So What Should I Think?

My previous post was about assumption, and assume that I got things logically planned out, but it isn't to what I think it was, or is it?
The thing is, always, whenever I feel down in that way, while blogging or after blogging, she will text me back the message I have long waited for, and she just did. Maybe thats her style, or maybe its done on purpose.I feel bad yet happy, and totally confuse, but, I feel more bad by doubting than having more trust in my friend. I shouldn't have done that. What type of friend doesn't trust their companions? I feel ashame, and am I worth being your friend by saying things about you that way? I just feel horrible.

I do have self-awareness, but it comes at the wrong time.

Yet, I feel that there is another quality inside you: you will not forget about the friends you love and you will always make an effort to make them happy, if it is in your means to do so.
For me to be happy is for me to know the truth, but that has to wait, especially now. The time will come for the truth to be told, but as for now, I stay optimistic, hoping.

I'm Sorry