wish I had her, I wish I had him, I wish my life would change... We all want the things we desire, love... but can you get those wishes? None of them is impossible, do something about it. You just need a glimmer of hope, a dash of luck, and a few million truckloads of hard work. Hope for it to come true, or it will never happen. Even if it is a 1 out of infinity chance, you still have that 1 luck on your side. Hard work comes along way, persevere and don't give up, it will increase your chances of getting what you have longed for. Even things like wanting a pair of angel wings is possible, Genetic Engineers could help you with that... A wish can simulate in your mind, and it's free. In reality, it's expensive, we have to find a possible path, from there then will get that wish. I longed for something, but the path is rocky and steep, and any point of time, I just might die...

My day wasn't that bad. Had Mathematics and Physics lessons. I got a B grade for Physics paper, both my Mathematics got C grades. Stayed in class for recess. The rest of the periods were time consuming. Then had the Sci-Humatics. Guo Sheng, Corey and I were station masters in the Mathematics activity room. Most of the times, we were on the computer. Then after that was done, went to the canteen to eat. When I reached home, I went to the condominium's gym. Exercise for about 40 minutes, then went home to take a bath and eat to my hearts content...

Drugs, when you start, you don't stop...

If you have nothing good to say to me, you can say, just don't let me know who you are. Nigel it is very obvious that it is you, if you want to tell me this tell it straight in my face, don't put an anonymous name and say it on my blog. I don't have anything against you, if you are a friend tell me what you bloody don't like about me just say it, I will try to change. That's goes for everyone else.

My music is my Drug, bloody remember that..

There's something lurking in the dark. Visibility is limited even if the campfire was shining brightly. I kept looking around, but the creature could not be spotted. Just the slightest sound would make my hair stand. I was wondering what happen to her, where did she go? Then I saw a silhouette of something, I could not picture it. It's movement was swift. Then it appeared right in front of me. The creature was about a metre taller than me, and was on all fours. It was covered with scales and fangs the size of a Sabertooth. There was patches of blood around it, and I thought about her... I did not want that to happen. The beast stared at me with bloodshot eyes, waiting for an attack. It then raised it's sharp bloody paws. The target was my forehead. I was afraid, totally went rock hard. I kept asking myself to move, move, move... the paw came straight at me. Within a split second, my head dodged it, but instead slashing my neck. I quickly ran, ran far away from the campfire into the woods. That creature roared at me and starting chasing, and was moving at a rapid rate. I tried to cup my neck from bleeding, but to no avail. Then a harp was played. The music was so soothing, I could almost fall asleep, but I kept my mind awake and continued to dash straight forward. The creature was not tailing me anymore... I stop to take a breath. My wound acted up, the pain and agony, it hurts. I was pale and confused, now knowing what to do..

I'm tired, sleep is the only option, life was painful, my result sucks, except for English. Just pass Elementary Mathematics but failed Social Studies (I'm always too fucking slow in doing stuff). If the results does not total to 25 L1R5 or more, I will be so happy. Nigel, please don't fucking piss people off, the sarcasm is OK, your arrogance is something I don't like. Sorry for those who I thought you are wearing no.1, it's a sad life, isn't it? The rest of you are the same old self, that's good.

Drugs does not help in everything right now...

I finally understand how Global Warming, which Wei Long, my good friend, mention that it is coming, but it is already happening, and how it is going to kill us all, is affecting our small little planet we call Earth. I have just watch 'The Day After Tomorrow' on Channel 5. I already watch it about 4-5 times already, but I did not understand how it turn into the 'Third World', meaning having a second Ice Age. Well seems I understand it now, I shall explain the process.

1. Over use of fossil fuel / Deforestation
- We use oil, petroleum and anything else that is made from fossil fuel. We burn them, creating greenhouse gases, like methane, carbon monoxide, carbon dioxide etc. Just to turn turbines and produce energy for our small, growing and industrial city. As the city gets bigger, more fuel will be used, meaning more greenhouse gases will be produce. Greenhouse gases are gases which help maintain the heat on earth, but in excessive, the results would be lethal. Since the city is getting bigger, housing and furniture is needed. This is where deforestation occurs. Cutting down the trees would result in the increase of carbon dioxide, due to the imbalance of respiration and photosynthesis happening.

2. Greenhouse effect
- The greenhouse effect is the process in which the emission of infrared radiation by the atmosphere warms the planet surface. Due to excess of greenhouse gases, Global Warming occurs.

3. Global Warming
- From the heading, you would know it means the warming of the Earth. It is the increase in the average measure temperature on the planet. Due to this, in the short run, it results in droughts, increase in forest fire, extreme weather events etc. In the long run, rising sea levels, arctic shrinkage, which is the of the decease of Ice at the arctic from due to the melting of Greenland Ice Sheets, and Glacier Retreat, meaning the melting of snow and movement of fresh water into the sea. All of the long term situations, all are link to fresh water, results in Global Cooling.

4. Global Cooling
- Meaning cooling of the Earth. Thermohaline Circulation (THC) Which was mention in the movie, means the ocean circulation moved by global density gradient, which is created by freshwater and the heat above. The heat and salt content determine the density of sea water. As such, the state of the circulation has a large impact on the climate of the Earth. It is an important role in supplying heat to the polar regions, thus in regulating the amount of sea ice in these regions. The change in this have significant effects on the planet. Due the increasing heat and low density freshwater, it slows down the process. The lesser the heat brought to the polar region, the cooler the Earth gets, and if it was to drastic, BANG! A new Ice Age begins. More about Thermohaline Circulation (THC) by clicking HERE.

This cycle will repeat, but the 2ND Ice Age would not happen in another few thousand to million years, depending now how we are using our resources carefully. So live long and prosper.

A story is developing in everyone of our lives. We are like video recorders. We recorded it down when we were just a 5 minutes tape recorder, now that we are camera phones, we should continue developing our story, not matter how bloody boring it is. We should not stop halfway to tell the story, just go with the flow till a 1970s camera, where it is time to tell the tale of the past...

Can Drugs really stop global warming?

Everyone thinks differently, have a different prospective of life and a different belief. Some thinks that there are no such things as best friends, some thinks that life is easy going, some thinks that if life sucks, we should just die... We do not know what the person is thinking or going to say (unless you have telepathy), that's why we try to make friends to know each other better... Everyone thinks so differently, that's why people quarrel, fight, ignore, hate, envy, hang out, love and talk with others... The phrase 'Beauty is the Eyes of the Beholder' is an example. What you think might be helpful, beautiful and nice, could be useless, ugly and mean to someone else... On most occasions, you can't change the person's thought and belief, because even if you did, deep down inside him/her, there is still that thought of whatever you had change. Some are possible, but it very seldom...

After tuition today, went to Buddhist class, then Compass Point to eat. Now back home. It's boring, going gym later...

Drugs are starting to fly off the shelves. Luckily, I got an Infinity of Drugs...

Life is cruel, it stabs you on the back when you least expected.. when you get shot down, it brings your moral down, it make a person pessimistic.. You think your whole life is over, and that's what I think as well.. Love is even worst. It is blind, it is the keyhole to destroy your life, or make it even better. It's 50/50. I should have listen to the advice you told me, I have wasted my time asking, I should have kept it away, not letting you know... but I did not listen, I just have to tell you.. now you are a total stranger, I don't know you at all.. My cousin, Darren, your friends were un-supportive.. and you might have lost what you always wanted.. we are in the same predicament.. our life sucks, but what the FUCKING HELL CAN WE DO ABOUT IT?

DRUGS.. I NEED DRUGS..

The scar is deep, it's on a muscle, the size of a fist. The person who cause the scar, is the only one who can heal it.. As attention is being delayed, the scar gets bigger, gets wider, and more painful.. Yet the person who did it, ignored what happen, and left me here to die.. It was not totally the person's fault. If I was careful, and stop swinging the knife around, I could have prevented the suffering and torment.. The scar gets bigger, death is closing in, even condolence from my friends would not help.. And yet I'm still being ignored.. Just apon hearing your voice, my scar would heal..

The lost was not a big deal, I'm glad I went, it was a good experience.. 6.30AM and was off to school. Till 4.30PM it ended. Excessive games of Scrabble is not good for the soul.. As usual, the goverment schools and the schools who hosted the competition always win. came back about 7.20PM. Never went to the gym today, don't usually go there after 7PM.. It was a short day though.. but it was fun. Corey, you were the best out of the 5 of us. Guo Sheng, out of the 7 times you played this game, you at least won one. Darren, don't overdo the racist jokes. Kuan Chong, you must stop looking at girls.. NCC, how was NDP training today? To Wei Zhuang, SinLee and Marjorie, Hi guys.. That's about all I guess.. boring isn't it?

The drugs are on a high price now, but for me it's free...

Hey it about 6am+... I'm awake... just to talk about my day yesterday. Biology test almost rape me. CME was the most useless paper ever. Ryan, don't emo, Corey, you are missing out in all the fun, Nigel, you too. Guo Sheng, Naruto some more. Mr Chong, you are not that bad after all.. after all the test went to help Mdm Ng in the Sci-Humatics thing... Played until 5 minutes left, then me and Guo Sheng started doing the research. Reach and went to the gym, for about 45 minutes. After that had tution. Today, having Scrabble Competition, wish me luck..

Drugs, Drugs, Drugs..

If time was reversible... I could make the life I wanted my way, I could make myself the most popular kid in school, I could get the girl I always love. I could prevent my misfortune, and be the luckiest guy in school. But, if I did that, I might not have the friends I have now, I could ruin and destroy their life, or invite fortune and popularity. I love my friends, cause without them, my survival would be meaningless. Even if it's in a mess and thrown around every single corner of this container, I still have my friends to help me clean it up. To my best friends : Guo Sheng, Corey, Nigel, Jia Liang, Wei Zhuang, Jeremy, Ryan, Darren and Gerrald, thanks for all that you help me in. Guo Sheng, Corey and Nigel, the trio which are the closest to me. Jia Liang and Jeremy, the masters of Chinese Chess who never fails to make my day. Wei Zhuang and Gerrald, the 'counsellors' who listen and help me when I'm feeling down. And the double duo, Ryan and Darren, where we share stuff openly to one another. I'm not willing to sacrifice the friendship I had with you all for things like the above..

I'm confused, I'm reaching the point of insanity... I do not know what to do... I'm dying from the stress, the pressure, the heat... This is dangerous, even if time was to fall back, nothing would change the course of of this from ever happening... Judo, I don't feel that I'm a part of you, but I missed it. All those who gets to wear No.1 in NDP, congratulations (except for Alex). Alex, No.1 is not a big deal to me, but stop pushing it into other people's faces. NCC cadets, those who came today, thank you. Those who did not, you all better fucking come... Making this short and simple cause my mother is nagging, and I have to wake up at 6am for the scrabble competition... Insanity, Insanity, Insanity...

Drugs are good if you use them for the right purpose..