I'm worried, always worried. Worried about myself, about how I can't get this or archive this. I believe I can, but worried I will screw up. I'm always on the tip of the mountain, not know whether to go down from the left or the right. I say I can, but afraid I do something wrong in between.
I'm worried about my friends. I'm worried they will follow the wrong path. I'm worried that they don't know what to do when they have problems. Sometimes I try to give support and help. I sometimes think they don't bother what I say, thinking that I'm a nuisance. I want to know if I'm irritating them, and sometimes it's is a white lie saying that I'm not. I'm afraid one day, they will just get angry and irritated of my 'advice and support' and will just shout, ignore or hate me for being irritating.
I'm worried that others picture me as an irritant. I want to help, but I don't know when to. Knowing their character is important in order to help them in a specific way, but when I say this, I feel like I don't know any one's character, because I always do the same process when I try to help. I'm afraid I'm invading their personal space, unless they are willing to open it to me. I sometimes think they don't want me to help them, but allow me to write gibberish on their wall for the sake of my feelings.
But my biggest worry is losing a friend. I'm I thinking to much? Or do others feel the same way as well?

Have you ever wish that your life could be like a TV series? A movie? Being the hero? Destroying the villain? Having a happily ever after? Having the girl/guy of your dreams? I do. Sadly, the possibility of your life being the same as a drama is 1 out of a million. There are rare cases where you see a 'Romeo And Juliet' scenario in real life, or a 'Zero To Hero' plot. We all wish that in the end, we get that happily ever after with the one we love, or being the hero/heroine in the end, but this is reality, dramas and movies just for the pleasure of the eyes. Life is never the way you want it to be, unless yourself pursue that way. Maybe a comedy is possible, but the rest is a possibility close to zero. You decide, you think, you choose how your movie is going to be like.

School has just started, and I'm not liking the extended time due to USSR. Mathematics teacher has been sick for two days. Had practical for Physics and Chemistry today. NCC today as well.

I Have 3 Options:
-Get Slapped On Both Cheeks Now
-Wait To Get Slapped On Both Cheeks
-Get One Cheek Slapped First, Then Later Get The Other Slapped