UPDATED: This Is By Far My Longest Post Ever.

Thoughts Of The Past, Present And Future.
It's Been Crazy, Stupid, Confusing, Irritating, Painful And Totally Absurd.
It's Been Fun, Great, Slightly Exciting, Awesome, Inspirational And Hilarious.
Somethings Were Made No Higher Than Perfection, Others Could Not Have Gotten Worst.
But If You Try To Picture The Future, This Could Be An Understatement.
There Were The Ups At The Start Of The Years, The Downs In Mid Year, And The Above Average Close To The End. Think Of It As y=Sin@+1 Graph.
+1 Is The Above Average.
Some Say It Was Destiny, Others Believed It Was A Mistake, While A Few Just Let It Go.
But Nevertheless, The Years Is Coming To And End, And All Hail 2010.
The Old, Whether Mental Or Materialistic, Is Pushed Aside, While We Call Forth The New.
What We Call Forth, Is Still A Question, As What The Future Hold You Know Not.
What We Know, Life Is Building Bigger Barriers, More Traps, More Surprises.
What You May Encounter In 2010 May Render You Speechless, Or Just Bore You To Death.
So Prepare Your Guns, Ammunitions, Food, Bunker, Your Favourite Soft-Toy And Gaming Console.
Cause As We Step Into The New Year From The Old Year, We Just Entered Enemy Territory.
Its Gonna Be One Hell'a Of A Bumpy Ride, Extremely Bumpy.

Although, One Just Can't Help Thinking About The Past, And That One Is Me.
Is Been Heaven And Hell Till 2009, As Far As I Can Remember.
Well, I Somehow Decided To Make A List, Something Like The Top 10(Or Less) Greatest/Worst/Neutral Moments In My Life... Well Other Than The Fact That I'm Bored Therefore Doing This, Its New Year's Eve, And I'm Spending It At Home In Front Of My Computer, How Pathetic.
Well Here Is The List:

Top10 Painful Moments I Remembered:

10. Breaking My Collar Bone During Judo Training
Actually, It Wasn't That All Painful. I Remember Hearing A Crack, Told The Guy To Get Off, Tried To Lift My Arm, And There Was This Piercing Pain. I Still Could Write With That Hand Though...
9. Hand Slapping Games
Sometimes I Wonder Why I Play This. And You Only Feel The Pain After 1 Minute Or So.
8. My First Time Falling Off From A Bicycle Without Training Wheels
Went Down The Slope On The Road, Lost Control, Fell Off, And My Left Knee Skidded Along The Pavement. The Worst Thing Is, That Happened To Me Last Year. I Have The Jeans To Prove It.
7. Burning My Tongue
I Always Forget That The Curry'O From Old Chunky Stays Hot Even After Leaving It In The Open For A Long Time. Always Get Ulcers After That. Speaking About Ulcers...
6. Ulcers
The Smallest Wound In Your Mouth Can Really Cause A Lot Of Pain, Especially When You Are Eating. The Pain Really Spoils The Enjoyment Of Eating.
5. Accidentally Stapling My Fingers
In Primary 4, And It Was Those Industrial Staplers. Pulling It Out Was The Painful Part.
4. Blisters
One Of The Most Irritating Thing, That Is Both Disgusting, And Painful, And I Still Go On Peeling It Out, Ouch.
3. Accidentally Hitting My Leg Very Hard Against Something Even Harder
It Always Happens.
2. Getting Hit In The Nuts By A Soccer Ball
That's Just Soccer, Competitive And Rough. Anyone Or Everyone Who Usually Plays Soccer, Gets Hit In The Nuts At Least Once, Whether By Ball Or What Ever Factors. Freekicks Kills, No Matter How Much You Cover Your 'Teabags', And When You Try To Stand In The Line Of Fire, Remember To Twist You Body.
1. Getting Hit In The Nuts By A Soccer Ball, 2 Times In-A-Row.
Whats Worst Than Getting Hit In The Nuts? Getting Hit In The Nuts A Consecutive Time In The Same Day, And That Rarely Happens To People. I Just Happen To Be The Dummy In Secondary 4. And The Second Ball-To-Nut Was Because Of Nigel Deflecting The Ball Towards My Pelvis.

Top10 Girls I Once Liked But Could Not Make It There 2000-2009(Names Are Not Mentioned):

10. What I Saw Came Short
This Is Quite Common. See The Face, A Bit Of Their Personality, And BANG! A Small Crush Is Created, For Awhile Though. Somehow, I Knew She Liked Me, And I Had A Crush On Her, But It Faded Faster Than I Thought, For the Both Of Us.
9. First Crush
Well, A Primary 1 Crush Seemed Stupid Now. I Actually Thought I Was Competing For That Girl With Another Guy, And Now When I Think Back About That, I Laugh At It, And Because The Girl Put On More Weight, From What I Thought.
8-6. Three?!?!
Hey, 3 Is Better Than 1 When You Look At It, It Gives You More Chances, Somehow, Even Though It Was Still Slim.
5. The Mistake
When I Start To Think Of This, It Makes Me Want To Slap Myself. Why Did I Even Like Her? That Was Extreme Blindness In the Making.
4. Two Years Long
She Was The Girl I Thought Was The Prettiest. Any Many Thought The Same. I Still Remember I Actually Followed Her And A Friends... Like A Stalker After Thinking Awhile, And It Actually Made Me Better Friends With Them And Her. Still, You Can Say I Was Still Too Short... Of Everything.
3. Met At Camp
She Was From NCC As Well, She Was Beautiful, And She Was Horny. Well, Maybe Because It Was After A Long Day And We Were Playing Dare And Dare. And I Was Like A Weirdo, Asking For Her E-Mail Address, Being So Paranoid etc.
2. Ouch...
OK, This Was Painful. I Emo-ed, And I Don't Emo! It's Like I Got Slap On The Cheek, Didn't Learn My Lesson, And Got Slapped Even Worst. Well, At Least Both Parties Recovered After Awhile.
1. Ouch²...
This I Emo-ed As Well, But It Did Not Last As Long As Ouch. Still, False Hope Crushed Me Badly. And That Was When I Found Out That I Have Not Learnt My Lesson From Ouch. Still, I Blame False Hope.

Top10 Funniest Moments Currently:

10. 10/10 Jokes
In Primary School, My Mum Subscribed For Me This Online Tuition Thingy Called 10/10. After Every 10 Questions Or So, A Random Fact Or Joke Appears. Most Of Them Were Lame Jokes, But There Was 1 That Made Me Laugh For 3-5 Minutes. It Was Involving This 3 People: Stupid, Nobody And Nothing. Ya, You Should Know The Joke.
9.Telling Mrs Bu That Nigel Was Fighting With Leonard
Just To Get Her Up To Class For Her Birthday, YuLing Told Her That. And Mrs Bu Thought That Nigel Was Dying.
8. Nigel's And Pamela's Arguments
Somehow, Their Arguments Go No Where, And Thats When Randomness Is Put Into the Picture.
7. Disturbing Mr Supra
Secondary 2, Sitting Next To Nicholas, And Our Favourite Teacher To Disturb Was Mr Supra. Give Him Funny Faces, Created Funny Noises, And Poking His Ass With A Pen.
6. 'BeiHO'
Oh Man, That Was Freaking Hilarious. Not Only Gerald Accidentally Burned Himself, Juan Had To Tell Him 'You BeiHO'. Funny Shit.
5. WZ's Face
Face It WZ, Your Face Is Just God Damn Hilarious, Especially During NCC.
4. JL's Bullshit
His Bullshit Is Classic, Laugh My Ass Off Every Time.
3. The Internet
Sometimes, You Just Can't Beat The Internet.
2. L4D2
Get Some Friends And It Will Be A 30mins-Whenever Joke-A-Ton.
1. The Excalibur
The Famous Excalibur, Known For Its Awesome Power, And Yet It Landed In The Hands Of Jeremy. And I Didn't Know Excalibur Had A 2-in-1 Function, It Can Also Be Used As An Umbrella. And The Greatest Scene Of The Excalibur Was When Jeremy Stabbed JL In Bio Class, While The Bio Teacher Was In The Class. It Can't Beat The Might Of The Teacher Thought.

Top10 Discoveries So Far:

10. Everything Else Except The Things Bellow
Well, I Had Discovered Many Things, Good, Bad, Ugly, Funny Etc. But There Are Just Too Many To Count, So Everything Else Except The Ones Below Are Classed Under 10. Everything Is A Good Discovery To Me, Just That Which Is Better, And Which I Can Remember.
9. The Computer
Looking At The Animated Games My Sister Played On My Uncle's Computer When I Was Young Made Me Want To Try It Out, However, My Sister Did Not Let Me, Nither Did My Mum And My Uncle, And That Was A Big Mistake, Because That Just Made Me Want More.
8. Kindergarten Mathematics
It Was Great And Was Always Simple. And It Always Gets Me Sweets From My Teacher When I Was Practicing My Mental Sums After Lessons, While Waiting For My Maid To Pick Me Up.
7. A Guy Dying From Exploding Chewing Gum
Sad Thing, Yet Can't Help But Laugh Cause The Way He Died Was Ridiculous.
6. Money
What Else Is There To Say?
5. Crushing On Someone
Well, This Lead Me To Many Downfalls, But It Trained Me For Further Downfalls. I'm Already Prepared To Take The Pain.
4. The Internet Is For Porn
I'm Talking About Three Things Here. 1)The Internet 2)Porn 3)The Song 'The Internet Is For Porn'. The Internet Is The Greatest Place For Everything. And It Just Had To Be The Greatest Place For Porn As Well. And I Found Out About Porn When I Was Primary 3 Or 4. Somehow, There Were Pop-Ups When I Entered The Internet, Ad-Ware. I Got Curious And Well Stuff Happens. And Then They Made The Song, Which Is Kinda True.
3. Online Gaming
This Was Something Which Changed My Life. At First There Was Gunbound, Runescape And Dragon Quest. These Games However Got Boring After Awhile. What Actually Made Me Hocked Onto Online Gaming Is Maplestory, And That Was Where I Learned About...
2. LAN
It Wasn't Actually A LAN, It Was A Community Center, Which Had A Room Full Of Computers. A From There, I Heard About LAN From My Cousin And Then LAN Came Into My Life.
1. Friends
Friends Ain't Forever, But The Discovery Of Friends Is Something I Can Can Never Forget, And This Just Makes It Forever For Me.

Top10 Saddest Moments I Can Recall:

10. I Can't Torrent That Torrent
It Was So Irritating When No One Was Seeding It Man. So Disappointing.
9. Mininova Died
It Was The Best Torrent Website, And It Just Had To Get Pinned Down Like That. *Sob*
8. My Accounts Getting Hacked
Maplestory Was The Main One. I Got Hacked Twice, Which Made Me Give Up On That Game. And The Addiction Slowly Faded Away. Screw The Guy Who Hacked Magicaluni.
7. My Gameboy Colour
My Dad Was So Angry That I Was So Addicted To It That He Threw It Down From The Second Floor Of My Mansionate When I Was Primary 1.
6. Losing My Pokemon Cartridges And Gameboy Advance SP
It Was Perfect. My Pokemon Was All Godly. First I Lost Ruby Version. Then When My Emerald Was Hack, I Lost Every Version And My Gameboy Advance SP.
5. Ouch...
I Emo-ed... And Like I Say, I Don't Emo!
4. Being Mocked In Secondary 1
I Was So Sad, I Got Bloody Pissed At Him(1 Guy), I Raised My Voice And Dared Him To Fight With Me. He Was Bloody Scared. IF You Have Never Seen Me Pissed, You Wouldn't. Could Have Killed Him.
3. Ouch²...
Being Unhappy And Angry At A Person For 3 Hours Might Be Short, But It Will Still Hurt.
2. Movies
Movies Always Have Some Parts Which Are Suppose To Be Sad, Which Makes Me Want To Cry, Yet It Feels Dry.
1. Feelings Towards My Parents And Inspirational Courses, Talks And Camps
Some Feelings Towards My Parents In The Past Was Really Scary, But We Got Over It And Cry About It In The End After Talking. Courses, Talks And Camps Is About The Same As The Movies, Just More Impact, Still Hard to Cry.

Top10 Great Moments And Things Of All Till 2009
10. Everything That Won't Be Mentioned
Read It.
9. Secondary 3 & 4
Great But Not As Great As...
8. Secondary 2
The Epic 10 Guy 30 Girl Class
7. Hanging Out With My Cousins
Oh Its Was Great
6. Quarreling With My Sister
One Of My Greatest Hobby In The Past, Maybe Thats How We Got Closer.
5. Opening Up To My Mum And Dad More
The Feeling Was Great
4. Finding Out That Girls Like You
Hey, When You're A Guy, You're A Guy. You Feel Great When A Girl Likes You.
3. My Birthday 2009
Thanks To All Who Celebrated With Me! The 5 Of You Rocked: GS, Nigel, Corey, JL and Jeremy.
2. Hanging Out With My Friends
I Just Love You Guys
1. Friends And Family
It Would Have Killed Myself Without Your Support And Love. You Guys Will Always Be Remembered. Love You Everyone.

Then All For The Top10. 2010 Is Coming Soon, Less Than An Hour.

Oh, forgot about today's events:
Woke up and used the computer. Went out with my dad. Came back and used the computer.

Going To Miss 2009, See You All In 2010. Peace Out.

Till The 31st And I'm Scot Free, Except Saturday.

I See The Left, I See The Right.

Uploading Stuff On Facebook On The 1st.

Born For This, That's What You Get.

Love My Black Jacket.

Yesterday, went to upgrade my RAM to 2.25GB with my cousin at FuNan. He went to get a better graphic card. My dad fetched him from his house and sent us to FuNan. Somehow, we should have waited for a while so we would pay lesser. Anyway had lunch at Subway(and it rocked) and went home.

Today, went for our POP rehearsal. Was told to come at 8AM, but it was actually at 9AM. The Guard-of-Honor rocked. It only consisted of me, Juan, Corey and Wayne, while Joyce was In-charge of our platoon. The four amigos. Well, that was rehearsal, so hopefully, on the actual day it would be better. Went to eat lunch at MacDonald's after that. Talked about crap and Naughty G. Then went to NTUC to look at Naughty G and get some drinks and a Newpaper. Forgot to mentioned that Ryan, Corey, WZ and Wyane was with us from lunchtime till now. Joyce, Nicole and Shi Ying were eating at Kopitiam. Gerald was sick so he decided to go home. Juan just left. We took a bus home after that. Reached home and used computer for awhile. Left, with my lovely black jacket, to meet Corey at Hougang Mall. Followed him so I could sign up for the job his currently working. Met Vanessa at Hougang Mall doing the job that I believe I couldn't do: selling coupons for charity, from Project Renewal. Well, went to Ochard to sign up for the job. Took the MRT back after buying black socks for $1. Went back to Hougang and saw Vanessa again. She asked me to accompany her to chit chat, so I did. Talked with the people who were there the last time I sold tickets. Anyway, went home after that, but not before buying a Curry'O and a cup of Oreo Crunch. It's been a long time since I gotten myself a cup of bubble tea. Went home used 15 minutes of the computer. Got tired, left it on and took a nap. Woke up to have dinner.

It's Seemed Short.
Just Be Prepared For New Beginnings.

I'm Getting A Tad Irritated.
Of All The People, You Had To Ask Me To Help.
And Out Of The People You Asked, You Asked The One Who Will Always Help.
And The One Who Dies Not Giving Up.

Went to Ubin today with Gerald and WZ. It was raining, but we still went, in hopes that it will stop when we arrived there. Found out from them that Alex and Marjorie were already there. Took a bus then ferry across the sea or ocean to Ubin. It was still raining, so waited for the rain to stop. Met the other 2 there. Rented bikes there and cycled around. Took pictures with WZ camera. Returned the bikes at around 6PM. Waited for a ferry back to Singapore. Had Pre-Dinner at Compass Point. Gerald went home first. After eating at Long John Slivers, took the same bus as WZ while Marjorie and Alex took another bus. Reached home and ate dinner.

I'm Shagged.
Mud Flies Everywhere.

It So Late, Or Early.

Cut the crap, been up looking at some Polytechnics this whole morning. Well spent Christmas at my Aunt's Place. All my relatives were there. Used the computer awhile with my cousins. Played basketball after that. Received presents and went home later on.

Simple, Short, And Sweet.

Merry Christmas To Everyone I Have Seen And Known.

All Things Boring Starts Tomorrow, And 3 Days Of Work Is Brought Over To 1.

32 Rules On How To Survive A Zombie Apocalypse.

'Thank You For Flying Qwerz Airlines, Hope You Had A Pleasant Trip'

Pokerface.

Went to Darren's house today to watch a few movies. Corey, WZ and Jeremy where there too. An animated version of Storm Warriors 3, which was so much better than Storm Warriors 2 even if it was in Cantonese. Used his computer for awhile while deciding what or where to eat. In the end, we ordered KFC. Watch some comedians on Youtube while waiting for food to arrive. At chicken, lots of chicken. When back to watch Zombieland. Loved Zombieland, now craving for L4D2. It's a slightly, and I really mean slightly cliche storyline, but even I love the cliche of that movie. Used Darren's computer more while Corey had to go back home. I went home with WZ while Darren and Jeremy went for their martial arts training. Took 112 with him home.

At Times, I Believe What I'm Not.
Other Times, I Try To Be What I'm Not.
And Seldom, I Feel This Sinking Feeling.
Its Like I'm Betraying Myself To Be Whats Not.

Precision Is All About Timing.

Sometimes I Just Have To Force Myself To Blog, And This Is One Of The Many Times.

Secrets Told Or Secrets Kept?

I Love To Clarify Rumors.

Sometimes I Just Feel Like And Exhibitionist, And I Don't Mean A Nudist.

Feelings Are Always Temporary.
It Comes And Goes Like The Wind.
How Strong And How Long It Blows,
Depends What Feelings Are Exhibited.

Its A Passing Thing.

Well, its today already, and soon I'm going to Darren's house to watch a movie later. Starting from where I ended off, I went home to web-surf and bath. Met GS and the girls at the MRT station. Went down to PlazaSing for a movie. we walked around to find a place to eat, but to no avail. So we just walked around. Went to the Cathay to watch Avatar. The movie was awesome, so watch it. Then some of the girls went their separate ways. Few of the girls, GS and me headed down to Priscilla's house for a steamboat dinner. Jia Hui and Lena was totally afraid of her pet dog. Her boyfriend tagged along as well. Played the Game Of Life for awhile, but thought it was to complicated, so we decided to play UNO Stacko, after eating our dinner. I was full as hell. Played something like a truth or dare UNO Stacko. Whoever destroy the stack will be selected for a truth or dare. But it was kinda boring. Anyway, we took some pictures and went home. Came home about 12AM+ today. Used the computer and bathed to remove all the dog slobber on my body(yes the dog likes me and GS). Signing out soon.

At Some Point Of Time, I Feel Totally Obvious And Stupid.

It's Sort Of A Habit.

I'm Not Keeping It Secret, It Just That You Don't Ask Me.

I Want To Say More, But I Going Off.

Well, lets start form yesterday.

Went To Work Till 5.30PM. Met Ryan, GS, Nigel, Jeremy and WZ at Ion Orchard.
We walked around the area, we had to find a food court. Orchard is very well known for their scarce number of foot eatery, and when you find a few of these eateries, it will make a hold in your pocket, all in goodwill to scam foreigners. Well, it took us awhile to find a food outlet cause the whole of Orchard is a freaking maze. All the malls are linked, and we wondered around for awhile thanks to Jeremy's sense of direction. We decided to eat at Food Republic. It took us like half an hour to find a freaking seat. We should have anticipated a dinner rush. Well, we looked around to no avail. I almost found a seat for six, but as the people at the table were about to finish eating, to ladies came and ask if the two empty seats next to them were taken. In the end we settled for a smaller table with added on chairs. Like I mentioned above, food there is a scam. Mine was 7 bucks just for 2 meat, fried rice, and 1 vegetable. When we finished eating, we went off to admire the decorations along Orchard Road, except for Nigel, when he went to meet up with his brother at Shaw. Took some pictures with WZ's camera. Went to Takashimya to buy some food to eat. Looked around the area as well. GS bought a soft toy for her little cousin on Christmas. Saw Marjorie there at the cashier. Decided to walk back to the MRT and head home. What a great time I had. Came home and was just in time for Survivor: Samoa. Watched it till 2AM. Can't wait for Survivor: Heroes And Villains. Slept at 2.30AM. Woke up at 6.30AM to brush up and head off for badminton with GS and some of the girls GS hangs out with. Later going out again.

Tired.

My Last Post Was My 300 Post. This Shall Be 301.

Airline Manager Just Gets Better And Better.
And When I Have To Wait, Mafia Wars, Quiztastic! and Poker Rivals Really Feels Up That Gap.
If Not, IGN's Reviews And Youtube Videos May Work.

Phrases Just Amazes Me.

I'm Waiting For My Computer All Day Long... Wait Scratch That... Waiting For My Pay To Come... Both.

Desire Is The Fall Of Many.

We Control, But As Rocks Erode, Many Revert Back To The Old Ways, Some Converted That Control Into Habit.

It Seems M18 Activities Are Moving Down To PG13.

Copenhagen Failed.

I Need... I Crave... I Lust... I Want... I Desire... I Seek.

It's A Secret? I Say Nothing.
It's About Me? Say Whatever.
Secrets Keeps You Chained, Always.
Reveal The Truth To Break Free.
It's Sounds That Easy.
Yet Why Are We Still Clinging To It?

Two days ago, which was a Saturday, went out with Marcus in the morning for a jog around Hougang Stadium. We went there and waited for about half an hour for the rain to stop. Talked about stuff. We were slightly afraid that our stuff would be stolen, so we brought it to the opened sheltered seating on the opposite side of the stadium. Placing it there means if anyone steals it, there is only one why they can run, so we will know if we get robbed. Jogged 2.4km around the stadium. We rested and took off to the gym. Exercise there for awhile. Went to Hougang Mall to eat with Ryan at PastaMaina. Ryan was going to be late, so we decided to venture around Hougang Mall. Marcus eyes were extremely red, so he bought some EyeMo. Marcus went off first, so me and Ryan walked around Hougang Mall. Chatted with Ryan about many things. Went home after that, and Internet-ed the whole day.
Yesterday, Shopped with my mum and dad for clothes for me and my cousins for Christmas.

I Miss Something.

Sometimes I Just Want To Say 'Gosh, You're Pretty' Or 'Gosh, You're A Lier' Or 'Gosh, You Suck'.
But There's A Problem With That.
One, You Get Mistaken, Usually In A Bad Way, Rarely In A Good Way.
Two, You Affect The Other's Feelings, And Feelings May Vary.
Three, You Might Get Beaten Up, And Nothing More Is Needed To Explain That, Unless You're A Masochist.

Expressing Your Feelings Makes You Feel Better?
Depends On What That Is.
It Might Make You Feel Worst After That.

Risk, Risk, Risk, Risk, Risk... It's Such A Problematic Thing.

No Replies? It Makes Me Think Negative, And Made Me Felt Lame.
And This Negativity Surrounds The Matter And Escapes To Other Matters As Well.

Pimping A PSP And Having A D.I.Y Computer Is Not Cheap, But My Pay Covers That.

Many Seems Non-Existent In The Night, While A Few Stay Up To Bask In The Moonlight.

Be Prepared For The Worst, Only Then Your Fears Maybe Faced.

Board Game Anyone? Not Needed, We Are Already In One.

Jogging/exercising with Marcus later at 10 AM, and maybe eat lunch with Ryan.

Its Late, Exercise Is Going To Be Killer.

Today Was Nothing, Lets Talk Stuff.

Love Has No Boundaries
Therefore Love Is Blind
To Remove The Blindness
We Must Make The Boundaries
But Then Love Has No Boundaries
(Repeat From Line 2 Until Infinity)

Darkness And Light Are Totally Different And Opposite In Almost Every Way, But There Is One Thing Similar: Too Much Of Either And You Will Go Blind.

Friends, We Got To Gather, Then Move Out. Not Move Out And Get Lost.

Airline Manager On Facebook Is A Lovely Game, But I'm Way Behind My Peers.

MafiaWars Is Finally Back In Action For My Account! Yay!

Currently My Bookmarks On Facebook: Friends For Sale(Collecting Cash Everyday Only), MafiaWars(Almost Removed Due To Bug), Restaurant City(Awaiting For More Money And A Better Computer Before I Do Anything Big), Pokemon Card Maker(Why The Hell Do I Have That? Oh Wait...), Poker Rivals(If You Can't Make It Out There, You Can Still Make It Here, Warning Though, It Addictive, Too Me) And Airline Manager(FTW).
Any Bookmark Suggestions? I'm Open To Any.

To Live A Lie Or To Face Regrets, Nither Of Them.
Nither Of Them Means Risking It.
And Risking It May Lead To Either Of Them.

Why Does Many Things Feel Like An Infinite Loop.

'This week we're rolling out our coveted year-end awards for each gaming platform. This is the part where we talk about how prestigious they are and how important it is for you to pay careful attention to our choices. But seriously, who really cares? Don't we already know what all the best games were? "Blah, blah, blah, I'm Greg Miller and I love Uncharted 2." Yeah, thanks for the sweet info.
So while all those mindless console monkeys are falling all over themselves to see who can use the most superlatives in a sentence about Halo, we're taking a different route. We're going to hand out awards that really matter. Enough talk. Let's kick this s**t off.'
-Taken From IGN's Article: IGN's Totally Unauthorized 2009 Game Awards
More At http://psp.ign.com/articles/105/1055257p1.html

I Got To Say, IGN Is My Favourite Website! But I Don't Have A IGN Account Yet.(Ponders)

We Live To See It End.

I Need To Sleep Soon, So My Thought Will Just Have To Wait.

Sleep, eat, work, text messages, ETC.

Many people have a kneejerk response when violence and videogames are mentioned in the same breath. Depending on your viewpoint, violence is either the scourge of a bankrupt entertainment or an unfairly criticized way to have fun in an imaginary environment. In 2009, violence was used in a legion of different ways, and to give body to an array of different experiences. Blunt horror, comic exaggeration, nightmarish guilt, slapstick humor, Freudian catalyst, emotional manipulation, and abstract rumination; all sprung from the common seed of virtual violence. There is no single truth about violence in games anymore than there is about violence in ourselves. The more we become afraid of experiencing violence in our pastimes, the more distance we put between the ideas and their creators. And then falls the shadow. -Extracted From IGN's Article: The Year in Violence 2009
For The Full Written Article, Go To http://ps3.ign.com/articles/105/1055065p1.html

And Then Falls The Shadow.

As The Days Passes By,
The Memories Start Coming Back.
A Sentence, A Place Or A Picture,
Which Recalls What Looks Like The Past.
It Seem Oh So Near,
But Yet Its That Far.
I Missed Those Great Times I Had.
I Kept It So Dear,
But Yet Gone So Fast,
Whats Left Is Just The Past.

-TitinyQwerz

Working today, and got wet due to the rain on my way home.

Difference Makes It Clear.
Difference Makes It Separate.
Difference Makes It Horrible.
Difference Makes It Special.
Difference Makes It The Minority.
Difference Makes It Weird.
Difference Makes It Comparable.
Difference Makes It Some Similar.
Difference Makes It Complete.
Difference Makes It Useful Or Useless.
Difference Cause Many Things To Happen,
And Thats Why We Are Already Different.
We Are Only There To Make The Difference.

I Always Don't Have The Time For Long Post.

Tired And Busy On Mondays To Fridays And Maybe Saturdays.

Lets cut to the chase, shall we? Yesterday, me and Corey met up for lunch. we talked about work and stuff. Darren told us to meet him at Hougang Mall MacDonald's. Went there and spotted our Airborne diver, Wei Long. He was having lunch with his friend after finishing guitar practice. Chatted about stuff. Wei Long and his friend left while we were awaiting for Darren. After meeting up, headed down to PlazaSing to book our tickets for Storm Warriors 2. Wei Long actually warned us about the movie, telling us to go to the counter and ask if it was possible for a refund, well anyway, I got 2 free tickets so we split the cost for the other two tickets. Why 4 tickets? Ryan was going to come later due to housecleaning. After that went to LAN, and finally, I played L4D2. Well, Ryan came soon after. Corey is a terrible player in L4D. You can never work with him. Even the AI's are so much smarter than him. I don't want to go into details on how we lost the last stage again and again. Simply put it, some were careless mistakes, most were lack of teamwork and coordination, and others was just plain stupid. Well, Ryan played for awhile using Darren's computer and watched us play as well. Headed back to PlazaSing to catch the movie. Usually, I don't mind watching a squeal even if I don't get the storyline, and I also don't really mind watching a sucky movie where it actually meets my expectation(which is usually quite low to other's standards), but seriously, This movie was a failure. I mean the evil villain died too early in the show, the bad guy's son was seen in like how many scenes? I did not know what happen the son and the Emperor's right-hand man after they broke the spine, and the ending was seriously crap. I show have taken Wei Long's advice and watch Princess and The Frog. Well, we ventured around the area, and then left for home soon after.

Today? Work.

Brain Is Not Functioning Well Lately, Pardon Me For The Bad English Used.

Laziness Had Gotten To Me Again, Or I Just Have No Time, You Decide.

Messages Of Apology Especially On Websites, MSN, E-Mails, Blogs, Text Messages Etc. Is Fucking Insincere, But This Are My Feelings:
Sorry For Being Such A Jerk. Did Not Meant To Insult You In Anyway, Was Only Kidding. Sorry For Say Such Mean Things, Forgive Me Please? I Don't Like People Being Angry At Me.

I Feel Like Making A Random Montage Of Clips And Pictures I Have In Secondary School. Provide Me With More Media And I Might Make It With The Famous 'I Hang After An Hour Or So' Windows Movie Maker.

Why Is Mininova Dead!!! I Will So Miss The Torrents There, Those Lovely, Lovely Torrents...

L4D2... L4D2... L4D2...
I Think I Need To Kill Some Zombies...(Takes Out Shotgun And Walks Out Of The House)

Circles Are Everything.

I'm Hungry, Go Get Some Milk And Cookies Later.

Why Can't Of Anything Profound Now(Or In Nigel's Point Of View, Bullshit)? Could I Have Been Cured Off That? I Just Can't Remember.

If You Read Close Enough, You Might Be Able To See A Plus Sign On The Post.

Work has been tiring, which caused me to become lazy and not blog. Well anyways, there was nothing interesting to blog about except work. Although I made a few new friends, and I think 2 out of the 3 of the friends I made is going to quit. And I had diarrhea yesterday. Today however, went out with my dad to shop at NTUC, and on the computer almost the entire day.

Slept Till 11am This Morning, And It Felt Great.

OK. Today I Getting Straight To The Point Because I'm Kinda Pissed Right Now.

I'm still unsure whether my PSP got bricked or my battery was modified. In anyway, I was scammed both ways. I wasted $____(Not going to specify) because my battery is working fine now, and I actually thought that it was modified... And if it was brick, then it was partially worth it. if it wasn't, I wasted $____. In total I wasted $____ if everything was fine in the first place!!! Black screen and green power light on really eats your money if you don't look it up on the internet. Failure, epic failure. Now there is no problem with either batteries, and all of them are normal batteries. There was a possibility it was bricked, but I'm still unsure about it. Now my wallet is crying, real badly. Could have use the money for other stuff.

Well, That's Taking Chances And Risk, And This Is How It Turned Out To Be.

Blogging Is Like My Escape, Its Like My Comfort Zone, And I Like It.

My Hair Stands For All The Right And Wrong Reasons.

I Hope I Leave Secondary School With No Regrets.

Sometimes, The Truth Hurts, But We Live With It, And Sometimes We Try To Live With It.
Sometimes, The Memories Are Painful, But We Let Go Of Them, And Sometimes We Try To Let Go Of Them.
However, We Can Only Try To Forget Them, Its Not Possible For Anyone To Forget. Unless You Were Hit By Amnesia.

I Have Went Cold Turkey For Too Long, I Need My Drugs Back: Music.

I Just See Things Moving So Fast. Too Fast.

Some People Really Need To Update Their Personal Message On MSN, And I Mean Really.

No One Had Gotten Everything They Wanted.

I Remember Everything Like Yesterday... How Quaint, Isn't It? I Missed All Those Times Spent With My Friends... How Cliché, Isn't It? Yet, It All Feels So True.

I Wished I Knew Everyone Earlier.

16 Just Like That? It's Going To Be A Fast Lifetime.

Is There An Answer To Everything?

Inspiration, It Just Comes, It Just Goes, Its Many Things.

Enough of it I guess. Had work today, and since it was on Saturday, it was considered half-day. I might have earned, from Tuesday, either $165 or $198 this week. Did the thing I was doing before, cementing gaps between the wires and the rubber tubings. Well went home to rot. Boring. Mafia Wars is having problems, but I just it is just me and my browser. Met Corey after that for lunch. He finally found a job. Working as a service crew at hotels. Yes, hotels. If they need people at different locations, they will just get him to that place. His first job is tonight, 8PM-6AM. Hope he is doing well now. Ate at Subway. Well, I ate at Subway, I just offered him a cookie. We chatted for awhile. Companied him to the bus-stop. Tried calling Nigel and GS if I could hang out with them, but as you know its a Saturday, so most likely they will be at church. Well no harm asking or trying. Anyways went home. Started watching HSM, HSM2 and HSM3. Totally bored. Anyways, after watching, chatted with Marcus. Now chatting with GS.

I'm Just Waiting For Something Exciting To Happen, Even By Watching The Live Feed On Facebook Move By.

I Forgot What I Wanted To Type Here...

This Is A Presumption, And I Hope It's Wrong.
I Starting To Wonder If My Thoughts Were Right.
At The Moment, Its Just Something To Me.
If You Want It, You Can Take It.
Cause I Not Willing To Fight Or Compete Over It.
I'm Too Tired, Too Worn Out, Too Sick Of It.
Having It Was Just To Pull Me Up.
It Is Just Not Worth Fighting For.
Especially With My Best Friend.
Thats An Assumption, And Many Times It Isn't Accurate.
Hope This Time Isn't As Well.

It's Like 7AM+ Now.

I Wonder Sometimes, If I Can Get A Hint, Or Is It Just Inaccurate Assumption.

I See, That Is Only How Far I Could Become, Unless There Is A Miraculous Change In Events From My Own Believes.

At Some Places, I Approach People More, In Others, I Get Approach More, And In Certain Areas, Either I'm The Only One Approaching, Or I Don't Approach At All.

Murderous, Don't You Think?

Tell Me If You Can, I Want To Hear It From You, But Who Am I Kidding? If Asked, It Shall Be Told For Me. If Asked, It Might Be Told From Others, And Not All Truths Are What You Expect Them To Be.

When In Doubt, You're In Doubt, Get Over It.

Yesterday was a great day. After working, and not having overtime, I left for work to Ryan's House. It was raining at that time, so I waited for awhile. Miraculously, the last guy I said 'bye' before leaving work, was also leaving work, and he had an umbrella. He walked towards me and offered me shelter towards the nearest bus-stop. Had a talk along the way to Toh Payoh Station. Thanks Johnathan for providing shelter. He took the MRT back home while I was looking for a bus to Ryan's house. Luckily, there was a single bus, 73, going to his house. Ryan told me not to come so early, so I Went to BreadTalk to buy something custard-filled. I just had a craving for custard. The only thing custard-filled there was a chocolate Christmas Tree. Bought it, ate it and waited for the bus. I missed the actual bus-stop by 1 bus-stop. PSP more. Walked back to that bus-stop. It seemed that that bus-stop holds a few great memories. Anyway, walked to Ryan's House with his guidance. Darren came slightly earlier than me. Playing with matches and had a good chat. Well WZ was late as usual. Had dinner made my Chief Ryan. I love it, just because its spaghetti. Anyway we slacked and watch American's Toughest Jobs and American Gladiator. Great shows. Watched some videos on Youtube with Ryan. WZ and Darren was watching TV downstairs. Did some stuff with my PSP, don't ask what. Anyway, it was getting late and we had to go home. WZ and me were scared that we will get lost, but in the end we found our way out and walked to his house bus-stop. Took 112 home. Took a bath and watched the rest of Amazing Race and Survivor. Went to sleep after that.

Its Was An Important Day Yesterday For Me To Be Typing 20 Minutes Before I Leave For Work.

I Think I'm Going To Have A Headache Soon.

Tired, So Tired...
Labour, So Much Labour...

I Can't Think, Can Someone Make Me Think?

I Want To Ask If You Don't Think That Much.

Painful... Hands.

Have been working these 2 days. Yes I have found a job. Yesterday was the day I started work. Corey was considered on pending for that job, but they asked me to tell him he got the job. However, he told me he found another promising job, and was told that they will call, therefore rejecting the job I am doing now. How many times we've been to an interview and they actually calls us back? That's something he never learn! Well simply put it, my job is a general worker at this company called Prospec Electronic Pte Ltd. So I deal with electrical stuff now. At the moment, I'm doing a lot of things with wires. Well, yesterday was a somewhat easy job. Cementing open gaps in connecting wires to prevent water from seeping into the inside of the wires. Just required a steady hand. Was able to pull through that, although it got a little boring along the way. Today was a little tougher, with physical strength required, much patience and having a good eye for estimation. I was learning how to make those industrial wires. It seem like advance D&T there. Well I almost completed it, but went home before completion. Hands are kinda sore at the moment, but it is a good way of passing the time, cause you get paid and help gets rid of boredom.

I'm Thinking Something Right Now.

Is My Thoughts Telling Me The Truth?
That You Are Keeping Me Away For A Reason?
An Can That Reason Be The Obvious?
But I Don't Believe Those Thoughts.
Cause It I Don't Believe Thats You.
A True Friend, Thats What I See.
So Sorry I And My Thoughts Doubted You.

No Time At The Moment, Going To Summarise What Happen.

30 November:
Corey Came To My House.
We Looked For A Job In The Classified Ads, But Not Much Jobs.
Corey Decided To Play CS 1.6 At My House.
Watched Him Play.
Called Nigel If We Wanted To Play LAN.
After Endless Matches Of CS, Went To LAN.
Met Nigel. Darren Came Soon After.
Wanted To Play L4D, But Garena Was Having Maintenance.
Played CS And Fooled Around With Other Games.
Left After That.
Went Home To Eat And Sleep.

1 December:
Corey Came To My House Again.
Searched For Jobs Again, And Where The Interviews Were Located.
Played A Little CS 1.6 And Went For The First Job Interview.
Headed To Ikea At Alexandra Road, But It Wasn't An Interview, Just Writing Our Particulars Down And Dropping It In A Box.
Took A Bus To The Redhill MRT Station And Trained Down To City Hall.
Went For A Job Interview At Sake Sushi At Citylink Mall.
Had To Commited For 4 Months And At LEast Work 4 Days A Week, So Did Not Get The Job.
Tried Our Luck At Our Last Interview.
Trained Down To Potong Pasir For Our Last Job Interview.
They Let Us Have A Trial Run For The Job.
I Was Selected, While Corey Is Still Pending. Try To Convince Them In Accepting Him Tomorrow.
Went Home After That.

I Have A Job As A SiaKang... I Mean General Worker.

So Many Thing To Say, But Now... Will See First.

8.30AM-5.30PM Lunch at 11.30AM-12.30PM (Weekdays)
8.30AM-12.00PM (Saturday)

Don't Like Summarising... Last Time I'm Doing It, Makes Me Fell So Cooped Up Inside My Head, Not Letting My Feelings Out. That Sucks.

Got To Sleep.

There Is Times Where I Just Want To Say
Beautiful
Pretty
Stunning
Gorgeous
Cute
To People Without Others Thinking Too Much.
Thats All I Mean.
Yet I Don't Say It.

Not Letting Out The Feelings Within Feels Heavy.

Why Do I Need A Trigger To Open Up?

I Want To Ask To Help, Will I Be Allowed To Help?

Is Sleeping The Only Way To Speed Things Up?

Bored The Whole Day.

Give Me A Laptop Or Desktop Or A Camera Or A PS3 Or All Of The Above.

My Friend Might Be Right, But I Don't Have The Guts To Do It.

Imaginations Of Being A Superhero And Saving A Damsel In Distress Never Seem To Be Boring.

Yesterday? Went to Hougang Point for an interview at NTUC. Darren told us about it. It wasn't actually an interview, just filling up forms. They will call us if we got it. Frederick is actually working there with Joel, although I did not see Joel. Anyway Freddy messaged me to tell me if they don't reply to us in 2 days time, we should search for other jobs. We went to Darren's house to use his computer to check up on the telephone numbers of the hotels we wanted to work at. Fooled around with his computer for awhile. Went to LAN with Corey and WZ after that. Their L4D sucks. Anyway Corey went home first, so had my pre-dinner with WZ at Kovan. Talked about stuff. Went to the bus-stop near his house and took a 112 home.

Today? At home. Simple Enough.

No One Is Alone, Is Whether Or Not You Want To Be Alone.
Kill, Or Be Killed. It's A Food Chain.
Typing 'LOL' Is A Habit.
Life Isn't Fair, Life Is Fair.

Been exploring Singapore lately in search for a job. Been going for job interviews lately. Was reluctant to go for one today cause it was a public holiday, therefore there will be lesser companies, stores etc. in operation, and it was planned that we did not do anything today. Well, still went to look for a job, while playing around with WZ's Camera. Been sleeping well lately.

Our Owl Hours.

Uninspired Today, That's What A Job Does. Ya, I Can't Multi-Task My Thoughts And Work Well, I Just Do It.

Hiding Stuff Should Be A Crime

Thinking... Nothing.
Too Tired To Think Of Stuff Right Now.
L4D2 Is Calling Out To Me...
I'm Getting Bored... Again.
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What is the verdict today? Boring, stupid, kills brain cells and zombie-fies(Wow! New Word!) you into retards asking for a freaking $10 donation, always with a smile on your face, saying Thank You every second. On the plus side, approaching people is much more easier now for me. On the neutral side, I'm starting to smile more to people when I approach them or talk to them, but I think this side-effect is temporary. Lets start for this morning.

Met up with Corey and WZ for the job we were offered before having prata for breakfast and topping-up my Ez-Link Card. It was late when I met them at the bus-stop. However, we were not late. So, we waited, and waited, and sat down, and waited more, till they called our names and were sent into our individual group. My group leader in-charge of me was call Kris. Short girl, but older than me. Thought me the basic of advertising their product. Oh wait, I forgot. We were working for this charitable organisation called 'Operation Renewal'. It has been on for 16 years, but who the hell knows about it? Anyway, we were selling $10 tickets to help the needy. So we were trained. Introduced ourselves, introduced ourselves more, told a story, made fun off for fun, get a bit enthusiastic then were dispatched to our location where we were going to sell our stuff. Corey and me were lucky to be close. My location was at Hougang Mall, Corey's was at Hougang Central(difference much?). On the other hand, WZ was separated all the way till Outrum(Don't Know How To Spell) Park. Had lunch first. Me and Corey were already talking about quitting during lunch. Anyway, we tried the job. I sold 9 tickets, and was pure dumb luck. Corey and WZ sold only 2 each. After that we slacked and talked to the rest of the students who were scammed by the advertisement in the newspaper. They all had the same thought: being sacked or quitting. We joked around while slacking, talked about a few stuff. It was also flag day today for the St. John's Ambulance Brigade for YuYing(if I'm not wrong) Secondary School, and they were all girls. It felt like a competition. But after awhile, we had small talk with them who were doing Flag Day, they were quite nice and funny. I donated to them as well, although they didn't help me one bit(I'm a sucker for flag day, and a even bigger sucker for girls in skirts who act cute, which means they are cute, and at least look average, and uses a elastic band with a bow on it). Anyway, Corey and me went to Fairprice, where Corey took some pictures of us slacking and bought his kiwis(the fruit) for his mum.
Anyways, my mum called me and asked me to collect pay from them or she will call in for a complain. The organisation never receive any complains before. So I decided to tell my group leader about it. She wanted to pay me, but I did not REALLY(see the emphasis) want to accept it. I also told them that my mum was the type of person who is daring enough(which she actually is) to complain about this type of thing. Newcomers were not suppose to receive pay on their first 'observation' day, but my group leader did not want to take the chance, so she paid me $22 dollars. Corey did not receive any cause his was prepared to not receive it. I wanted to split the money, but he did not want it. So we went home before have his dinner and my pre-dinner at Long John Slivers. Went home after that to use the computer, talk to my cousin, watched Singapore Idol, and had dinner.
I think I left a few parts out, but it doesn't matter much, I think. Or does it? Could have been memorable. Well, and least I have my two working buddies, other than Corey and WZ, Hotmail account. Search for jobs are still on until 3 Dec, and if we don't get a job by then, we are not working anymore.

I Will Miss My New Friends I Made Today.
Damn I'm Too Emotional.
Is That A Bad Thing?

Perfection Is Prospective, Nothing Is Perfect.
Imperfections Makes One Unique In A Perfect Way.
Contradiction Much?

I Have Seen This Before.
Both Sides Have A Path Of Regret.
One Side Is Where You Will Regret.
The Other Is Where You May Regret.
Where You May Regret, You May Satisfy.
But It's Probability, It's Chance.
You Don't Know That Probability.
It Again, Is Chance.
For Some, They Will Regret Again.
For Some, They Avoid These Choices.
For Some, They Seek The Satisfaction.
Only To Fall Into Regret.
So, Will The Regret End If You Keep Trying?
Or, Lose Hope Along This Road Of Chance?

We All Think When There Is No Need For It, We Are All Just Humans.

Always Expect The Unexpected.

I Don't Know, But I Just Feel Like Helping, But Feel Helpless That I Can't Do Anything.

Met up with Corey and WZ at Hougang Mall to prepare for our job interview. I called up the person working at the company, and he told me that the walk-in interview was from 2-4pm. So we had nothing to do during this few hours. We stayed at MacDonald's to look for more jobs in Straits Time's Classified. After awhile we found a job we were interested in, called up and were told to go for a interview at 2:30pm. Then we still had a long time, so we decided to go to Corey's house before we browse around Hougang Mall. We were the first 2 friends he invited to his house. We looked in the street directory for the place we were going to for the interview. Saw his dad, and he looked like one of those Chinese/Japanese/Russian guy with a mustache, small eyes, round head and bald. Like those old bald Chinese officials. Anyway, had lunch at his house, then headed off for the interview. After the interview, went to WZ's House to slack. Went home after that. (It's a summary, I'm lazy)

Bored, Job Tomorrow, Yay, I Guess...

Everyone Is Blinded By Emotions
Nothing Is Ever Too Wrong Too Correct, Its All About When You Correct
Disappointment, You Don't Have To Be
If You Make Failure An Option, Your Chances Of Succeeding Is 50/50, Or Maybe Less
Never Believe In Failures Even Before The Race Has Started, You Are Just Putting On Extra Weight
Nobody Knows, Nobody Sees, Cause Its Hidden, Why Not Let It Out? Thats An Option
Knowing Your Limit? Or Exceeding The Limit? Depends On The Situation
Easier, Less Time Consuming But Feel A Lesser Sense Of Achievement? Then Read The Instructions. Or Harder, Time Consuming But A Greater Sense Of Achievement? Do It Yourself

Went for a game of badminton with Corey, GS and JL. Thats all. What can I say, boredom is taking over soon... Until I find a job. Going for another job interview tomorrow.

Tick-Tock Tick-Tock... Running Out Of Time Soon, For Many Things...

My Thoughts Run Free Like A Wild Mustang In The Open Grassland Of The North American West.
I Love To Hear The Fact Than Leaving A Huge Gap Between Suspicion And Solution.
Tell Us So There Will Be No More Conspiracy Theories.
Willing To Accept Help From Others Is One Step Towards Success. Willing To Help Others Is Also One Step Towards Success. Give And Receive It Sincerely. Do Not Prevent Others For Giving And Do Not Prevent Yourself From Receiving, That's Not The Sincere Thing To Do.
Contradiction Lurks Everywhere, Or Is It Just Me?
Why Doesn't The World Accept Willing? If Everyone One Was An Atheist, How Would It Be Something Else?
Somethings Just Disappoint Me, While I Disappoint Others.
Text Messages And E-Mails Are Convenient, But Fucking Insincere, In A Way.
Everyone Is Born With It, But Only 5% Of Everyone Uses It.

Starry Starry Night on Friday, which was considered our Graduation Night. One of the most disappointing events I know. But kudos to the teachers who tried to make the event at the very best. After eating, watching, taking pictures, listening, and eating more. The 6 of us got bored and went to play LAN. Counter Strike FTW! It was fun. Left at around 9pm. Corey and JL stayed to play more.

Went to SBM on Saturday with Darren. Then went to Linus House to celebrate his birthday. It was food, food and more food. Nothing else exciting I guess.

Resting today. I've been out for the whole week.

Cannot Make It Equals To An Epic Fail. You Fail.

Start from the 16 shall we? Well, I went to play badminton with GS and some of the girls in the class. After badminton, I went to GS house to have a bath. Then we discuss a bit on the plans for the chalet, at the same time playing his PS3. Then we met up with Constance and Maureen at the Hougang MRT station so we could head to Jo'di's house. walked around and talked a bit. Played some boardgames. Pictionary was hilarious.

Next day. Met up with Wei Zhuang and Corey to head for a job interview. After the job interview, went to Gs house to do the Montage. We finished it up nicely, had dinner and went home. I can't believe we took a few hours to think of the opening at the start... But it turned out fine anyway.

Yesterday, woke up about 7am to meet GS and Nigel. Went to GS house to wait for him. Took a 72 and met Nigel along the way. Went to Khatib MRT Station to meet up with Jeremy, Corey and JL. Headed out for Paintball. While playing we had no protection, so the impact of the balls hitting us was painful, and I really mean painful. The second round gave me most of my injuries. Everyone walked out with an orange-stained shirt, oily hair and a hell lot of bruises. Nigel took the advantage and targeted GS like there was no tomorrow. We were extremely tired but had a hell of a great time. Headed out to the Chalet carrying a few bags of ice. Had a nice bath there. JL was doing his usual to Jeremy and Corey join in the fun. Jeremy took a video of Corey being a Left 4 Dead Hunter, caused his dressing really made him look like one. His victim was me... Anyway, most of the girls came soon after. Leonard, Nicky and Matthew arrived as well. The girls helped us decorate the cards for the teachers, while the 6 of us went to play Table Tennis. Headed back to the room to have some rest, as well as preparing for dinner. Mdm Tan came before dinner, but left soon after as well. Had pizzas and chicken for dinner. The rest of the class came soon after. That was when it became more lively, and noisy. Mrs Lai came and had dinner with us. We showed her a the montage me and GS made after she finished her meal. Mrs Bu didn't come cause she was sick :( After Mrs Lai left, we went out to play pool. Corey and Jeremy were one team and GS and Nigel was on the other. JL was a bystander while I became the cameraman. Jeremy and Corey are total noobies(new to this game), whereas Nigel and GS had experienced this game before, so they had to teach them. In the end, the teacher became the student, and the student became the master. Corey and Jeremy won. JL came in between turns to have a tryout. Well, it was me and Nigel against Corey and Jeremy/GS/JL (I don't know who was his actual teammate cause all of them just cut in between turns). My shots were hack, even though I it was my second time. I made the ball jump to prevent the oppositions ball from entering the hole and my ball to enter it. But it was not hack enough to win. Remember Fort Minor's 'Remember the Name'? Went back to the room to rest again and play some Monopoly. Some of the others went home. While most of them stayed. Just say most of the night was boring, other than the fact JL kissed Leonard's nipples for $2. Fell asleep while watching LOTR.

Today, was awaken by JL and Corey. Brushed my teeth and the usual. Had breakfast, and watched some TV. Most of the guys and JL left earlier. Only the 5 of us were left. Played Monopoly again. Had to clean the room after that. Headed to Northpoint to eat Soul Garden. Went home after that.

I so shagged right now and I don't like cold weathers now...

Success Breeds Success
Get Out Of Your Comfort Zone Or You Will Never Grow.
It's The Gift That Keeps On Giving, So Receive That Gift Or You Are Not Letting This Great Feeling Of Giving To Be Felt By That Person.
Does Everyone Have The Heart To Forgive And Let Go?

2 Days of attending the 'Millionaire Mind' Seminar at Singapore Expo with my cousins, aunts and uncle was inspiring, but expensive. When I mean expensive, I mean the future programmes they offer. I had a free entrance. I know its life-changing, I know there is many goodies, but it cost over a thousand dollars. At the moment, I don't have that sort of income, although the offers were great, and the speaker really knew how to phyco the people into buying his product. He really made it sound promising. Well, at least I have an arrow which I broke with my neck as a souvenir(it was an activity just so you know).

Why Doesn't The School Teach Us How To Be Happy, Wealthy Or Relationships Which Are The Actual Reasons How We Are Going To Be Successful In The Future? Studies Are Just Entry Proofs.

It has been a long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long long(very long 'Longs') long long long long long long long long long long long long long time since I have been blogging. Been studying lately for the O'levels(This is total bullshit that I'm using study as an excuse for not blogging because I have been using the computer even during my O'levels, I'm just lazy actually). Anyway, O'levels have finally ended! I'm now free to roam the planet, or maybe just my house and some parts of Singapore. Actually, to some students, it ended last week, while to other students, its the start of the O'Levels was equivalent to the end of their O'levels. Anyway, no more studying! Well, until we go into our Junior Colleges and Polytechnics.

Been thinking quite a lot, during like what? 1 month? But of course I can't remember them all. So not posting any of it today.

So what happen today? LAN, Movies and well, fun. After the papers, we went home first to get changed. Jia Liang went home. Nigel made a short trip to my house, and then we went to Hougang mall to meet. Played Dissidia along the way. I rushed out of my house so fast, I wore my pants the wrong way... Went to Hougang Mall's toilet to re-wear it. Anyway meet up with Corey and GS there. And went to PlazaSing. Waited for Jeremy there. He got confused with the words escalator and elevator, then started walking around in circles. Well, he found us eventually. Went to The Cathay to buy our tickets for 2012. So we wanted to play LAN. At The Cathay, there was a LAN shop. Nigel and the rest did not want to ask how much was the price for 1 hour, so Nigel asked me to get information on the prices. So I asked, and they though it was too expensive, then they gave an excuse to walk away. Then Nigel jokingly blame me for making them lose face in front for that person. Epic Fail. So went too a walk to a nearby shopping centre Nigel knew about with a cheaper rate. So we went there to play LAN. First it was L4D. Nigel and me on one team, Corey, GS and Jeremy on another. After playing among ourselves for awhile, we had extra teammates from JP and TW. The funniest moment when we played L4D is that just a few metres from their starting safehouse and GS team got pawned, twice. Joke of the century. Anyway, we went to play CS after that. At the start, GS team was losing like, well, noobs. But after GS got the hang of playing CS, he started killing more then Jeremy, and his score was close to Corey's as well. Funny moments playing CS was endless. When we tried playing Poolday, Corey threw the grenade against the wall, and blew himself up. I cant believe I used a ShimiScout to kill someone with a single hit, without the scope. Another one was when I jumped in the pool after Nigel died. Corey, Jeremy and GS jump in the pool with me. I killed Corey and Jeremy, the GS was swimming in circles behind me, and the funny thing was he did not shoot me. I love the backstabs. Sometimes so clueless that they didn't even know I was walking behind them. Jeremy was funny when playing the Mansion. They kept camping at their spawn point. Jeremy just had to camp at the drain entrance, without looking down. Anyway, after 3 hours, we went to have a quick lunch at MacDonald's, then took 5 minutes to walk back to The Cathay for the movie. Bought the popcorn combo as well. Watched 2012, and it was a great film. It made me thinking if that was actually me in that situation. I think I would have died of a heart attack near the start of the movie. Felt a slight adrenaline rush when watching it. Many touching moments as well. Well I'll just say its not a movie to be miss. After the movie, Corey had to rush home. The rest of us went for dinner. Well, the rest of us as in Jeremy and me but after we went to the toilet. Haha, ate non-stop this entire day, better go exercising soon. Took a stroll around PlazaSing and went to Hougang Mall. Jeremy departed from us at PlazaSing. Went to check some stuff for the PS3 and PSP. After that went home and here I am now!

I was extreme high today. Especially during LAN. Went ballistic. It was just such a fun day to remember.

It Is Only The End Where It Recreates New Beginnings.(When I Say I'm Not Posting Any Today, I Mean Not Those I Thought Of 1 Month Ago)

Everyday, I lie in a box where there is an abundance of my fellow brothers and sisters. I sit there starring at them, all of them. Their eyes never seemed to close, always as wide as a compass, pupils tracing my every movement whenever I was moved. Their presence there resonated an eerie feel, while my presence there only made me feel afraid and melancholy.
Once in a blue moon, some of my fellow siblings and I will be taken out from the box, and be used in plays. We were dressed up in all sorts of costumes, ranging from tuxedos to pirate clothes, from baroque dressing to spacesuits. Our master was always pull the strings, our strings. We were worst than slaves to our master, being able to possess our bodies. At least I was still in possession of my mind. What about my siblings? are they under mind-control? Do they even give a thought about anything?
After a day of playing dress-up, we get placed back in the box with the others, and the staring contest begins yet again. What can I do? A Marionette can only do this much.

It's time to face the inevitable.

I Don't Like Presumptions Being Wrong, And Was Supposed To Be Typed 5 Posts Ago.

It's Either 311311 Or The Impossible 111111.

The Face In Which You See, The Thought Of The First Impression, Is Voided After Confrontation. What You See Does Not Really Mean What You Get. A Change Of Fate Could Happen In A Flicker Of An Eye.

High School Musical Goes Bollywood On Deepavali On Disney Channel.

Most Of The People At The Top Are Usually Competitive Bitches And Bastards. By Incultivating These Habits, It Highly Possible That They Stay High In The Cooperate Food Chain. However, There's Always A Saying For Something Like This, And Its Something Like 'Bullshit Will Get You To The Top, But You Will Never Stay There'.

Ever Read My Friends Story? Parts Of It Shows A Reflection On My Life, Coincidentally Of Course.

I Have A Sudden Craze For Final Fantasy Games, And Anything To Do With Final Fantasy.

I Need A Modelling Kit, And A Glass Display For The Stuff.

Although It Has Been A Year From The Day I Died, It Seemed Like I Die Yesterday... No... A Few Minutes Ago. It Felt Like Being A Phoenix Resurrecting For The Ashes. I Remember Saying That I Wished For A Second Chance In Life. I Still Remembered That There Was Something I Wanted To Say, But I Left The World Even Before I Even Had The Chance. Now, That Eternal Slumber Which I Was Cursed With Forever, Has Been Broken.
When I First Opened My Eyes, I Only Saw A Lamp Hovering Over Me. Only The Area I Was In Was Brighten Up, The Rest Was Total Darkness. I Felt Puzzled. 'Was This Heaven Or Hell?' I Noticed That I Was Lying On A Operating Table Before I First Awoke From My Death. At First I Though It Was Hell, Since It Seemed So Dark, But I Came To Realize That If Hell Was Total Darkness, Why Is There A Working Lamp? I Stood Up, And Felt A Chilling Breeze Being Blown Against My Skin. I Tried Moving, But Body Seemed Heavy, And It Was Like As If The Movement Of My Limbs Were Limited. I Lifted My Fingers And Shockingly, The Joints Of My Fingers Were Mechanical! I Looked At The Other Parts Of My Body, And Other Than The Fact That I Was Naked, Parts Of Me Were Made Of Metal.
While I Was Trying To Comprehend The Fact That I Became An Android, A Loud 'Slam' Was Heard. A Light Emitted From What It Seemed Like An Opening Of A Door. A Silhouette Of A Man Walk Towards Me, And As He Came Closer, I Noticed Who He Was. I Rush Towards Him And Gave A Big Hug. Tears Blurred The Vision Of His Shoulder And The White Overcoat He Was Wearing. It Was Silent For A Moment, Until He Moved His Head Close To My Ear, And Whispered," Welcome Back, My Friend."

A Sudden Idea Just Makes You Want To Type More.

I See That Blogger Has Fixed The 'New Post' Page.

It's A Random Quote Someone Placed On Their Personal Message:
When You Run Away From Something, It Only Stays With You Longer. If You Fight That Something, It Will Make You Stronger.
And I Totally Agree With This, As It Reflects On Myself As Well. Maybe To Others, They Can Just Walk Away, But I Myself Have To Fight It Away. The Only Problem For Me Is, I Don't Know How To Fight It Away. I Have Been Running, And When You Run, It Will Be A Long Road Till It Reaches The End. Even If It Gets The Job Done, It's A Long And Painful Journey. Maybe I Have Fought Before, But I'm Never Aware Of It.

Even Those Friends Who Bullshit With You, Can Really Give Good Advice. The Words Of Two Friends Made My Day, But Were Crushed By The Awful Truth, Or That's What I Think The Truth Is. One Friend Told Me About A Particular Type Of People, And What He Told Me Was Actually Quite Logical, Saying That It Helps These People To Find The One They Truly Need/Want, But What If One Already Have A Relationship With Another? Even Me And Him Were Clueless About It. You Two Really Give Good Advice, And Very Easy To Talk To.

Now,I Just Wished It Will Be All Over, Or I Can Just Suffer From Amnesia, But Suffering From Amnesia Is Running Away, Yet, It Is A Permanent Getaway, Where You Can Actually Start Anew. I Also Won't Mind It Being A Bad Dream, And Wake Up On My Birthday Again. But I Do Not Want Everything To Be Over. Somethings Are Great The Way It Seems.

Honesty Is The Best Policy, But Not Everyone Can Uphold That Policy.
Openness Voids Misunderstandings, But Not Everyone Knows Who/When To Be Open.
When You Are Trying To Be Honest, Don't Joke About It.
When You Are Trying To Make A Joke, Don't Include Your Honesty.
I Thought I Could Endure All The Sarcasm And Jokes Which Were To Make Fun Of Me, But It Is Difficult To Endure It Especially If It Is From A Close Friend, Or A Bunch Of Them, Yet I Still Try To. It May Stop For A Day Or Two If I Tell Them To, But It Is Extremely Short-Lived. I Already Know I'm The Weakest Among You Guys, But It Would Be Good If You Could Stop All The Insults, It's Quite Demoralizing.
Mockery, Insults, Sarcasm Maybe Used To Create Humor, By Sacrificing A Unwilling/Willing Victim, But Not Every Time The Victim, Especially The Unwilling Ones, Thinks That Is Funny, And Sometimes, Others Don't Think That Is Funny As Well. Sometimes Its After Laughing, That You Find Out Its Not All That Funny. Sometimes You Know It Right Away. Like I Remember Saying It Once, Its Either A Bitter-Sweet Feeling, Or Just Its Awful Taste.

Stereotyping Sucks, Although It Might Be True.

I Dislike The Feeling When You Know That It Is Wrong, But Yet It Is Already Second Nature To You.

Some Of The Results In My Prelims Were Better Than I Expected, But Some Were Utter Failure. Working Harder Now. And Hope It Will Be Good Enough For The O'Levels.

Feelings Just Fades Away For Some After A Long Time, Right My Friend?

I Actually Though You Had Changed, But I Guess Not.
Don't Think Too Much.

Some other day. In the mids of my prelims now. Going tuition later.

It's Been Awhile.
It's Been Too Long. I Don't Think I Can Remember What I Wanted To Type Here.
This Will Be New.
Endless Quotes. We Say It, But Do We Uphold Them?
I See Beauty Everyday.

Obstacles Makes Life Difficult And Is A Real Pain In The Neck, But It's Obstacles Which Makes Life Interesting.

There Is A Limit To Jokes, You Said It Yourself Once, Yet You Don't Know Your Own Limit. Actually, Not Many People Know Their Limits. They Just Go With The Flow.

I'm Seriously Worried About My Social Studies And My History.

Let's Start From Yesterday Shall We? I Can't Really Reflect Back 1 Or 2 Weeks Ago, Other Than Having Phlegm And Cough.

Had tuition yesterday. After tuition went to Disco Pop in school. It's been a long time since we all hanged out together. I really missed those times. Disco Pop was like a stone rolling downhill. The school seriously got to figure out which performances to portray first. Even the cocktail sucked. Campfire last year was so much better. Anyway, today wasn't much fun at all. Went to tuition and came back home.

Can Those Who fall Into Oblivion Rise Back Up In To The Skies?

Sometimes You Follow Your Brain, Sometimes You Follow Your Heart, But When Do You Follow Which?

Rolling Heads.

Basking Me In Confusion. It's Freaking Irritating, But I Guess You Are Enjoying It? Remember, I specifically Said 'Guess'.

I Want Simplicity In My Mind, But Sometimes The Truth Prevents You To Do That, Or What You Think Is The Truth. Complexity And Assumptions. Walking On A Straight Line Is So Much Easier That Walking In A Circle: It's So Much More Relaxing, Simple And Less Worrying. While Walking In Circles Is More Energy-Consuming And Difficult, There Is A Chance You May Find Something 'Interesting', A Chance That What You Assumed Maybe Fact, A Chance You May Get Out Of That Infinite Loop, And A Chance That What You Assumed And Thought Is For Naught. They All Are Chances, And Thinking So Risk Many Things. But One Thing Is For Sure: It Will Lead You Down A Road Of Endless Assumptions.

Pride And Embarrassment Sucks. It Prevents You From Getting Straight Answers.

It's Blogging, Not Me.

If I Need To Say Sorry, I Will, But I Won't Know Till It Is Told.

Nothing much, I thought something will be a thing of the past, but from the looks of it, I'm not really sure now... I hate the eyes. Staying over at Guo Sheng's house tomorrow, trying to get some work done.

I Just Love Capitallizing Words, It Makes Me Feel That It Is Important.

A Prolonged Vendetta Has Finally Ended, I Presume. The State Which Was Once Festive And Gay Is Presumed To Be Resurrected Once Again. Yet, Assumptions Were Concocted, With A Strong Intoxicating Stench Of Pride, And Was Lacking Both The Discretion To Choose And The Essence Of The Heart And Soul. These Assumptions Were Purely Poison, And Under The Wrong Intentions, Might Prove To Be Lethal. Nothing But The Mind Is Able To Destroy This Toxic Pollutant, Therefore It Is Kept Out Of Harm's Way.

Paradoxcially, This Is The Poison.

The Power Of Seduction Is Extremely Difficult To Match. Many Fall Pray To It's Sly, Cunning Moves, But Only Some Have The Power To Overcome It And Surpass Its Power.

Another Paradox? Maybe.

Something I Learn Today. Something To Do When You Are Bored:

1. Do Tai-Chi With A Bunch Of Friends
2. Comment On How Gay(But Superb) A Guy Dancer Is
3. Watch Performing Arts
4. Comment On The Show You Are Watching
5. Comment On Tributes With Pictures That Looks Like It Has Been Picked Out Of The Obituaries
6. Doing Work In Group Of Threes, While We Take Turns In Exchanging The Job Of Playing The PSP And Doing Work
7. Find Friends When You Are Desperate To Go Out
8. Eat With Your Friends
9. Suggest Random Things To Do When You Are With Your Friends Eg. Gallivanting
10. Visit Your Friend's House

Happy Teachers Day To All The Teachers Out There!

Long Time Since I Blogged, And This Time I Was Not Lazy, I Was Studying.

Did The Lynx Tell Me The Truth, That One Day It Will Time Will Revert Back To The Way It Seemed? Or Was It Just A Lie?

Is Awhile Forever?

We Sometimes Fight To End The Fighting. We Sometimes Fight To Find The Truth. What Is Your Purpose To Fight?

Time Is Scarce.

"Love and electricity are one in the same. If you do not feel the jolt in your soul every time a kiss is shared, a whisper is spoken, a touch is felt, then you are not really in love at all."—C.J. Franks

Strength Comes From Within, But It's Weakness Which Taints That Ability To Be Strong, And That Weakness Is Also Found Within.

When Find The Truth, And Sometimes It Is Not What You Expected, Are You Willing To Accept It?

Jealously Weakens The Mind And Soul Of A Person. Never Be Grasp By It.

It has been about one week since I have blogged. Had lunch with many, few people. And Bought WZ his birthday gift. Doing worksheets here and there, playing a some games as well. Blah, its been boring. Prelims are coming soon.

Fate. The Difficulty Of Changing It Is At The Highest Peaks Of The Highest Mountain, And Many Times I Failed To Reach The Summit, Not Even Once, To Place My Flag Upright With Pride. Yet, It Never Stops Me From Trying.

Emotions Raced Through The Class More Than Expected.

Those Are One Of The Emotions You Shouldn't Try To Control. It Shows Weakness.

What You Believe, Just Follow It.

Doing Your All Isn't Doing Your All If Don't Use Max Out Your Chances Till You Reach Your Goal. After Using Up All Your Chances, Then You Can Say You Did Your All. There Are No Losers, Just Winners. Those Who Achieved It And Believe It, Wins. Those Who Believe It And Try Again, Also Win. Those Who Don't Believe And Try, Lose. So? Do You Believe You Tried Your Best? Or Do You Want Uphold That Last Chance? No Losers, Just Winners.

Well, O'Level Chinese results came out and I got a C6. I'm fine with that because by passing it, I'm sure to go in to J.C. But since my mum wants me to retake, retake. No harm trying, I already certain I can go into J.C. Soccer was boring today, but at least I had some exercise.

The Milk Carton Fell Off. Buy Again? Or Drink Whats Left Of It? Choice.

Maybe I Should Stop Being Lazy And Start To Blog.

An Award Is Given, Not Asked For.

I Feel That There Is A Mockingbrid, No, Few Mockingbirds Circling Around Me. These Scavengers Are Just Waiting For Me To Reveal My Weak Spot, Swoop Down And Snag A Piece Of My Flesh. The Worst Part Is, The Weak Spot Is Difficult To Hide, And I Just Don't Bother To Hide It. I'm Just Too Lazy To Conceal It.

Is Mocking Seriously A Bitter-Sweet Thing? Or Just That Pure Sulfurous, Acrid, Unpleasant Taste That We Sometimes Feel At The Back Of The Tongue?

Next Time, Ask Instead Of Arguing.

Sometimes, It Seems That I Don't Implement The Phrases I Typed/Said On Myself.

I Don't Want To Argue On Unintellegent/Non-Useful Matters.

Is Either My Internet Browser Is Screwed, Or Something Is Wrong With Facebook And Blogger.

Laziness has gotten the better of me, but I'm going back on my feet once again, although majority of the time is still not on revision. So I haven't been blogging lately, because not much has happened since my last post. It's all just school, homework, slacking, computer, my PSP, more slacking, and sleeping. Maybe if I used my Noggin more, I would be faster and smarter, but the excuse for this is... Wait for it... Laziness. Hopefully(I still have to hope), that I will come out of that shell of mine and start flying, with or without wings. Well, just had my oral yesterday, I'm confident that it won't be as bad as my other Orals, but after overlooking what has had happened, I don't really feel that confident about it. Well, what's done is done. No need to weep about it. Well, the O'Level Chinese results are coming out tomorrow. I feeling nervous and yet, at the same time, not really caring much about it. Anyway, if I have to take a Re-test, then so be it. I'm already prepared for it. Well, if I don't need a Re-test, then happiness.

Can You Get That Mockingbird By Eminem, No, These Few Mockingbirds Of My Backs Please?

It Feels Like It Has Been A Long Time Since I Blogged.

Time Moves Slow When You Think Ahead, But Feels Fast When You Think Back.

Salute To The Red And White Flag. No, I'm Not Talking About Indonesia.

Emotions Hinder Us From Accepting The Truth.
Without It, We Can Face Anything, Know Everything.
Our Mind Will Be Clear And Will Be Able To Think Straight.
Yet Without It, We Can Lose Everything.
Nothing Will Be Great Anymore, Nothing Will Be Spectacular.
All Will Be The Same.

Can Emotions Be Controlled? It's All Up To The Person.
Control So As To Accept The Truth, But Not To Hurt One's Soul.
It Depend How You Do It.

Singapore is one year older now, and I just went for a facial. Anything else?

I Still Don't Have The Urge To Do My Work Yet...

Sometimes I Like Being Dead Centre, Sometimes It's Just A Pain In The Gluteus Maximus.

We Still Have P.O.P Left.

Mockery, Is It Really That Fun Or Funny?

Like My Friend Said, 'Four Years Pass So Fast'. All That Is Left Are The Memories We Keep For That 4 Years. Hopefully, The Rest Of The Year Will Give Me More Good Memories To Keep.

I Still Want To Have My Superpowers.

Imagination Just Runs Wild In Me. My Dreams Cannot Be Any Weirder.

My Blog Is Not Emo... How Many Times Must I Tell You That?

Life After Death? What Do People Think When This Phrase Is Heard?

It's A Small World, And A Smaller Island. Many Familiar Faces. Too Many.

Went to school in my NCC uniform today. Unsure where to meet, I made a few calls. Went to the NCC room for awhile. Went back to class after that to play. Loitered around the school with Nigel, GS and Corey, since we were allowed to either join our class in the Indoor Sports Hall to watch a stupid dance, go to the hall and watch another stupid dance, or watch the parade with no match pass. Well, Corey and GS did not want to stay for the parade to end, so they wondered around, while I stayed to watch the parade, until Ng Tiong Nam started reading the national day speech, and well... He took a longer time to read the speech as compared to Mr Chia, so I got bored and decided to wonder around. Nigel and me started walking around, but then we had to do what SK warriors had to do, because a teacher spotted us and she needed help. When to the hall to carry the things down. met up with GS and Corey. Then after doing our SK duty, we went to the ISH to see some dance. Soon we went back to class to fold stars.

~*Fast Forward*~

Went to watch G.I Joe, The Rise Of The Cobra. Not a bad show actually. Had dinner outside. Went to cut my hair and went home.

Somethings People Do Are Just Plain Stupid, But It Funny, And That Is What It Was All About Today.

Why Do People Think The Simple Things In Circles And Zigzags? Must They Make The Simple So Complex? Just Think In A Straight Line, And Everything Would Be So Much Better.

I'm Deprive Of My Music After My MP4 Got Lost.

Some Facebook Quizzes Are Totally Bullshit.

I thought it would be great to go back to school, but it isn't the same anymore, and I feel very bored in class as well. It feels quieter now to me. Too much worksheets to do in school I guess. I think it's getting to my head, or maybe it's just me. Maybe what Mrs Lai said was right.

Weird, even around my friends. Well, what can I do? I need to figure out my choices.

It's Going... Going... Going... Damn, It Stop And Is Stuck There.

Things have been done, well some have not. Now its my friend's turn to get sick, so I'm not sure about the outcome on the weekends. Anyway get well soon. Nothing interesting, really boring actually. It's finally coming to an end.

4 more days.

Not Everyone Believes,
Not Everyone Understands.
Not Everyone Listens,
Not Everyone Speaks.
Not Everyone Runs,
Not Everyone Fights.
Try To Change One,
Its Difficult As It Seems.
Try To Change Everyone,
Its Quite Impossible.
But Nothing Is Impossible,
Thats What I Believe,
But Not What Others Believe.
What You Believe Is Right,
Is Not What Others Believe It Is.

Change, I Want Someone To Change, But Its Difficult.

Well, what's there to say? Work? I did some. Watching heroes the whole day.

Why Don't You Believe In Justice?

All Things Wither,
Rot,
Turns To Dust,
Come To A Halt.
Nothing Last Forever.
There Will Always Be An 'End' When There Is A 'Start'.
The Question Is How Long?
Something That Last Forever Means That Something Has Attained Perfection.
Remember About Having A World Without Hate?
Without It,
Love Cannot Function.
And When Love Cannot Function,
A Chain Of Misfortunes Takes Place.
Without Hate,
The World Will Have Attain Perfection.
But At A Cost Of The Destruction Of The Human Race.
Without Hate,
There Is No Balance With Love.
Too Much Love And It Malfunctions.
And Without Love,
There Is No Joy,
No Happiness,
No Sadness,
Nothing.
There Has To Be Hate For There To Be Love.
There Has To Be Yin For There To Be Yang.
You Can Avoid Hatred,
But It Will Come Back To Bite You.
And It May Not Be Yourself Biting,
But Someone Else.

Feelings Are Inter-Connected, If One Goes Down, So Does Most Of Them.

We Are The Cause And Thus We Make An Effect. And It's Our Thoughts That Are Causing Us To Make The Effect. We Do Foolish Things For Our Selfless Needs And Seldom For Others. If We Know We Are Going To Die, We Try To Flight Or Fight For Survival, Which Any Human Would Do. But If Your Friend Is In Danger, And You Protect Him Or Her Even If You Know You Will Have To Risk Your Life Doing It, That Is A Foolish Thing To Do For Others, But Maybe, The Right Thing To Do. I Believe Everyone Have Done Foolish Things For Their Selfless Needs, It's Just Whether Or Not You Are Aware Of It Yet. No Examples, You All Should Know Yourselves Well Enough.

That Day, I Felt Like Arguing Back. I Know It's Wrong, But Do Oneself Know What Wrong It Has Done? Correction, From There You Change. I've Corrected, Did Oneself? I Could Have Won In An Argument, There Were Many Loopholes And Openings, And I Really Wanted To Do Something Cause It Was A Stupidly Weak Attack. But I Give In. In Some Arguments, You Have To Learn To Agree With The Things You Disagree With. Sometimes It's Best To Know How Losing Feels Like, To Learn To Lose. Winners Never Always Win, There Will Always Be Someone Better, And There Will Always Be Someone Better Than That Someone Better.

At least I did some work today.

I Just Want To Be A Hero.

It's Generation After Generation By Simple Plan Of Endless Emotions.

I Feel So Useless At Home. Any Ideas People?

At Least Time 'Fast-Forward' Today. Tomorrow Is Monday. Time To Starting Doing My Homework. Been Trying To Watch Heroes Season 3, But Just Can't Seem To Find The Right Link. Bah.

I Wish I Had Superpowers, So I Can Become A Hero By Nickelback

Finally It's Time To Sleep By My Chemical Romance After Such A Boring Day

The Only Thing That Pains Me Is That I'm The One Who Cause My Classmates So Much Trouble.
And The Pain From Forcing My Phlegm Out Of My Throat. I Teared Trying To Force It Out.

Fuck, I Missed My Grandma's Birthday Celebration Today. Now I'm At Home Alone With My Maid.

BORING!

I seriously think this is torture. Locked at home, for 8 days, mostly confined in my own room. Maybe I deserve it? For all the bad things I've done? Maybe its a vacation? To relax? Maybe its due to the eclipse? since it was a ominous sign? Maybe. Everything is a maybe, but I really think I deserve it for all the bad things I've done, if I can remember any. I just know that the technique of using boredom as a form of torture works on me, and I can't do no shit about it.

Being locked up in my room is so boring.

I Want To Ask, If My Doctor Just Called Me To Collect A M.C. At His Clinic, And The M.C. Reads:

This is to certify that:
TAN YONG LIANG GLEN

Is unfit for school for 8 day/s from 25 JUL 2009 to 1 AUG 2009
REMARK:H1N1 2009 (its underlined red)


What Does It Mean????

GOOD GAME

Seriously, everything happen at the wrong time. Today, time was really hay-wired for me. It was really the worst possible thing to happen at this time. Everything. Biology SPA, after school activities, tuition cancelled, went to Compass Point, and now after doing that, I hear that and after seeing that I don't want that, Blah, blah, blah. But I'm still doing it.

I Think I'm Going Crazy By Simple Plan, I Really Need To Get Some Sleep.

*Stopped*

Yup, I have no social responsbility. I just went out to Clarke Quay to buy some stuff, but because my temperature was reading 36.9 Degrees Celsius. I thought it was Marina Bay, so I took a MRT down there. She was sleepy, so I heard 'Clarke Quay' as 'Marina'. Then took the MRT to Clarke Quay. I stupidly, went to buy the wrong thing. I wanted to change it, but they say no refund. Anyway I thought of something else to do with it, so I decided to keep it. Tomorrow I'm going Compass Point tomorrow I guess. Well, when I reached home, I took my temperature and guess what? 37.8 Degrees Celsius. What The *Bleep*.

Seriously, whatever is inside me, stop fooling around, I'm not happy with what you are doing.
I'm getting blamed in class even without my presence there. I should have went home yesterday.
Why did Mrs Bu had to show mine, out of 44 people in class, my Chemistry Practical to the class? Worst still, she photocopied it to everyone in class.
I think my sorries are of no use because I away say 'sorry', even if it is sincere.
I'm not feeling a bit happy of what I have done. Guilt and confusion is what I'm feeling now. Or is it the headache that is causing the confusion?
One word, 'Damn'.

Whoever who thinks 'What would the world be without me?', it would be better, because there is one less person is using resources. What if it was Albert Einstein wasn't around? No E=MC²? No nuclear bombs. Anyway, even with out him, sooner or later someone is going to find out E=MC² as well, or maybe not. Who Knows? No one can foresee the future in the past if changed.

I Feel Like Shouting Hallelujah By Paramore, But Guilt Is Stopping Me From Doing It.

I took my temperature and it read 37.7 Degree Celcius.
I took it again and it read 38.2 Degree Celcius.

Damn.

I had a fever yesterday, but refused to go home, because I had Listening Comprehension for Chinese O'levels that day. My highest temperature? 38.2 Degrees Celsius. Bloody high right? Weirdly, I felt normal yesterday. I did not feel sleepy(except during Mathematics class), my muscles did not feel weak, and my attitude was normal. Went home to use the computer. Went to sleep after that. Then had dinner and slept again. Woke up today at 6am. Took my temperature, and it was 36.8 Degrees Celsius. I still felt warm, but no fever. Yet, my body felt extremely tired and my muscles felt like jelly, and there was a piercing pain, much worst than before, in my throat. My mum told me not to go to school today. I was happy and sad at the same time. Happy as in I get to skip school, and complete the homework which should have been done yesterday. Sad as in I get to skip school, and miss out on all the fun with my friends. But I guess someone is having a good time without my presence there, since Guo Sheng should be sitting at my seat. Anyway, after sleeping again and waking up at 9.30am, I started sneezing, but still no fever. At breakfast and took some medication, then watched some TV.

If It Was Swine Flu, The Whole School Would Be Quarantine.

I'm Immune To This Disease By Matchbox 20, I Won't Die That Easily

Is There Such Thing As A World Without Hate? If There Is, Tell Me It's Location. If There Is Not, Tell Me What Would It Be Like? How Would A World Without Hate Look Like? Feel Like? Be Like?

The New South Wales English Comprehension was a joke. The last few passages were all random answers. I should have started the paper without filling in my particulars, total waste of time. And Nigel said this was my first time. I did plenty of this before, just at the same speed: Slow. Anyway, my History And Social Studies is improving. Even if Mr Tan is trying to kill us, I'm learning to improve my speed only in Humanities, and understanding the topic of course.

Indirect personal attacks will not work on me. I don't know why, but ignoring and avoiding you doesn't seem to help, even if you say it will, but I respect what you say and carry out that instruction. Still, I see no results. Getting rid of me? Maybe, but who knows? I can't read minds that's for sure.

When The Battle Between Darkness And Light Collide

I will see if it is Time To Say Goodbye By Simple Plan 5 days later.

It Has Been A Long Week. It Seems Nothing Has Changed.

A lot has happened. Yet it has been a week, so I hardly remember. I do remember spending a large amount of time at shopping centres, malls and plazas, and watching Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince twice. Surprisingly, it seems to be better when I watched it the second time. Maybe the sound system sucks at Cathay compared to Golden Village. Anyway, if I hardly remember them, it should be of no importance.

Everyone has been a Victim Of Love By Good Charlotte

We Are Just Plain Childish. We Are Young, Innocent, Stupid.

Agree with the above statement. You might say you have a sense of maturity, but some of the things you do are just plain stupid and childish. Try looking back after 15 years of your life. Notice the things you are doing now then. It is utter stupidity. Hating your friends for petty things they did, quarreling over things that broke up your friendship, revenge over bullshit events, even your dressing can be a joke if you think back. Energy and trouble could have been saved and avoided if 'forgive' and 'let go' is in their vocabulary. You might tell me 'You don't understand' or 'You are not in my shoes' ETC.
Seriously, not only you are hiding yourself from the truth which you have to face sooner or later, you also are torturing yourself by living in the past, not forgiving, not letting it move on. You still might say 'It's Difficult, And You Don't Understand', but the truth is you are making it difficult for yourself and not seeking for help. It's a difficulty if you always look at it the difficult way, but is simplicity when you look at it the easy way.
You don't let people understand, so the people won't know, but hiding in the pot hole of yours thinking that enough is enough, is not. If you think if difficult, seek for help, for advice, and don't be embarrass about it, because you are helping yourself, and literally, you will feel much better after that.
All this stupid things you do, when you think back, notice what a waste of time it was to do all these nonsensical HUHAs of yours. You could have actually had a good friend back then, but spoil it with one stupid fight. Believe me, it is not worth it.

Yet, who would listen to a teen typing this out? Not saying I'm mature or anything, just that this kind of things don't really comes from the thoughts of a teenager and... well... look at it 15 years from now and see what I mean.

Young And Hopeless By Good Charlotte Portrays Most People Out There

I Want It Back The Way Before. Atmosphere Is Tense, To You That Is.
The Will To Change, To Forgive And Let Go Is From Inside.
I Have Been Through This, And I Have Learned From My Previous Mistakes.
But Not Every One Is Similar, And I Should Have Known That Better.

May Lie Till There Is No Tomorrow
But Are Already Lying To Oneself That There Is No Tomorrow
And When The Day Comes To Face Facts
Lies Can't Save You Anymore
Just Go Down With It.

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word By Elton John Does Not Relate To Me As It Does To You.

I Might Have Just Received The Biggest Scam Of My Life, If What They Said Was True.

Well, It Didn't Last Long.

Thanks For Enlightening Me. It Helped Me Lift My Spirits Up.

No Comment.

Smile By Nat King Cole Is Just What The Doctor Ordered.

Truth Hurts, But I Prefer To Go Through The Bush Than Walk Around It.

Wanting A Better Place, A Good Environment. No Tension, No Stress. Saying It Out Loud Won't Help, You Have To Find A Way To Get What You Want. What If The More You Do, The Worst It Gets? It's A Helpless Situation, Where You Want A Change, But You, Yourself, Can't Make It Happen, Or Even Worse, Make It Worst.

It Feels Like My Hair Is Always Standing.

Forgive, Forget, Forever. Let Go, Give In, All The Best. I Can't Do It At Times.

I Feel Stupid.

Seconds, turns to minutes, turn to hours, turn to days, turns to months, turns to years. It seems that this year, time has been moving so fast, too fast. When you want it to slow down, it doesn't, instead it speeds up. When You want it to slow down, it in turn speeds up. Why? Can anyone tell me why? Tomorrow is another day of school, and it covers every single subject. When there is a start, there is a end, but are there times where you do not want to see the end? Have you wished it could continue forever? I have, but they are just fantasies.

In A Dream, You Can Feel That It Actually Happened, Like It Is Forever, But When You Wake Up, You Wondered What Happen, And Noticed That It Was All Just A Dream. It's A Fantasy, But The Feeling You Have In A Dream Is As Close As The Real Thing, And It Seem It Will Never End.

I Can Wait Forever By Simple Plan Makes Me Feel Like Crying.

I was looking forward today, but it only portray utter disappointment.
I don't like that feeling. My friend doesn't as well. Feeling dead-centre.

Want to know something funny? At 6am in the morning, I heard my mum shouting out 'meow meow come here'. I thought she was trying to save an insect or something and let it go. Surprisingly, I heard a 'meow'. I woke up and saw a cat at my door. It stared and me, I stared at it. He meow at me, I meow at it. Then I picked him up and released it outside my house. went to wash my hands, and went back to bed. Next morning, my maid told me it went to the neighbours house.

Dreams are just awesome. You really feel like you are there.

1st week of school is over. A few fun and disappointing events, but I'm lazy to go into details. Later going for Arts Fiesta.

Is It?

Hi, seems this will be last post for the holidays. You know? The holidays were extremely memorable. It was so much more than what I asked or thought of. It not only gave me memories, it also reminded me of the great times I had in the past. Let me summarize:

1 O'Level Examination
A Meet The Parents Session
1 SS and English Mock Test
A few pack of playing cards
2 Chalets
Nearly A 100 Stamps
A few Dozen MacDonald's Meals
Some KFC
Few Subways
Kopitiam
Endless Hours Of Dota
Mathematics, Chemistry, Biology, Physics Tuition And Lessons
E-Hub Twice
1 Wild Wild Wet
1/2 a dozen capsized floats
A BBQ
Few Outings
Naruto-ed twice
Badminton trice
Mapled A Day
Rock Band Owns
Visits To My House
4 Movies
10 Great Friends
My Cousins And I
Endless Memories

That Sums Up The Holidays. Tomorrow, the hunt is back to kill us.

Music Of The Month:

Mr. Brightside By The Killers
The Middle By Jimmy Eats World
The Young And Hopeless By Good Charlotte
Love Story By Taylor Swift
Play My Music By Jonas Brothers
Dead And Gone By T.I Featuring Justin Timberlake
Teenagers By My Chemical Romance
The Truth By Good Charlotte
The World Is Black By Good Charlotte
We Believe By Good Charlotte
Just Dance By Lady Gaga Featuring Colby Odonis
Poker Face By Lady Gaga
That's What You Get By Paramore
Gone So Young By Amber Pacific
Talk You Down By The Script
Emergency By Paramore
I'm Yours By Jason Marz
Skyway Avenue By The Kings
Check Yes Juliet By We The Kings
Gives You Hell By The All-American Rejects
The Kill By 30 Seconds To Mars
From Yesterday By 30 Seconds From Mars
My Life Would Suck Without You By Kelly Clarkson
I Do Not Hook Up Kelly Clarkson
La La Land By Demi Lovato
Don't Forget By Demi Lovato
Leavin' By Jesse McCartney
I Don't Care By Fall Out Boy
America's Suitehearts By Fall Out Boy
Pavlove By Fall Out Boy
Ocean Avenue By Yellowcard
Only Once Yellowcard
When I'm Gone By Simple Plan
Take My Hand By Simple Plan
The End By Simple Plan
Your Love Is A Lie By Simple Plan
Save You By Simple Plan
Generation By Simple Plan
Time To Say Goodbye By Simple Plan
I Can Wait Forever By Simple Plan
Holding On By Simple Plan
No Love By Simple Plan
What If By Simple Plan
Running Out Of Time By Simple Plan

A Great June...

If I looked at it scientifically, I should have taken the opportunity a long time ago, and shouldn't have worried so much, but better safe than sorry at that time. Sadly now, the scent is gone. Why did it have to go away. Still, I believe that scent will come back, eventually.

Well, yesterday was packed. Today, nothing much other than tuition. So what happened the day before today? badminton at 7 in the morning. Crazy right? played 1 on 1 with GS, and it was extremely rigorous. We were fatigue after 1 hour of non-stop playing. After some rest, we played pairs this time. Lena and me(warm up, faired badly), then GS and me(pawned here) and then Feng Zhu and me(cool-down). After that, went for tuition. Had lunch with Brandon and Kane, met with Shermin after lunch. After tuition, went to GS house for a bath. Chatted with Ben online for a short while. Rush down to catch a bus, almost took a taxi instead. met Nigel, Corey and Jeremy there. Went to buy our snacks and went inside the movie theater. Transformers 2 was great, Megan Fox was hot and I love Bumblebee. Optimums Prime is to overrated. Still having doubts that Megan Fox is a guy. Can anyone help me check if she has an Adam's Apple? Anyway, took a bus to Hougang Mall with GS. Then went home.

There comes a time where everyone sees the light. That beautiful land in the sky above. It might be destine to happen this way at that time. Nevertheless, he was the Best Of The Best, The Living Legacy and The King Of Pop. R.I.P Michael Jackson 1958-2009.

Tomorrow's the last day of the holidays. Blogging My Last Post For The Holidays Tomorrow.