Through all the times, I have been thinking, through all the times I plan, but what I did was to no avail, cause there was nothing there anymore. Like my friend once said "You have foresight", and sometimes, I wish my foresight was wrong. Never in my life I wished it was wrong, until now. Logic anyways seems correct, and sometimes I wish it wasn't, but I can't help myself to think logical. No wonder he did not feel threaten, because there was no threat in the first place. Yet, were all this planned by them? Is this a joke to them? I will never know, and I'll never find out. I hate being given false hope, and I always blame others for doing that to me, but instead its my fault for giving me such hope. I don't know how his feelings developed, but the feelings I developed was true, and now it hurts so bad. My pride of being a man has been destroyed by him, while I did not destroy his. I even thought about how not to affect him, but instead affected myself. Why couldn't you tell me earlier before my feelings developed?
Fate is such a cruel thing, but that is life, I always think that being the good guy was fine, but maybe I'm just to good to bully.
Well, I don't think I'll be going for anyone else for the time being, seeing the title. Yet, I can't let petty things forgo a friendship on both sides.
It will be hard to try and be myself again, but thats my karma.
I tried and tried the many times I tried, so just try harder next time, if there is even one.
No matter what, I will thank them for what they have did, and leave what I should has left behind: Nothing happened.
Nevertheless, I'm strong, I'm experienced, I can let it go.
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