When It Comes Clear, I Found My Resolve

It's not worth the wait. You might be all of that which I thought about, but I found out that something which you are missing. 


You think she is all that, you think she is worth it, but after watching this 15 minute short clip 'The Crush', I realize, girls are 'stupid', and by that, it means they don't have the maturity and right thought to settle a problem in which that clears up misunderstandings, assumptions and the bullshit you have been through.
I have been through a lot of crap in 18 years of my life, until the time I realize, just today, why I myself fail. Many factors is based on me, but I just found out, most of the girls I failed at and once liked, did not have that maturity I have been looking for, and I just figured that out few minutes ago. Maybe now, that is what I look into someone if I'm intercepting for a kill. And throughout that amount of girls I once like so much, only one had the maturity to clear up the nonsense, and I found out, she was the only one who actually made me hit rock bottom after trying to go for her and fail. Yet, through that, I gained the most painful experience, but learnt plentiful from there. And out of all the rest, she is still a good friend to me :D

So I decided to finally let go, but, that still doesn't mean I don't want to be your friend, because from everyone you know in your life, you will learn something from them, how big or insignificant, it is still experience.
I just learnt that from you, and I want to give a great gratitude to you and believe we all can let bygones be bygones, start a new fresh as good friends. And to the other guy, who from what I heard lied to me, go for it my friend. You will and forever stay a good friend to me, you help me in many things in both past and present. I forgave and let go of any unhappiness and jealousy, because there is no point being sulky over something and regret it later. Feelings are impermanent, so rather realize it now then later.

And thanks loads to the people who drank with me today, really helped me to think that through, as well as that short clip.

Rescuing Sorrows