I hate separation, even among friends, it's very heartbreaking. I want connection, I don't want cliques to be formed among my fellow friends. I want to help everyone to get together. I don't like seeing someone apart from another group far away in the horizon, and worst of all, I'm in the middle of it. Like I said before, friends are my life support. Without them, I would be clinging onto the fabric of life. I would help them in anyway I could. I could do anything for my friends, even dedicate my life to them. I help others more than myself, Even though I have troubles in my life, I ignore them, and continue to help the people I know and love. I cherish my friends more than my life, that's why helping them is my first priority. Maybe you might not think that is true, but to me, it really is.

I hate pessimists, but I'm one myself. I like to see other people enjoying themselves, and if their not, I would like to help them to feel the enjoyment like the others. But because of this, I envy them. I envy them for having the stuff I don't and wish for, and the happiness they have at the point of time. I feel happy for them but not myself. That's why I'm pessimistic, that's why I hate my life. A friend told me I should help myself more, but my nature is helping others, and not me. Even if I help them have a better life, I would feel happy for that person, but I would also envy them as well. I love/hate this feeling.

I'm taking a chance, 50/50. I don't want a repetition of what happened before. Things that happen twice are never good. If it's known, I will suffer more. If is not known, I will be safe, until it's exposed. It's dangerous. I feel like shit now. Maybe people who read this know what's happening. I don't want to lose a strain of my life. I not sure if this path is better than the other, but it seems that I'm already walking on it, I can't go back.

School was as per normal. I going to rush through in point form:

1. Free periods, listen to music
2. Jia Liang tought half a lesson about Perpose
3. Corey's composition was printed out and handed to the whole class
4. Mr Soh, came to relief our lesson
5. Recess was as usual
6. Went to study after school with Wei Zhuang, Marjorie and Cindy
7. SinLee and Nicole found us in the library and we change studying locations
8. Not long, Marjorie and Cindy left
9. After that, took a walk around Compass Point
10. Took a bus home
11. Going to Nigel's house to stay over for tommrow's trip

Saw some familar face there. I don't really like today. I don't feel like posting much about today, but I want to as well... Anyway, there's a lack of time because I need to go tuition now.

Drugs... forget it...