Lets see what should I post today... First off, my friend's display picture looks hot. Second, Ryan thinks he messages are working. Third, my friend appreciates my blog! Thank you... Fourth, I finally got my class-tee! Nice design. Fifth, I had school today and I appreciated the lessons today. I actually listened to all the lessons today, I rock, HAHA. Studied with friends as well, and there was progress! Wohoo! I found out that 93 cents of interest over 1000 years will accumulate up to 4.3 billion dollars! And that is what I found out during Mr Woo's lesson. Was watching 'Futurama' (not sure if the spelling is right). Finished watching 'August Rush'. I love the music!

Love, hearts and red roses. Red roses Symbolizes love. Heart shape pictures and objects also have the same symbolic meaning. Most things red have that exact meaning as well... Love has categories. True love, Puppy love, One-Time love, Family love and anything else you can think off.

True love is the deepest love you can ever get, the warmth that can turn you into butter, the feeling which makes you feel as light as a feather, the deepest passion of romance that you can ever imagine, the person that will stay with you for a lifetime, the kiss that will forever be memorable. That is what it means to me.

Puppy love is something that happens in our youth, especially from age 7-16. It can't be avoided because the power is too great. You get absorbed into it as fast as the speed of light. There are a few cures for it, rejection and the lost of interest. But the effects last from 1week-a few months, depending on the type of personality he/she has. Puppy love is strong, but not as strong as true love. It's something that we are aware of, but we do not know the difference between them. That's why this can deeply hurt someone. It is highly impossible to maintain puppy love, but there is a extremely small percentage of people who can mature it to true love. It's highly impossible, but still possible. And remember, have a short attention-span like me, should not get involve in this.

One-Time love has something to do with Puppy love. It involves having a short attention-span. Usually, this are relationships that last from a week to a month, and then on to another relationship, and so on and so forth. Whoever is being dump, could really affect his/her self-esteem, and that could happen every few week. So this is one of the worst.

Family love is the love that you receive from your family. No matter what family: real family, made-up family or distant family, you still can feel the love around you, just at a different wavelength.

There are still plenty of categories like love at First Sight, love is Blind, love Sick and much more. These are mine definitions, but love is up to your imagination, it has no definite meaning. This whole thing might not be true to you, but might be for others.

No matter how bad a leader you are, if someone leads, the rest will follow.

I'm addicted to blogging and that is a good thing... BUT! End-of-Year is something I can't escape! Even if I listen in class, I still have to memorize the shit out of the bloody textbook, and that is something I cannot do at home, maybe with friends, MAYBE. Social Studies are around the corner! And it is one of my weakest subjects! Good game for me. I should start spinning around in circles for no reason because I feel like it... I being lame cause boredom is taking over me... Even for the most exciting things in my life, I have a very short attention-span about it (I don't think there was a link in my sentence... Oh well). That's why studying is something I can't do well in. I just want to say this again, good game... I'm waiting for exams to be over so I can watch all the shows online, but! (there is always this 'but' in my way) I'm totally doing nothing for my studies, so why I'm I waiting till the exams end? Instinct I guess... Well this year was nothing interesting, except of pain and suffering... Why the fuck am I thinking about pain and suffering! (In his happy world at the moment) OK......

I miss secondary 2, where there were only 10 guys in class, and when our teacher were at their best. Secondary 1 was a bad year for me, because I broke my collar bone and could not go for CCAs for 2 months, and this was where my short attention-span kicked in for this secondary school life. Hoping that next year will be so much better for me.

Off topic... Or was there even a topic to start with??? Never mind that, I have been shooting the thoughts that are going through my mind at the moment. Today was nothing special... It seriously feels like week after week, there is no difference in my day, we just get older and wiser/dumber. My brain cells are yawning... I think they are shouting 'we need adrenaline!' or they just want to sleep.

Hatred is something evil, something which we are suppose to know, but not have. When we know it, we don't adapt it. It is so scary just by knowing what hate can do to us and other people, but people still carry out this sick ritual of hate. Soon, hatred voids in their lungs, heart, brain and soon the who body, where it starts to take over and becomes a habit. It's all in your mind, and you have control of it. Never let it possess you, break free of the chains that restrains your happiness. This world is not for the weak-hearted, be strong, everyone can. You will feel better if you knew this.

Do your best fighting, even if you are defeated, you are no loser if you did your best.

I'm going on a Anime Blogskin frenzy! So most of my background will be related to Anime! Going to put the song in later.

I'm so tired... I'm getting tired of my blogskin as well. Anyway here's what I have found out this pass few days, as well as today:

I have this can't-let-go-of-things personality. When I see it, I want it. Good thing is that I won't take things for granted. Bad thing is that I can't let go, I keep it to myself. Found this out about 3days ago. Today, I accept it and taking note of it. For this, I like to thanks to almost everyone I know.

Next, loving and caring for people is one thing, and for me to do that, I must care about myself as well. If I don't, carrying out the this above will be more difficult. Found this out today, thanks cousin.

Third, if you still hate me, this is what I got to say: Hey *blank*, I apologise for umm, irritating you in the past. For doing all those stupid stuff as well. Even if you still hate me after this message, I'm fine with it, although being friends will be much better, I think. Hoping your life will get better, and no hard feelings. Not sure if this is for the better or the worst, but we wont know till we try. I like to thank my cousin for this, in some manner.

Fourth, I love my family, not just my Dad, Mum and Sister, all my relatives as well. It's easy to share things with you all. I feel safe being around with you all. You all were there when I needed help, but I just did not open up. Found this out yesterday, and it obvious who I going to thank this too, my family.

Fifth, friends come and go, did not really believe that until today. But my belief might be different from what people say: We have no enemies, everyone is our friend, it is just weather or not we ever meet them or not in anyway. Even if we meet them, it has to be constant, or the bonds between them will loosen, then they might really go, even though they are your friends. Thanks to me and my cousin to make such simple things complicated, HAHA.

Sixth, I'm getting bored of this skin. Just found out a few hours ago.

Seventh, SinLee birthday is going to be troublesome, so many hamsters...

Eighth, when people are talking behind your back, thinking that it is about you, think that they are talking something good about you and walk away, with a smile.

Ninth, Risk is a dangerous game, look at the amount of plastic thrown around, and the rape the soldiers do when it's not their turn.

Tenth, there should not be the word hate in your mind, it will affect you in ways you do not want to know, facts from my mother.

Eleventh, be yourself, don't care what other people think bad about you. If you want to change, change for the better, for yourself. True friends are the one who tells you what your flaws are so you can change for the better and for them, even though they might think it will hurt your feelings. Thanks to you again cousin, and those who owned up to me about my flaws.

Twelfth, lies are only for you to listen, not for others to hear.

Thirteenth, if I have a chance to have superpowers, I know which are the ones I want.

Fourteenth, cockroaches will rule this world in the far future.

And lastly, I feel very warm...

Wow! I have found out so many things today! And that is only just 1/100 of it! I think too much... HAHA! Now for the overview of today. Went for Physics tuition, went to Buddhist class, went to Compass point with my cousin, bought Mac, had a good talk with her and took a 119 home. Wow! Search for stuff about hamsters for SinLee's future reference. Good Night! Or Good afternoon!

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy... I actually resorted to playing Pokemon on the computer... How bored can my life get? Chatted with a few people on MSN as well. I'm starting to wonder if there is a possible way to get my friendship back... I wonder what would it be like if I had the super powers I want... I wonder what if I did not go to this school... I wonder what life would be with out friends... I wonder too much. I need to stop thinking and take action. I need do do something... Or I would just wonder off into my own world... Now I'm wondering if I paired up this two people, what would the outcome be? Again I'm wondering how does God look like... Damn, it getting seriously boring, and I need to start mugging... Examinations are just 4-5 days away... Biology might be good as gone, Chemistry, it's already confirmed, Mathematics for both, I can pass them, but can't ace them... Physics is not a problem getting a passing mark, Chinese, give up... Humanites, even if I get a A1, 55% of it failed. Damn,kill me... Stop wondering already!

EXAMINATIONS ARE A SERIOUS WASTE OF TIME!

Biological warfare is unfair, using dirty tactics like Hitler is horrible, stop this war!!! But still so much bloodshed happened across the world, what can we do to amen for this? In the end, the world is living in poverty and unhappiness. When major powers starts to team up, it's the end for the weaklings, we retreat, we hide. But alliances are always being broken, you can never really predict the future. Sometimes weaklings can still dominate, they just need the brains and to buy time. So we have to just buy time... But there was to much bloodshed, we are afraid. So what if we buy time? Timid as we are, we can never accomplish anything. Even the major powers are threatening us, but some just prefer to die... So much bloodshed, all the plastic was thrown all around the world, the blacks and yellows were dominating, while blue and white was wipe out. The whole of Asia was taken over by the reds, the greens was limited in Australia, due to the great depression. The army in Australia and Asia did not want to see plastic being thrown around anymore, they surrendered, and were killed for starting the war, they preferred to die than continue living, just like the blues and the whites... And they needed to go home. But amendments still have to be made for the plastics that had been used in the war... Risk... It's that dangerous in a game of Risk. Nigel and Me dominated the game. Corey was the reds, Jeremy the Greens, JiaLiang the Blues and GuoSheng the whites. Nigel was the yellows. I'm what's left. Then there was plenty of rape, not in the game, at Nigel's house. Luckily I wasn't involved. More than 2 hours long... Before going to his house, they were gaying around at the playground. I was the one who wanted to go Nigel's house to play risk. But along the way I got so bloody bored, I was pissed... I was waiting to play it, but they were fooling around like idiots. I reached his house. Played, with the maximum number of people, 6. Then, I got more bored because it was taking so long for one person to take their turn. I was so pissed... But anyway their antics never fail to bring a smile on my face, even if it was a small bit. Took a bus to Hougang Mall with Guo and Jeremy. Went to buy a doughnut and waited for my shuttle bus. went home and type some notes on the computer. Went for tuition too.

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

I would like to dedicate this post to my Family! (Not NCC family)

I love my parents, they are there when I need them. They help me though my times of hardship, and I only knew this yesterday. Although you both scold me, shout at me and get mad at me, in the end we are one big family. I know you all scold me because you want me to change, you don't want me to repeat that mistake, like someone. Although I scold back as well, I don't mean a thing I say when I was shouting, I'm sorry.

Caring Daddy, thanks for encouraging me to do well in my examinations, you have been a great help all these years. You are funny, you like to joke around at times, but when you are serious, you are really serious. Although you criticise me at times, I still have fun when you are around. Word of advise dad, stop smoking. I love you.

Sister Dearest, you were the person I played with the most when I was young. We always fight, we always quarrel, we always blame and we always argue, but we had fun. When you leave home to go for exchange programs or when you go back to your hostel, I feel lonely, no one to quarrel with or talk to. You are a great sister, I still remembered the times you brought me to watch movies and the times we play Sim2 together. I love you too.

Lovely Mummy, Thank you. Thank you for everything, for teaching me Chinese, for enrolling me in tuition, for the advise you gave me yesterday, you make me feel happy again. Now I know than I can open up to you anytime. If not, I would have been hiding in the darkness for a very long time, and by then, it will be to late. Thanks for the talk yesterday with me and sister. I appreciate it. You give great advise mummy. Don't overwork too much ok? Take a break. I love you so much.

You all should cherish your family while you still can, do as much as you can for them. The best person to talk to when you feel down or angry are them, remember that. Love them to the fullest.

Family, that's what everyone needs...

Change the skin... I living in hatred now... Because of my fucked up life which I screwed it up more... I thinks this suits me... But who cares?

I failed as a friend... I lost a friend... The hate still lies within that friend, and I can't do a single bit about it... It feels as if I'm being hated by the world now, but no point telling you this. Although you are being frank, it might hurt, but I understand. Understand it very clearly. I was pissed, after the first time, I was still persuasive, I should have stop. I shouldn't have even fall for you... It would not have resulted in such disastrous turn outs... I'm sorry, but what can sorry do now? Even after I said sorry the first time, it did not feel like we were friends, because I know you felt that I was irrating. I think that you are trying telling me that our friendship ends here. That is what I'm guessing you meant. Well if it is, hope you will be happy. Maybe one day we can be friends again, like before all this happened. Good friends. I hope one day, you will just click on my MSN and have a chat with me...

Losing a friend is heartbreaking...

Huh. Was so EMO today, few things almost... Took 3 periods sleeping during Chinese. And I came across this dream, I see everyone playing happily together. All smiles on their faces. Then I saw conflict between a few people, they all were siding one another. Soon groups were formed. Then I saw a war happen between them. A lot of them died, and they cried over those who have been close to them, they were like family. They were in regret, the others who survived. Then I woke up. It seems that the dream made me come to my senses, it was clear. I know what to do. I was not that EMO anymore. Sleeping always does wonders.

I gave in, gave up and gave out. I cheated, and cheaters never prosper, so you win. You got the way you want. You pushed me to far off the edge... It actually worked. I knew what was going on. I got pissed and very upset yes, but I controlled. You knock me out of my senses. Thanks. But for that to happen, the pain you inflicted was unbearable, I could barely stand up, till the light shone. I found out that you were right. When the light shone, the damage was healed instantly, but it left a small scar. Sorry for my selfish thinking, sorry for making you angry, sorry for all the trouble I have cause, don't hate him, because it was me who was the mastermind.

Now I just want to know, do you hate me because of this? If you don't, I still wish we still can be friends, good friends, or maybe even best friends. If you do, then don't hate him, focus your hatred on me, if it pleases you to do so. Now I just want to know...

I want to know what you all think about me. If there is anything, ANYTHING that is needed for me to change, TELL ME WHAT AND HOW. I WON'T BE ABLE TO KNOW WHAT IT IS FOR ME TO CHANGE, IF YOU DON'T SPECIFY. I WANT TO KNOW SO I CAN BE A BETTER PERSON.

Was so bored I went to visit blogs:

Came across a few test on Joyce's Blog, Decided to take them.

{Get to know yourself better}
I think the 4th one is a joke.

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

{Your hidden talent}
Might be true...

The Mass Communicator:You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

Note: The following Quiz below was just for fun, I it was only 1 question.
{What would you do if your boyfriend dumped you?}
Another thing to joke about, I mean the boyfriend part:

Here is the analysis:You believe that whatever will be, will be. If he wanted to leave you, you would take it as your fate. You might laugh or cry, depending on your own mood at that moment.

{Love test}

Like I say, it might be true.

Here is the analysis:
When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.You give 50% to your relationship and expect to receive 50% in return. If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself. You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible. You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you. When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

I'm done time to sleep.

If it involves me, I would like to know.
If it involves someone I don't know, up to you.
If it involves the world, I wouldn't bother.
If it involves my close friends, it's a must.
If it involves life, I can try to help you.
It's up to you.

OK I seriously don't know what to put at the top now, randomly spamming.
Cut it short, I got English Examinations answers, if you want come get it from me. Boring day, Did lots of revisions in class. After recess, slack all the way. After school, went to study with friends, then went home. Went to cut my hair today as well.

Drugging, maybe later..

Lies are a dangerous thing, it will multiply once you start the first one, until it is finally unraveled. Everyone lies in their lives. Sometimes lies are just for fun, talk about stuff that are not true and we all start to laugh. Sometimes they are really serious, so serious that you have to keep on lying to the person, till he or she finds out the truth. This lies can break a lot of things, especially someones heart. People might think differently after they found out that you lied. But for what reason you are taking this chance? Is it something bad that happen? Is it a secret that you have to lie to everyone? Is it something that you want to prevent from happening? Do you want to hide away from the madness? Is it something you want to prevent from happening again? Only the liar knows. It a chance you have to take, lie forever until the people know, or come up to face the truth, and face whatever lies ahead of you, either good or bad. But usually it will be something bad which makes you lie, so you either face it and receive lesser punishment, or lie and 'be hated for the rest of your life' sort-of-punishment once it is being found out. But it is very hard to see weather someone is lying or not, until the later lies. And remember, do not drag anyone into your lying, you might make them hated as well. It's a chance, always remember that.

I'm already here, and I brought (it on/people with) me, hope it will (be best/not be regretting/be worst)...

Had my English examinations today, and I screwed it up so badly! Fuck! I think I might not go into 4E1 next year... Fuck. I'm might bloody retain or go to academic, and if that happens, I'm going to academic instead... Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Now I need to study hard for my other subjects, but by the looks at my English, if I fail, OH MY GOD!!! No matter how hard I study for the other subjects, I'm going to fucking retain! I'm dead, I'm dead, I'm dead... My parents are going to screw me up if I don't pass English! Die, die, die... If Corey and Nigel said it was hard, I going to fail so badly, even Nigel's agrees that I will get lesser marks than him. Somehow, I think some of my friends are mocking me. Oh how I wish I would know 'How to Kill a Mocking Bird'. Now my Examinations are so screw! After school, went to eat lunch at Hougang Point. Went to Wei Zhuang's house to taste test some food, but turns out he did not have enough ingredients to make the dish. Corey went to download some stuff on Wei Zhuang's computer to be sent into his phone. Ryan, Corey, Wei Zhuang and me did something bad today, but it's our 'Dirty Little Secret'. Maybe changing to that song... Ryan and Corey left first, than Wei Zhuang accompanied me downstairs to wait for the bus. Going to bath now.

Is it the Drugs who make the world lie?

To unravel, you must have courage.

Simple things have to stop now. Study is the only route left. Walk straight, not zigzag and I can reach my goal. Studied with Wei Zhuang and SinLee at VivoCity. Before, I had tuition. Ryan and Joyce was supposed to come but some things was restraining them. Mothers... Anyway, reached VivoCity, and went to Coffee Bean, but all seats were taken. So we went to Starbucks. We didn't know where the place was, so we went to the directories to find the place. Went to the first floor Starbucks to study. In the end, time was wasted on gossip. Didn't study much, more of crapping. After 3 hours, we left and went for the toilet. Eased ourselves and walked around the vicinity. Went to Toy'R'Us to have some fun. Playing and admiring the simple things in life. We keep whacking each other with this swimming mechanism. Played with some guns and axes, and browsed among the hundreds and hundreds of plush toys and figurines. They wanted a picture of a Barney Plush with a Bob the Builder construction site helmet on it. I was lucky I volunteered to loan my phone for picture taking. I received a great surprise while searching my bag, my phone was missing. I acted calmly, and quickly retrace my steps back to Starbucks. It dropped under the sofa. I stretched my hand underneath the sofa and grab it. Luckily, I put it on silent, if not, my ring tone would have been heard, and someone could have found it, and we won't know if that person is a protagonist or antagonist. In other words, I lost and found my phone, but at a cost of not taking Barney in a Bob the Builder construction site helmet. Went to Pet Safari after that. The hamsters are cute! We looked around for pet stuff. SinLee now wants hamsters, two of them to be exact. She ask me to get it for her on her birthday. Hopefully she will be dedicated in raring a pet. Went to this game shop, which sells plenty of gaming equipment, plush toys and figurines. Moving on, we wandered around in a arcade. Wei Zhuang thought he was an F1 driver, sitting in a 'out of order' Fast and Furious machine game. Wandered into Challenger. I saw a 1 terabyte hard-drive! But it cost $270... Window-shopped around there. Went next door to Miniature Hobbies. I love all the toy models there! It is so cool. Went next door again to Action City. Went around playing with the stuff there. Went for dinner after that. Wanted to go Long John Slivers but seats were already taken. Along the way to Long John Slivers, Wei Zhuang's leg cramped. We slowly walked with him. On the first floor, there was a place advertising for the F1 and some computers and laptops. We went looked for an alternative and went to Kopitiam to dine in. Took the MRT home, laugh about a mid-age auntie wearing sleeveless clothing. Her armpit hair was showing. Oh my god. We were laughing behind her back. The two buddies alighted at Kovan, and I alighted at the next stop. Took the shuttle bus home, facebook for quite awhile.

Drugs were not involve in the typing of this post

Departing is such sweet sorrow...

It was fun, starting from yesterday night. Went to Nigel's house for a sleepover. His house was nearer to the school. Went there to play Risk. Then slept after that. We got a few rape cases in the night. Jeremy was with us as well(I will never go to Nigel's house alone, it's too dangerous). Jeremy grab him, then I just join in the fun. Before that, Nigel sat on Jeremy torso. Woke up, took a bath, packed up and went to school. Ran there because we though we were late. Then we all boarded the bus. Went through Immigration. Then we were in Malaysia. The trip was so long I took a nap. But Ryan had to just pop, pop, pop his bloody bubble gum. It woke me up 3 times. We took a short rest break for about 1/2 an hour. Browsed around for snacks. Had some fried noodles there. Ryan bought fried rice and Nigel bought Mee Soto. After eat we talk about shit. Guo Sheng, Jia Liang and Marcus say that they got enough money to buy all the bubble gums, porn magazines and pirated DVDs, which they told me they did. I ask him where are all the stuff hidden. They pointed to the near-by truck. Guo Sheng said that he wanted to ship this to Singapore and burn them for fun. Marcus say that is porn magazines won't be affect cause the got fireproof book cover. Then we talked about GTA. After that, talk about how Guo Sheng saved Singapore from the Japanese rule. My theory was the atomic bombs dropped by the Americans were gifts. There were actually naked ladies in the bomb shell. But Guo Sheng took too much beans, that he created a fart. It was so powerful, it destroy Hiroshima. Same reason for Nagasaki. Browsed a VCD/DVD shop as well. Soon we set off again. Guo Sheng brought a lot of tidbits. So we snacked to our heart's content. I stoled his Tick-Tac, HAHA. Then along the way, we played a 3-way GTA match. Ryan won the first match. Guo Sheng won the second one.

Reached our destination. It was a tour around the kampong. Found out that plant's can be really helpful in the future. Crack plenty of chicken jokes, like blasting the roster with a shotgun, Nigel humping a chicken, Guo Sheng living with the chicken etc. The tour guide thought us how to greet Malay people, their culture and how to wear a sari. Took some pictures in the kampong house. Then set off for our next destination, which was lunch. Guo Sheng got a fight with Nigel again. Rape happened in the bus. After lunch, we went off for another long journey. played PSP again. We visited this church. Funny shit. Nigel and Ryan fought Guo Sheng. Darren was like Gandhi. He suddenly walk pass and say 'No violence in a church'. After that, he walk away. Ryan found a new gay move. Window-shopped later. We walked to our next destination. It was a place dedicated to a eunuch. The whole place. Told about his adventures and etc. And no Jia Liang, you are not that person, although you got castrated. Anyway, after visiting, went to browse around yet again. Bought a Pepsi, Ryan too. Went to the toilet. Then back on the bus for us. Played till low batteries.

Set off to another area. This YoYo company, which was selling lots of stuff. Bought only Seaweed. After shopping, went for dinner. Along the way, all our gaming consoles were out of batteries, so we played this game where each person had to say a sentence to create a story. It's started like '' It was a big black figure. I was terrifying. I was Miss Mala. Her weight was too much to comprehend. When she moved, her flab bounced like blubber. Down came this guy. (Forgot, forgot, forgot). He trusted it in. The straw which was inserted into the juice box. He sucked it. It was called Mala juice". HAHA! Had dinner! Talked with Miss Wong and Mr Chin about current affairs. Headed for home. During our trip back to school, Jia Liang was telling funny stories. We laugh our heads off. We past Immigration again. Reached school, said our goodbyes, and left. It's all sumarized, but I was seriously a great time I will never forget.

Smelled plenty of Drugs today.

I hate separation, even among friends, it's very heartbreaking. I want connection, I don't want cliques to be formed among my fellow friends. I want to help everyone to get together. I don't like seeing someone apart from another group far away in the horizon, and worst of all, I'm in the middle of it. Like I said before, friends are my life support. Without them, I would be clinging onto the fabric of life. I would help them in anyway I could. I could do anything for my friends, even dedicate my life to them. I help others more than myself, Even though I have troubles in my life, I ignore them, and continue to help the people I know and love. I cherish my friends more than my life, that's why helping them is my first priority. Maybe you might not think that is true, but to me, it really is.

I hate pessimists, but I'm one myself. I like to see other people enjoying themselves, and if their not, I would like to help them to feel the enjoyment like the others. But because of this, I envy them. I envy them for having the stuff I don't and wish for, and the happiness they have at the point of time. I feel happy for them but not myself. That's why I'm pessimistic, that's why I hate my life. A friend told me I should help myself more, but my nature is helping others, and not me. Even if I help them have a better life, I would feel happy for that person, but I would also envy them as well. I love/hate this feeling.

I'm taking a chance, 50/50. I don't want a repetition of what happened before. Things that happen twice are never good. If it's known, I will suffer more. If is not known, I will be safe, until it's exposed. It's dangerous. I feel like shit now. Maybe people who read this know what's happening. I don't want to lose a strain of my life. I not sure if this path is better than the other, but it seems that I'm already walking on it, I can't go back.

School was as per normal. I going to rush through in point form:

1. Free periods, listen to music
2. Jia Liang tought half a lesson about Perpose
3. Corey's composition was printed out and handed to the whole class
4. Mr Soh, came to relief our lesson
5. Recess was as usual
6. Went to study after school with Wei Zhuang, Marjorie and Cindy
7. SinLee and Nicole found us in the library and we change studying locations
8. Not long, Marjorie and Cindy left
9. After that, took a walk around Compass Point
10. Took a bus home
11. Going to Nigel's house to stay over for tommrow's trip

Saw some familar face there. I don't really like today. I don't feel like posting much about today, but I want to as well... Anyway, there's a lack of time because I need to go tuition now.

Drugs... forget it...

Many unhappy things revolves around me, but you just can't see it.
Saying something is simple, but doing it is oh-so difficult.
Leaving it alone won't solve the problem, do something about it.
Finding lies to cover up for your actions won't do you any good.
You can stop in your steps, and ponder about what to do to solve it.
I need pills. Not drugs, pills... To stop that annoying sound roaring in my head.
I'm a simpleton, with a brain that ranges from a nerd to a cyborg, and still growing...
OK... Now, starting from 8:12PM, I officially hate these unhappy feelings.
And even if it's true or not, I will still hate them...

Random quote of my life. Anyway I really worried about my studies. Did not study today at home. Going out tomorrow to study.

Headline news!
Ryan got attacked 5 times in a day! First attack was during early recess, where Nigel attacked him in the toilet. The second one was after Nigel's attack. The attacker was Benedict. Ryan provoked him with the double mid-finger technique. Because of suffering that humiliation, Benedict decided to attack back, by pinning him on the ground. Ryan was lucky to escape with just a broken penis. The next attack was during mid-recess, where he provoked Chinese Chess Player cum Duel Masters Player cum Playboy, Guo Sheng, while he was having a game of chess. He went for a frontal attack, and hit him hard. Awhile later, Benedict came back for revenge. He headlock him, but Ryan tried to resist. Due to stupidity impulse, I came by to attack his waist. Somehow, he manage to slide out, and started crying for his mummy. I continued to attack, but he barely escape from my clutches and went back to his safe house. The last attack was after school, where Corey attacked him from the back, anally. " No problem, if his in trouble, I will just give a call to Miss Mala as back-up." Darren, his good friend commented. Ryan is currently going through therapy.
In other news:
BME Pain Olympics has scared many guys in Class 3E1 during English lesson. Leonard and Nicholas saw it up close and now undergoing therapy. " IT'S IS PAINFUL JUST LOOKING AT IT! Even eating shit won't be as sick as that! I think I'm going to have nightmares." Corey, a victim of the video shared with us his experience. All who is reading this post, search it at your own risk.
4 periods were given free today due the the absent of Mrs Boo, 3E1's Chemistry teacher. Suspicion lurks around, that she took the day off to do something forbidden to children under the age of 18.
In sports, Glen claim the win against Corey in Chinese Chess Wars 2 to 1. In Sparring, Benedict and Jia Liang match was cancelled due to unexpected outcomes. Jia Liang wanted to play Chinese Chess. In Duel Masters, conflict broken out against Team Infamous History (Jia Liang and Guo Sheng) and the So-called 'Golden Team' (Jeremy and Nigel). Referees weren't there to supervise, because there were none. The outcome was 1:3 where Team Infamous History lost due to 'Bad Hand'.
Now for the weather:
Tomorrow, I mostly will be able to go out to study at Compass Point. School is as usual. There will be tuition tomorrow near my house, and going to Nigel's house to stay over for the coming History trip to Malacca.
Overview:
Free 2 periods, then History, where Miss Wong was not here. Mathematics revision. Recess attacks, then Biology. Free 2 periods, and Mathematics again. Free period for Chinese. Lunch, won last game in Chinese Chess. Went to the computer lab for English. BME video was held there. Took a bus home with Guo Sheng after buy Bubble Tea with Nigel. Facebook and chatted online.

Thanks for reading, and remember, I need Pills, but not Drugs, and stay away from BME Pain Olympics! This is Glen Tan, Good Night.

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I'm jealous, but I can't do a fuck about it.
I need money, but I can't get a single cent for myself.
I feel lame, but I can't do a shit about it.
I need a new phone, but I can't get the money.
I want a laptop and a desktop, but I'm not working for it.
I want to quit, but me, myself won't allow me too.
Headaches, Trouble and Despair are the effects of all the above, and more. What to do? Just carry on with life.

It's getting closer and closer to the Final Year Examinations. I don't want to get that 10/100... But when I go home, I have to facebook. Anyway... I received back my trophy for the Stamp Collecting Competition, had to shake hands and take a picture with him, such a waste of time. Anyway today had to assemble in the hall, forgot the reason for assembling there. Had English the first 2 periods. Slept during his period... Had a Biology practical after that... Opps, I just remember... I got to do my Biology stuff... Oh well. Everyone sprayed water at each other with the 3ml dropper... Guo Sheng and Nigel raped each other during Biology and English. Going to have a Biology test next week... Fuck. I only have been going through Physics, both Mathematics, History and a bit of Chemistry. Have not touched on Biology and Social Studies... And my History is not going that well. I did not do the essay question since Ryan told me only have to do source-based. The rest of my class completed it, I might be in deep shit tomorrow. Went on to Chemistry. Was irrating Guo Sheng. Spare me, I was bored. Anyway had recess outside the library. This is what happened:
TODAY, AT AROUND 11AM, Jia Liang and Benedict when head on. The battle was intense. Their movements were to quick, as if they were traveling at the speed of sound. You can barely see Benedict's flab bouncing in the air as he speared Jia Liang. Things got too intense, that local passer-bys got involved in it as well. Chinese Chess Player, Nigel Wong, 15, said this before he got attacked " Jiang! Ahhh!!---". Authorities tried to stop the riot, but were just to lazy to do anything. Instead, sat on the nearby benches to play Chinese Chess. " Today incident was terrible! All those 'Pia Kia' should be expelled. Now, we will be more weary about students near the library." Principal, Mr Chia, age unknown, giving his comments. "We have installed heat detectors outside the library, so whenever someones body temperature goes way up, we would know they would have been going some rigorous exercise, like sparring. So whenever the body temperature gets too high, An alarm will ring in the Library, sounding off to the librarians to catch those rascals! Great plan, isn't it?"

So that was what happen. Had free periods until the end of school. Everyone was crapping around. Good job. Had a fire drill, and was let off early for school. Sitting on the parade square at 1:30PM is not a good idea. Lucky I was thick skinned enough to withstand the heat radiating on the flesh of my butt cheeks. Went back to class to retrieve my bag, went for lunch and had LohMee. Went to Hougang Mall with Corey. Bought a doughnut along the way. Went to the Library with him for awhile. Saw Aloysius and his peeps there. Corey had to buy cat food, so I departed and walked home. Bathed, took my books and set off to Kovan. Met Wei Zhuang, Nicole and SinLee there. They had Lunch first. So I studied my Chemistry. After eating, We tried to study, but to no avail. Joyce was suppose to come, but had some problems. Somethings should just be kept to yourself, but Since I'm somewhat forgetful, the memory would fade away in a few weeks. Blogging helps with my memory... At 5:30pm, We walked around Kovan. Wei Zhuang was like hitting Nicole and SinLee with stuff, and insulted each other like crap... Then went to Cold Storage. Bought this popping candy floss. Wei Zhuang bought SinLee the chocolate egg with a toy in it. Wei Zhuang, you owe me $1. Then accompanied the Girls to the MRT station, then went to the bus stop near Wei Zhuang's house and waited till my bus came. Went home and facebook. I need to study!!! Had dinner, and came back on the Internet. Talked to some people on MSN.

I need Drugs to work with me for the upcoming Examinations!

... I'm back, changed my blogskin and music. School was not that boring today. Had Physics In the first few periods. Finally brought my 10Years Serries Physics O'level Workbook. Did a few questions, and Mr Chong Went through some, I still hate Kinematics. We learn factor theorem for Trigonometry. Slept for about a few minutes. For recess, red bean paste bun. Watch August Rush for one period. Maybe by next period we can watch the whole movie. Had English after that. Corey's new hobbies are drawing girls, and he draws then pretty good. Had a 'talk-cock-session' durring English. Also went though a Comprehension. Had CME for the last two periods. We were suppose to watch a movie, but was to busy asking the people for the Nickname they wanted to put on their shirt. Then had a NCC meeting. Went to Hougang Point to eat. Ryan, Gerrald, Wei Zhuang and Marjorie were there. Ryan and Wei Zhuang took Marjorie's phone and were acting as if they did not. Talk for a few minutes then Marjorie had to go. We guy also left, after buying bubble tea. Oreo Vanilla Rocks! Seriously, Ryan, Wei Zhuang and Gerrald even said it was nice, you all should try it. Took 112 with the guys. Gerrald alighted first. Then Ryan, Wei Zhuang and me stop at Kovan. We were talking about the movie 'Catch Me If You Can'. Went to top up my EZ-Link card. Then walked with Ryan to his tuition centre. Wei Zhuang and me went home after that. Facebook for awhile... Took a bath and ate dinner. Watch TV as well.

I need to find a place to hide the drugs...

You can accept the faith you have now, or do something to change it.
Possibility ranges from 1-(1/infinity), and it won't go lower than Zero.
Do not guess or imply from what you see, asking won't hurt.
Anything broken can always be fixed, if you want to.

My mum says she given me a lot of time... It's a joke. I have to study my Chinese cause my mum ask me too, boring. Later I shall come back to this... I don't care cause I have too..

Had Recess after History, when I was in the computer lab. Then went to see the shirt designer. Had Mathematics Worksheet to do in class, then came English. Fast forward to after school. Went to eat at Kovan with Ryan, Gerrald, Wei Zhuang, SinLee and Joyce. Had curry ramen! Yays! Talk for awhile. walked around Kovan. Wei Zhuang and me bought a present for Gerrald. Walk around again. Then we departed. Me Wei Zhuang and Gerrald sat at a near-by bench to talk crap. Talked until 6pm. Took 112 home. Played around with facebook.

Dam my parents, they pushing me like crap... have to cut it short...

Drugs are everywhere...

In the computer lab now. Had PE and Mathematics before this. All fail badminton, except JiaLiang. What you expect, he is the badminton in the school, he has to be good. Now playing on facebook.

When you run and you fall, don't wait for someone to help you. Stand up and continue running.

I'm getting bored of my skin, and I'm going to change my song soon. I hate no tuition today! Yay! Played for awhile, then went to Buddhist class. Took a bus with my cousins to Compass Point. Then Samantha went shopping. So left Darren and me. Met up with Ryan and JiaLi at Subway for lunch. After that accompanied my cousin to the bus stop. Met up with them at the Library. Did my History, then the Librarian told us that we could not use the benches as tables. So went to the Cafe to study. Had to buy something to sit on the tables, so bought an Ice Espresso. Ryan and JiaLi bought a hot chocolate. Stuided till 6pm+. Then went home. Went to the toilet 4 times I think. Did not go to National Library cause everyone backed out except Ryan and me.

Drugs help me in my studies...

I shall not post crap today.

At the moment now I'm studying and listening to drugs. NCC was fun, PT first, then water bombs. Corey splash me way to many times, so in the end got the last hit. Waited till NCC ended, so I was very cautious of Corey, and stayed away from anything that gives water. Went MacDonald's with Corey and Wei Long after that. Went home and too a bath My wounds stung so badly. Got it during NCC. First wound was on my right knee, scraped the railings while chasing Corey with a water bomb... got a blue-black on my right hand and knee, I hit the railing... Next 2 wounds was when Corey was trying to chase me. I slid between the guardhouse and the pillar next to it... But it did not hurt... Maybe I was too busy think on how to catch him, and too busy on how to run away from him... Anyway, it was just stupidity that got over the best of me. After my bath, played some games on facebook, and went for tuition. Bloody noisy. Went home eating a doughnut. Played a game of Warcraft with my cousin, put songs in my MP3 and reading my textbook. I think I'm going to National Library tomorrow...

Bringing the drugs to the Library tomorrow, I think...

Finally peace is restored. Everything is back to normal. I feel happy, happy for her as well, thanks everyone who had given her the hope and courage she needed to carry on. We shall continue working together, and if there is any trouble, you can open up to me or any of your friends, we are always here for you. You will never walk alone, SinLee...

It seems I feel very awake on Friday. Happy Birthady Corey! Like the CD I bought for you? Gerrald, your birthday is coming up, and I'm not getting you a pencil box. I can't find a nice one. Jia Liang and Marcus were playing Duel Masters this morning at the Parade Square, as usual. Then Mdm Ng passed birthday presents to Corey, and it was her birthday as well. Happy Birthday Mdm Ng! Went back to class. Corey passed to three of us a box of Ferero Rocher's. Mr Chong was not here today, so we had a free period. Ate my recess during that time. Then Chinese Period. We had 2 periods, one was free period.During the free periods, Guo Sheng and Nigel raped each other. Had Mathematics. Recess. Love you Gerrald (but I'm not gay). Then History, had to do an O'level paper. Then one period of Mathematics. Lunch with my class buddies. Corey, Guo Sheng and Nigel came to my house. Nigel had to go to the toilet. Then Corey and Guo Sheng disturb him while he was peeing. Then they gang rape each other on my bed. Guo Sheng's pants tore... lend him pants to wear. After that they left. Did Mathematics homework, but then got tired, so slept. Woke up at 6.55pm. 5mins before my tuition! I quickly took my dinner and left. Now back home talking on the phone about NCC.

Drugs I love them so much...

You can do it, we are all behind you, giving a push. So stop hiding from it, face what's in front of you. You have the courage, and we are giving you our courage as well. Nothing is impossible, especially when you have friends who will back you up. All you need to do now is move. If you fall, the people behind will help you up. You are not alone. We all have faith in you. You have what it takes to be the leader. Ignore who or whatever others people say, be yourself and continue your path. You can do it, trust me. No matter what happens, we all will still be friends.

I hate Thursdays. Chemistry was a lesson I do not look forward too. The lesson is so boring! I barely could keep awake by looking through my notes. I had one History period, but Miss Wong had something on, so we had to do History Source Base Questions in the class. Wow, I knew how to do most, but had to check what Guo Sheng and Jia Liang wrote in theirs. Oh, Jia Liang wrote a composition for the constellation. Had Mathematics lesson. I kept awake for it. Had recess, then Biology. It was 2 periods of Chemistry again. And I slept thorugh it... Shit... Had another period of Mathematics, was just going through questions. Chinese, break and English. I actually understand English this time. Went to Hougang Mall with Corey. Then went home. Tomorrow is your Birthday, Corey. Happy Birthday.

Drugs, I got that for his birthday...

I wish it helped... I don't want that to happen. Now the only thing i can do is to pray of the best... If whatever I did was wasted, I will forever feel regret in myself. I can never give advice to people ever again. I will be to frighten, that the wrong advice will be given... Please think about it carefully and choose the right choice. Please don't disappoint the people who needs you...

Like I said, if you don't like anything about me, tell me, I won't feel pissed or insulted, I will change for the better, for my friends...

Drugs, I do not need them when giving advice...

I give advice. I helped many people with the advice. Since they are my friends, I will go an extra mile just to help them. You have helped me, especially with the case on the PSP, I'm grateful. I try to help you to understand why we think that way, and you think we are against you. The more I say, the more you misunderstand the point of what I'm trying to say. I don't say things directly nor try to beat around the bush, because I'm afraid I would upset the person or piss him/her off. I try to make you understand, but I did not have enough time, so I could not explain in detail. In the end, the thing I was trying to tell you is that we need more bonding time. We are not as one, it is like there is a gap. We don't understand, that's why we jump to conculsions. We think is her fault, is his fault, is our fault just because we don't understand what I or any other person is trying to say or do. I don't want you to quit or leave, because we are not against you. I rather take your place and quit, then you quit. Directly, it's my fault that I made you fell this way because you didn't understand what I said, I rather quit because I was the one who made you think that way. I'm sorry, I was just trying to make you understand. I don't like to be misunderstood, and I don't like people to get misunderstood as well. I was just trying to help.

If anyone don't like anything about me, like my attitude, how I behave, how I look like ETC. Please tell me on the Tagboard or on MSN, with your name and the reason why you hate whatever it is. I won't feel insulted nor pissed, I will just try to change for the better.

Had English, Biology and Chemistry then recess. Corey has a new hobby in the art of drawing, and I'm the one who gives him ideas. Found that out during Biology. Had Physics. Mr Chong asked me to play 1 dollar for class fund because I did not bring my book again. Then during Chinese, it was free time. After that went of the Muay Thai training NCC paid for. Then me and Ryan went to MacDonald's to eat. After that waited for his bus. Then took 72 home.

The Drugs I have now can't really solve this problem...

Differences, because of this, we fight. But it as well can bond people together. You think you know your best friends well, but you actually don't. You say we share everything, we have been best friends forever, I know his/her personalities well, do you? You only tell them by speech, you don't experience what they experience. Even if you do experience something that happen to him or her, you don't experience everything together. You only know best about yourself. But through differences, they can actually help you get along, or get along with someone else. Because we have different thoughts, therefore we misunderstand. We start arguing. Arguments either make one party frustrated, or both. They might lead in to fights, which can cause chaos, or might lead to regret. Then you kiss and make up, and become friends again. But still, that difference will still linger around the two. Comfort only comes within you. Others can put their comfort into you, but they themselves will be strip of it. You might comfort someone, but yourself don't understand how it truly feels, because you only eavesdrop, which remove the comfort away, afraid that the wrong advice might harm the affected. You are just the listener cum advisor, you listen to the affected one's story, but you won't know how it actually feels. They will want advice to deal with it, but you will be frightened that wrong advice is given. Whatever, I say here, could be different to what you think.

I was a sleepy today as well. I had Physics. 1/4 of the class did not bring their 10 Years O'Level Physics Workbook. So those who did not bring were reading through the Physics textbook. I was read each chapter, and close my eyes to relax for 1-2mins. Went it reach to the topic of light, I fell asleep. Then Corey woke me up. I continued studying till the end of the chapter. I still had a lot of time. Saw Nigel and Corey sleeping, so slept as well. Had 3 periods of Mathematics, I learn more Laws on Trigonometry. Memorized did some sums, both mentally and with pen and paper. While memorizing, I fell asleep again. Corey woke me up again. I was afraid that I missed out something important, so I ask Guo Sheng. Luckily she only went through 2 questions. Then had recess. Jia Liang brought us to the IMac room, cause YuLing told him Mdm Tan was there. In the end, I was in the Music room. She played a movie for us to watch. 'August Rush' was the title. I want to watch it, very artistic and full of music. But classmates were very noisy, they don't appreciate the film. In one period we can't watch much, so went back to class to do an English test. After that, we watch a movie which came about home run called 'Children of Heaven'. It is almost totally the same thing, only there was nothing funny about it, and some parts were edited, and onlly watch half of it. Had NCC after that. Give us a reason, why do you feel that way? At least tell, 1/2 the job could be finished. That's why this causes misunderstanding. From such a small thing, it resulted into a bigger matter, the butterfly effect. We start saying things behind people's back. I don't like it, but we don't know, so we make guesses. If I did anything wrong, I'm sorry, and on behalf of everyone, sorry. Planned for camp, Miss Nadleen said it was good and OK (hint on the problem). Locked up, left for MacDonald's and went home.

Drugs always help me in blogging.

.I don't like to go, because I have no close friends there. I don't want to leave, but it's getting boring. I have lost interest, but I'm trying to be dedicated. I try to be dedicated, because once I'm in, I hate backing out. I need a push, I need patience, I need help. I can't always be help, but now I really need it.

I was so moody today. I had PE, and it was totally lame today. Why must the soccer field be occupied. Had Mathematics. Then History. I love History, I just can't pick up the skills... felt sleepy in History as well. Went for recess at the usual place. Then had Mathematics again. This time I fell asleep for 5-10mins? The wind was getting to me. But at least I understand the lesson. Had English, didn't really care. PC was free period. Went to the canteen for lunch. I was about to sleep there as well. I don't know why I fell so sleepy on Mondays. Then in the 112 Bus, Corey, Guo Sheng and Nigel were making a lot of jokes. Laughing my socks off. Then Guo Sheng and Nigel came to my house to do a project. Corey had to go home because the parents will kill him if he don't go home on time. They finished the project at my house and stated humping each other after that. I have been violated by them, and it happen on my bed. Anyway, the left 1hour 15mins after the project was over. Fixing my Sims2 now, and adding on the other expansion packs, maybe tommrow. Played a few games of Gunz. Now going to study...

I need to be in the High Drug Mood...

In the front line, it is a dark and dangerous place. But once you get out of the border, you will see a clear and bright sky. Persevere towards the end.

We have different talents. Talents that only a few can do. Everyone has at least something they are good at. If you are good at it, harness it's power and make it grow. It could be anything. You control the flow, it is all in you.

Today, went for tuition. Wanted to go to Wei Zhuang's house, but didn't in the end. Came home, my cousins visited us. They were needed in a video for my sister's project. Stayed at home and stored stuff in my hard drive. Installed Private Server Gunz. Played for awhile. Now, the Sims 2 I stalled in my hard drive can't be loaded up. Must install Sims 2 again. The first Episode only. Shall do it another time. Watched Camp Rock on Disney Channel today. Love the music. Can't wait for school to re-open, and also can't wait for it to end. There is a reason for wanting it to re-open, as well as being closed. Have to study from now on... It's going to be boring. I'm going to fail badly...

My first ever Drug will always live within me.

(I'm going to cheat time so it will be 6 September 2008, 11:59PM)

Will there be second chances? Will there be another way? Will there be a happily ever after? I wish there was, everyone would love that to happen. Oh how I wish these 3 above would happen. It will make life so much more pleasant. No arguments, no disorder, no awkwardness. Everything would run peacefully. But these 3 seldom appear in the situations we encounter in our everyday lives. Maybe to some, it might happen more often than to others. We can give, can find and can make the three above by ourselves, but if there were others who helped you with these 3, there would be greater joy within. It's up to you, as well as the people around you.

Today (which was supposed to be yesterday), I went to the National Library with Guo Sheng, Darren and other History students to the stamp collecting award ceremony. It was bloody boring there. We waited for 1hour plus for the ceremony to start. Ryan was supposed to come, by he went off to Malaysia, so Shi Ying took over his place to receive the trophy. We sat down on the chairs assigned for us and talked about movies, games etc. Then the Ceremony started. MC first, then the Guest-of-Honour went up to give his speech, it was all rubbish. Then a Primary School Chinese Dance went up to perform. We went to collect our trophies. Once the Secondary level received their prize, the Malay Dance Group from another Primary School performed on stage. Next was the the Primary School students who went up to receive the trophies. Last performance was the Modern Dance Group from Nan Chiau High School. Somehow, I only can remember the Modern Dance performer's Schools. After that, they were giving out the individual prizes. It ended after that. They gave us a goody-bag. And we had a free buffet as well. Walked around the National Library. Then wondered around the area till we reach a MRT station. Went home, saw that the computer wasn't turn off, and my MSN was still on... Anyway played Sims, had dinner and watched 'San Ge Hao Ren' on Channel 8. (That's why I did not blog yesterday)

Drugs, you get addicted, you can't stop... OR CAN YOU?

I'm descending below, and they are rising to the top. It's like a escalator.
I'm wondering around the small box, because I think I did something wrong.
I have lost in everything I've done, but yet tries to come back strong.
I have to sacrifice for something that is far more greater than myself.
I'm breaking myself up into small little pieces, hiding in the dark corner.
I know that it is not, cause it will be much worst without it.

Today is a seriously boring day, where I sat on the chair and stared at the computer for more than 8 hours. I have acomplished installing the Sims 2 expansion packs I downloaded, and that's all. Going to tuition now, going to get screwed by my teacher because I did not finish my homework. Hey I don't know how to do, you can't blame me.

Drugs, does it still help?

I'm running, but from what? I look left and right, but what I'm I looking for? No one saw, saw what? I'm glad, but why? I went home, why? I took 3 pills, where and why? In the end, it all disappears... or did it?

I changed a new skin, you like it? If you can see orange, you are gladly invited. Haven't put up the song and my picture, have to upload them first. Finally downloaded all the expansion packs for Sims 2, except Apartment life, IKEA stuff and Kitchen stuff. Went to Wei Zhuang house. He wanted me to re-format his computer. But in the end I did not, since some of the CD was missing from his pocket at the moment. So help him organise and uninstall all the crap there. And helped him install some things which will come in handy in the future. brought over the Sim 2 files and place it in his computer, asked him to install himself. Then surf the web. Left with him at 1850 since he had tuition at 1900. Went to buy a snack. Wei Zhuang could not buy his bubble tea cause the shop owner was away. Took a 112 home.Reached home, wanted to install my expansion packs, but my stuff was transfered over to Wei Zhuang's computer, so redownloading it again.

Now I have 3 different drugs

I have friends, good friends, best friends. When they need me, I'll try to be there. When I need them, they'll try to be there. We help each other out when possible. I will try anything to help my friends out, I can do anything to help them out. I love my friends more than me, and that's the truth. If you deny it, I shall try harder till you agree with the sentence above.

I hate to quit, but I'm lazy. I try to be dedicated, but I can't be in control. I have no control, so I avoid it. I get away from it, but I get hated for it. I don't like it...

Today woke up about 9AM. Then quickly furnish the 'NCC Mansion' I made for our family. Might be thinking of making the 3rd level. Then Nigel called. Asked if he could do the project at my house today. I answered yes, but ask him to call Guo Sheng to come as well. So Nigel arrived outside my back gate. Came in and ask me which one of the 4 do we want to do first. After that, I took a bath. About that time Marjorie just SMS back my reply about the POP for Senior Specialist Course. She SMS me the time and meeting place, but she did not go. When I came out of the bath, Nigel was watching 'Prince of Tennis'. Watched with him till Guo Sheng came. Then did some project work. Then left home to the camp. Was meeting Sir Eugene, Alif and ChunHan at the place. I ran all the way in the rain. I was all drenched up when I reached there. Saw the prize giving ceremony. No POP since it was raining heavily. JiaLi arrived later. Talk with her for awhile. I cut this short. Saw then recieve thier ranks and stuff, took a bus packed with girls to their bunks cause it was raining, waited for the peeps at the guard house. Went to Yio Chu Kang station and took bus 72. Talked along the way, and felt cold as well. Went to Hougang Mall to have dinner. Talked as well, still feel cold. Then took 112 home.

I'm yellow, and you can't notice it from the sea of green, even my drugs can differentiate colours, and they have no eyes.

Addiction could be the key to your success, as well as your failure.

Cutting the crap short. Did not blog yesterday, addicted to Sims 2 already. Yesterday morning, went to MacDonald's to eat with the SCC peeps, a late good luck to you all. Lend SinLee my boots cause scouts needed to borrow them. Lend Ryan my socks cause he had not enough. Played PSP there and chit-chat until 1200-1230. Then went home. On the way, Nigel called me saying that he coming to my house. Then play Sim2, more PSP and DOTA. Then the rest of the day was on the computer.

Today, had Biology make-up lessons. Went half-an-hour early cause Guo Sheng told me the wrong timing. Then Nigel, Guo Sheng and me PSPed until Biology lesson. After that, went to Yio Chu Kang with Jeremy, Nigel, Jia Liang and Guo Sheng to play tennis. I suck at it. Then PSPed more. Then went home to play Sims. I'm really addicted. No time to go in details, till tomorrow.

Drugs are one type of addiction..