I shall not delve into thoughts, I'm too tired from X-country.

Oh yes, X-country, running round Ponggol Park 3 times just for the heck of it. Extremely tiring. I came in 24th position among the boys, and this time, beat Corey. Before X-country, Jia Liang, Nigel, Guo Sheng, Jeremy came to my house, and funny, funny things happened. Hilarious. Met Corey at X-country. Left their bags at my house and headed for Ponggol Park. After the run, we headed to my house to collect their stuff. Followed them to Hougang Mall. Corey departed from there. They had lunch at kopitiam. I went for tuition at 7pm and came home.


So shagged after the race...(Damned! I was so tired my eyelids drop!)


Jia Liang and Jeremy, and their prawn noddles.


Stop starring Guo Sheng... Learn from Nigel and eat your food.


Eat dudes! Stop playing with utensils


Itatakimasu!(might be wrong spelling) Dig in guys!

Memories Of Everyone

School Is Becoming More Of A Prison.
'They' are striping everything from privacy, to tradition, and to things that are important to oneself. 'They' are thinking of putting 'eyes' at every corner, and hiring someone to 'tear' off the millions and billions of black lines. I don't approve some of them. 'They' are just trying to find the bad ones and torture them, but by doing so, affects the good ones as well. 'They' think of only the school and its pride, but not the people that makes the school stand on its four columns, or more.
Must everyone be pulled down for just that minority? 'They' want the students to be good, but will it? Can everyone be good? Be perfect? It's a school, 'They' can't change the fact that there will be the good, smart, bad and ugly. Everywhere, there is a percentage of each, even in the top schools. Judgment, something 'They' did not learn from Ian.
Enjoyment is cut due to cost, just to improve security measures. To tell you the truth, it is a waste of your time and money. Taking away the special moments, and cutting them into half. Some might not bother, but you are spoiling school life of everyone. If 'They' thought their school life was bad, improve it here and not make everyone feel worst. 'They' are just dragging down everyone in to the void. Some might suffer cuts and grazes since it is their last year, some will just have to suffer its full wraith for few more odd years.
Yet, I heard it from sources of others. If it happens, some of us will be trapped in these four walls, while others will be stuck in solitary confinement, as the wardens sip their coffee in there personal lounge.
Prison might come soon, so hide your escape equipment somewhere where the 'eyes' can't see.

I wanted to talk about something else, but I shall leave that of next time, plus I could not remember some of the details for that thought.

Physics SPA, failure. Such a major mistake, that's why I'm against myself now. All was correctly measured, problem is I mistook something and something, and that's where it went wrong. Right but in the wrong way. NCC after school, Part A's taking and learning how to put on their uniforms. Part B's Arm Drills and Part C's were training for Specialist Course. After NCC, pre-dinner snack. Gerald, Ryan and I were talking about stuff and the might soon-to-be prison.

Today's Choice Of Song: Welcome To My Life By Simple Plan

Loving Something Is Dangerous At Certain Occasions.

Blogging in one hour time, or so. See how.

This post was due 2 days ago.

So how am I dealing with life? Fine... Except at times I tend to hate, not others, but myself. The guilt and conscience within always creates anger, and is caused by being blame, either by others or myself. That was how I felt after I left the stadium. I kept blaming myself for letting my friends down on both sides. I was in the middle, and you know how pressurizing the middle seat is. I kept flaring up at my friends as they either asked me questions or kept silent. I was so angry at myself, I felt like punching the walls until both my knuckles bleed, or even better, broken to pieces. But After we reached the destination, I cooled down as we did our project. I relaxed after laughing so hard. I thought of not dwelling in it and just have fun. I found time, with the help of my friends, of learning the moves for today's competition. It did not turned out as bad as I excepted.

I'm sorry to everyone I pissed off over the couple of days, it's my fault which made you guys flare up as well. I still love you guys.

Sleeping over at Guo Sheng's house was an unforgettable moment, and FSD wasn't half-bad, even though we did not get in the top 3. I fell like condemning Windows Movie Maker, because it hangs after every 1hour plus? Yet I still have to use it for my group's video. Bastard program, why don't they make a new one?

Guilt And Conscience Are Against Me.

Had extra Mathematics lessons today. Some stuff and problems with NCC's FSD. Took a bus home with Ryan. Now at Guo Sheng's house for a sleepover. Blog more about it tomorrow.

Disappointment Is Something No One Likes.

I just found out QWERTY is a type of keyboard, same to QWERTZ, and AZERTY as well.

It seems I'm not thinking as much as previous millenniums. I thought of a few reasons why:

1- The illness I had got to my head and is mutating my brain.
2- That's everything I can think of in my life, although I know there is more, I think.
3- I have nothing in that skull of mine now.
4- I'm not looking wide at the big picture of the world, maybe it's time for a trip to the art museum.

You Make Your Own Destiny

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I'm starting to get bored. Nothing to think about now, seems that my phlegm is getting the better of me. I feel so lazy, not wanting to do anything. Was lazy in tuition. Having migraines again. Sleepy, tired, boring, lazy, phlegm. It couldn't get any worst.

Thinking Of The Outcomes And Their Possibilities Has Always Been A Pastime Of Mine.

'That's It? That's The End?'
Ever had the feeling that shows, movies, events, occurrences etcetera was too short? Not worth your time? Felt that there should be more after 'The End'? Like it was not totally complete?
Sometimes we feel totally incomplete when the end of whatever draws closer, like there is something, someone missing to fill the void inside. When the time strikes midnight, we quickly run down the flight of stairs to mark the end, where we lose our glass shoe. That feeling still stays for a period of time, till the glass shoe is returned to us. Others think they done as much as they could, and could not have done it any other way to end this occasion. When that time arrives, the shoe won't be lost.
Time is a huge factor. Time is always needed from start to finish. Time is essential for everything, yet we waste it. We always complain that the duration is too short, yet some people don't cherish these golden seconds, dwelling their time on unimportance. Sometimes it's just instinct, some times its just nature. Sleeping is a waste of time, yet is human instinct. Going out with your friends everyday is a waste of time, it's just your nature of doing it. At times we can stay in control, other time we have to be controlled.
When you feel incomplete, you want more, you do it again. But it's like a rechargeable battery. Use, Charge, Use Again. You are just repeating what has happened. A cycle. You start, end and start again. The only thing you don't get back is the time. By any chance you escape that cycle, you will figure out that you thrown the hours and minutes out of the window.

Cycles Always Have Opposites.
Start To End Is Always An Opposite In Cycles.
Endings Starts New Beginnings, Which Leads To Another End.
Acceptance Is Overall The Best Option.

It's Valentine's Day, something is on my mind though. Lazing around at home. Have tuition soon.

Have A Happy Valentine's Day!

Yesterday's Choice Of Song: In The End By Linkin Park
Today's Choice Of Song : Valentine's Day By Linkin Park

Everything Needs An Opposite, Or It Will Be Nothing.

It's Just A Late Post.

Sick for 3 days. That's all. Total Defense Day today.

Hi

I think about amnesia. How frightening it will be to one day wake up, unsure of your location, the people you see, and one's self. 'Where?', 'Who?' and 'What?' Questions will be frequently asked. You will be in a total lost. The collection of memories over the years has turned to smoke. To dust. You might know your name, but the friends accumulated over the previous 'life', became strangers the next day. Your friends forgotten, creates a penetrable wall for manipulation to arise. That's where your once called 'true friends' protects you from the evil around you. Yet some of these 'true friends' left you in the dark with the 'creepy-crawlies'.
You get migraines everyday just trying to remember your past, and sometimes to no avail. Yet some people don't bother, thinking of a new start, and from there, follow the currents of the river. Forever still lost, making you feel inhuman. Is it worth it to lose the memories of one's self? Nothing to you is the same, yet everything to you seems at norm. Was it worth losing those memories? You, yourself will never know, till that time of remembrance. After you recall, did you think it was worth find about that previous 'life'? Would you have wished you had amnesia again? And the cycle repeats itself. Scary isn't it? Lost in a cycle forever.

I felt so sick today, still I can't skip school tomorrow. My first SPA Biology Test is on tomorrow. I think I'm prepared, hopefully. Active once in awhile, but occasionally quiet, and tired. Slept through Additional Mathematics. Today morning at 1AM, I woke up and started coughing till 2AM. Couldn't sleep. My mum woke up and gave me some medicine, and I forced myself to sleep. Thanks mum. Fuck my throat. NCC today was extremely boring. After arranging the things in the room, I sat in there with Marjorie and rot. I wanted to move around and visit the Part A's and B's. Three reasons which did not made me go out:

1- I felt too sick to move
2- I did not have the key to lock the door up
3- I did not want to leave Marjorie in the room alone

Anyway, did not have first parade and last parade. So I was clueless about the schedule. After NCC. Went to Macdonald's for a pre-dinner snack. Did not eat the fries though. Reached home about 8PM.

Today's Choice Of Song: Disease By Matchbox20

Flip Over That Idea Once More And See The Difference

Silence Works Wonders.
Simple Yet Complex.
South At The North Pole.
Seeing Without Focusing.
Sticks In The Air.
Some Ponders, Others Don't.

I want to learn everything, Know every fact, understand the balance. Time is still short, and moves quickly. Current events turns to History, and then to dust. Some still conserved, but start to shrink until it has to be seen under a microscope. We get our knowledge from books, articles, friends and etcetera, but sometimes we lose it, or it just does not want to be open. I'm learning, but it's not enough. I crave, even lust for knowledge, yet I either don't get what I was looking for, or too stubborn and lazy to do anything for that piece of information.

I'm so shagged today. Happy with both my Mathematics and Chinese results though. Quite a relax day, yet boring and quiet, in my mind. Nigel came to my house to use the computer.
My throat is killing me. It hurts so bad after inhaling second-hand smoke from the surrounding smoke at my house. It feels like my throat is being ripped apart.

Breaking The Basic From Another New Beginning

The environment, the day, the time, the place, the events, even the music. They always change my mood. As I see, hear, smell, feel and taste, my mind opens to a wide array of thoughts. People's words can barely affect me, but the 6 things above can greatly change the yin to yang. This happens when I admire the beauty of this universe and it's people, or living beings. It's a major mood swing. I must be having high levels of Progesterone(A hormone produced from the Corpus Luteum. Produced after Luteinizing Hormone levels dropped in the 17-28 days of menstruation. The rise of Progesterone causes mood swings in a female during their period. The main reason for this hormone is to help keep the uterine lining well supplied with blood to prepare for the possible implantation of the embryo). By the way, this stuff was learned from my first biology lesson today. And I don't have high levels of Progesterone, if you were wondering. Anyway, things you learn about from this post:

1-Environment, day, time, place, events and music affect my mood.
2-What is Progesterone
3-I have Biology lessons on Saturday

So had Biology, Chemistry and Physics tuition today. Had lunch with Brandon and Shermin. Bored stiff at home. Anything else? I guess I forgot.

Today's Choice Of Song: Gift And Curses By Yellowcard

Dreams Can Turn Into Reality, But Might Not Appear The Way You Thought It Would Be.
I Think I Need To Talk To Myself, Make That As A Post Some Other Time.

It's been more than 1 week since I posted. CA1 refrained me from blogging. Many things had happen in between these times. My past thoughts seems to be a blur after the CA1. My eyelids are heavy, my focus isn't clear. I'm tired, extremely tired. Had NCC today, Physical Training, games for the Part A's and B's and lessons from the scouts for the Part C's. Went to Macdonald's after that. Headed home while in the bus with Gerald. WZ and Ryan headed home on bike. Slept for awhile, and went for tuition after that. Going to have tuition tomorrow.

Anything else I can type? I already forgotten the exploits I spent my life on these past few days, other than CA1 on Friday and the Sport's Heats.

Today's Choice Of Song: Pavlove By Fall Out Boy

I Can't Think, Breathe And Move Properly
Friday Is Pasta Day
The Past Is Haunting, So I suggest Not To Dwell In It