Usually when I blog about multiple days, I don't really type this paragraph out.

Friday:
Usual day, Shermin was back from MC. She wasn't done with the Chinese, so I lent her the assessment book for another day. While walking to the parade square, I felt that my load got lighter. Figured out that my Biology and Chemistry Textbooks were left somewhere. Crap. Figured that either I left it at the bus stop, on the 74 bus to Hougang Interchange, or on the 72 bus to Yio Chu Kang Interchange. Called my mum to help me check. Continued school as per normal. Skipped Chinese remedial(not sure if I'm involved) because was not informed of it. GS and Nigel went to my house to do the usual stuff. Had tuition at 7PM.

Saturday:
Morning what did I do? Oh right. Mum told me that she called up Yio Chu Kang Interchange, and the people said that my books were there. So after browsing the web, went there to collect my books. I was a bit dumb to ask the MRT Passenger Service Counter about my missing books. Anyway found them and went for tuition. Boring usual Saturday.

Sunday:
Went for tuition at Mavis. Had lunch with Shermin, Brandon and Eddy at KFC. Brandon and Eddy left. Shermin and me went for Biology tuition. Went to Hougang Mall to meet my parents. Headed to a Chinese doctor because I have been coughing phlegm every morning and night. Went Compass Point to get me new shoes, and a water bottle. Then went to Metro to shop for my mum's dress. I was there for awhile, and then headed to the figurines section. Is anyone willing to split $129 for GS birthday present? Or must I do it myself? Had dessert at the kopitiam. Dad brought mum to grandma's place, while he brought me to AMK Hub to meet Ryan, KC and Zhe Long. Had dinner and wondered around for awhile. Went home and sat down for 5 odd minutes. Headed to the gym. Back her blogging.

Tenjho Tenge Is Addictive. Look It Up On Wikipedia To Know More.

Tired Tomorrow.

Thanks to my mum, the only think I worry about now is being worried myself. Love you mum.
Even I have to swim before I can save a drowning life, if not, we both will be swimming with the fishes.
Even if I worry about my friends, me, myself and I have to be rid of the major problems before helping the allied powers.
Life is fair if you do not compare. If you do compare, life isn't fair, SO WHAT?
Problems? They are just mere challenges to help keep you learning.
Boy-Girl Reationships? 10% of them are lasting relationships before 17, or was it 18? Maybe after O'Levels? But did my mum say 21?
I love the words 'SO WHAT?', and 'DUDE', and 'QWERZ'.
I need to stop stammering.
Thinking, drawing, imagining, talking and all the other -ings are a good way to either waste time or spend time, your choice.
Getting slapped? Here's the option 4 for me: Don't get slap now and later on.

Hello! I'm here to talk about the day. Only thing interesting about today? 8 free periods today(including 1 Chinese and 1 CME).

Should I exceed my maximum carrying limit, and do so much more, surpassing myself?
*WARNING*-THERE WILL BE A POSSIBLITY OF INCREASED STRESS, MENTAL BREAKDOWN AND FEELING VERY HOPLESS-
Do you want to accept the challenge?
Y or N?
(Y)
No regerts?
Y or N?
(Y)
And you can't back out. Still want to continue?
Y or N?
(Y)

You will suffer hell tommorow. Have a good nap.

Today's Choice Of Song: Remember The Name By Fort Minor

It's Just A Challenge, Not A Problem. Take It Positive And It Will Be Fine, I Hope...

I'm worried, always worried. Worried about myself, about how I can't get this or archive this. I believe I can, but worried I will screw up. I'm always on the tip of the mountain, not know whether to go down from the left or the right. I say I can, but afraid I do something wrong in between.
I'm worried about my friends. I'm worried they will follow the wrong path. I'm worried that they don't know what to do when they have problems. Sometimes I try to give support and help. I sometimes think they don't bother what I say, thinking that I'm a nuisance. I want to know if I'm irritating them, and sometimes it's is a white lie saying that I'm not. I'm afraid one day, they will just get angry and irritated of my 'advice and support' and will just shout, ignore or hate me for being irritating.
I'm worried that others picture me as an irritant. I want to help, but I don't know when to. Knowing their character is important in order to help them in a specific way, but when I say this, I feel like I don't know any one's character, because I always do the same process when I try to help. I'm afraid I'm invading their personal space, unless they are willing to open it to me. I sometimes think they don't want me to help them, but allow me to write gibberish on their wall for the sake of my feelings.
But my biggest worry is losing a friend. I'm I thinking to much? Or do others feel the same way as well?

Have you ever wish that your life could be like a TV series? A movie? Being the hero? Destroying the villain? Having a happily ever after? Having the girl/guy of your dreams? I do. Sadly, the possibility of your life being the same as a drama is 1 out of a million. There are rare cases where you see a 'Romeo And Juliet' scenario in real life, or a 'Zero To Hero' plot. We all wish that in the end, we get that happily ever after with the one we love, or being the hero/heroine in the end, but this is reality, dramas and movies just for the pleasure of the eyes. Life is never the way you want it to be, unless yourself pursue that way. Maybe a comedy is possible, but the rest is a possibility close to zero. You decide, you think, you choose how your movie is going to be like.

School has just started, and I'm not liking the extended time due to USSR. Mathematics teacher has been sick for two days. Had practical for Physics and Chemistry today. NCC today as well.

I Have 3 Options:
-Get Slapped On Both Cheeks Now
-Wait To Get Slapped On Both Cheeks
-Get One Cheek Slapped First, Then Later Get The Other Slapped

Well I have not been posting my thoughts out lately, reasons for this:
1) I'm LAZY
2) I'm BUSY
3) I'm TIRED
4) I'm Too FOCUS on OTHERS stuff
5) Cant EXPRESS My Thoughts In WORDS

Anyway, inspiration will come, and time has to be planned properly.

Today's summary?
Went to School to search for Kok Wee's glasses in the field with Sin Lee, Marjorie and Javen. Found in less then 2-3minutes? Tricked WZ into finding it since he arrived late. Slacked in the room for awhile and went to Kovan for bowling. Javen left before that, and Marjorie rode to Kovan on WZ bike. Played one match and at lunch there, and went off to tuition.
Thats about sums it up.

From Yesterday:

Me And The Birthday Cake(Had no lighter, so I blew out an imaginary flame).



The Cutting Of Cake.



Cutting The Last Of The Cake Into Six Equal Pieces.



Me Savaging The Last Few Bits



My Buddies!

Today's Choice Of Song: Have A Nice Day By Bon Jovi

I Spam Friends On Facebook Legally Without Being Caught

Today was not what I had in mind, but still, it was a great and memorial day. Well What did I do and get on this occasion? Well, I downloaded 3 PSP games, had Chemistry lessons, my classmates and my form teacher wished me a happy birthday, received a present from Shermin, had lunch with my best friends(GS, JL, Nigel, Jeremy and Corey), fully paid lunched by JL, Nigel paid for me my bubble tea, went to LAN to spend the day together, GS paid for me my LAN fee, Counter Strike and L4D for the win! Cut my birthday cake in a kopitiam. Ate cake, took pictures(upload tomorrow), went home, bought a doughnut on my way home. Mummy wished me a happy birthday, had tuition, got $50 dollars form dad.

well that sums up my birthday. Seeing from all the birthdays I had and remembered, this one was the best 16 birthday I had. I love you all!

Well there are many thing i can say about birthdays like:
-It is a day closer to your death
-It is a day closer to success
-It is a day closer to maturity
-It is a day where you have fun
-It is a day closer to driving a car
-It is a day where you get more wrinkles
-It is a day closer to your goal
-It is a day where there is usually cake
-It is a day where we make a wish
-It is a day where you hear people say 'Happy Birthday' to you

But overall, it is just an ordinary, yet special day when you were born on.

Hope everyone out there has birthdays as memorable as mine, or better!

Today's Choice Of Song: Happy Birthday To You

It's A Bitter-Sweet Feeling, Being Numb Is One

Things That We Know Can Benefit Us Or Harm Us.
But Do We Know When It Will Do Either One?

I has been the 3rd day of the holidays. I know many and ponder of the many... Well lets start on Monday shall we? A Quick recap.

Monday:
- Met JL, GS, Jeremy, Marcus Tan, Marcus Chan, Benedict and Xiang Jing at the badminton courts at Hougang Stadium.
- GS headed home to change, while Marcus Chan, Benedict and Xiang Jing left.
- Took a bus too Hougang Mall, and then MRT to PS with JL, GS, Jeremy and Marcus Tan.
- Bought tickets for the movie and went to Swensens for lunch.
- total time at Swensens: 3hours for lunch and dessert to arrive.
- We waited so long, we had to change time for the movie that we watched.
- Played L4D at PCBunk. Such A Scam.
- Watched 'Race To Witch Mountain'. Cliche storyline, not much of the 'WOW' factor, not worth of money, some laughs here and there.
- Headed home with GS in the MRT.
-Reached home for dinner and to prepare for Part'As Training Camp. Uncle fetched me too school.
- Went to school and Kok Wee was there, waiting for Caleb to have dinner together.
- Opened the NCC room and rotted there.
- Everyone came back and talked about tomorrow's camp.
- Slacked in the room with everyone.
- Did not sleep yet.
Monday's Song Choice: Bad Day by Danial Powter


Tuesday:
- Did not sleep yet.
- watched '21' on Ryan's computer.
- Learned how to count cards.
- Slept for 2hours or less under the fan. It was Fucking, Freezing cold.
- Played some card games with Monopoly money.
- Part'As Booked in and had bag check. Unhappy with strength.
- Lessons for the Part'As, Lunch, then IFC.
- Pitching of tent was somewhere in between on of them.
- Games, dinner, games.
- Went to Seletar camp for night walk.
Tueday's Choice Of Song: Thanks For The Memories By Fall Out Boy

Wednesday:
- Did not sleep yet
- Had AAR till 2AM plus, went to bath.
- Slept in tent.
- Woke up and had pumping of punishment.
- Went for lessons and quickly study for test.
- Had Lunch at Hougang Point with Jeremy, Corey and Nigel.
- Headed back and sat outside the Library. Tired and slept.
- Went for Biology, then went back to NCC.
- Rest of the time slacking and AAR.
- Last parade and ate at Macdonald's.
- Extremely tired and slept without eating dinner at home.
Yesterday's Choice Of Song: Blood by My Chemical Romance

Today:
- Had Mathematics lessons at school.
- Then Chemistry. Accurate weighting of Calcium Carbonate in the conical flask, but experiment is predicted.
- Had lunch at Hougang Point.
- Went back to school for Biology.
- Wanted to walk with Nigel, but Corey dragged me away.
- GS told me to find Nigel, so off I went.
- Found Nigel and walked him home to take his stuff.
- went to my house to play Monster Hunter Freedom 2 and see him play DOTA.
- Left my house for dinner, while I had my own dinner.
- Bathed and using the computer.
- Here typing.
Today's Choice Of Song: Untitled By Simple Plan

Well that's theoretically the days I went through from Monday to Tuesday. Now for my last three days till school reopens. Man, times really run by when you are having fun, or at least you think you are.

'Love 101: 101 Ways To Say I Love You'
That's What It Says On My Dad's Newly Bought Album.

'The Weak Can Never Forgive. Forgiveness Is The Attribute Of The Strong'- Mahatma Gandhi
'To Carry A Grudge Is Like Being Stung To Death By One Bee'- William H Walton

Forgiveness in essential in life. It's easier said than done. You may not forget the incident that worsened your relationship, but you have to forgive before letting go. It's near impossible to forgive and forget, but possible to forgive and let go. There is no point holding in a grudge or keeping the hate of someone within. Allowing it to accumulate on oneself, only leads to your demise and destruction. Instead of negativity, chance your mind set to something positive, and use that to spur you on. Yet, the choice is yours.

'Fear Leads To Anger. Anger Leads To Hate. Hate Leads To Suffering.'- Master Yoda

Well, the school holidays had arrived(not much of a holiday at the moment). Stayed back for this small talk on communication. Nothing much, going out tomorrow.

Ello! Time To Wake Up And Smell The Roses!

Consciousness: Knock, Knock.

Myself: Who Is There?

Consciousness: It's me you idiot.

Myself: Oh Hi.

Consciousness: So?

Myself: So what?

Consciousness: So how has your life been?

Myself: Pretty much the same.

Consciousness: That's too brief. Explain more.

Myself: Well... NCC yesterday, homework, thinking everyday blah blah blah.

Consciousness: OK... So any problems lately?

Myself: A whole lot, or that what I think.

Consciousness: Really? So what's bugging you?

Myself: You :)

Consciousness: I don't mean now.

Myself: Well, lets start off with the abundance of things during the holidays.

Consciousness: How much is abundant?

Myself: Reading and studying almost 24/7.

Consciousness: Well the exams are approaching, this is common.

Myself: I wanted to have fun during the school holidays and concentrate in Term 2, yet I have to go back to school to study?

Consciousness: Why after the holidays? Why not now?

Myself: Because after the holidays, revisions starts.

Consciousness: Oh... I see, anything else.

Myself: It pains me seeing friends upset or angry.

Consciousness: I feel the same.

Myself: Cause you are me.

Consciousness: True.

Myself: So how can I help them?

Consciousness: Just talk and listen to them, it's that easy! Or through MSN or something.

Myself: But how would I know they bother what I telling them?

Consciousness: They should, if not, they won't have a situation.

Myself: But what if they think I was saying bullshit?

Consciousness: It's their lost. You give support, whether or not they listen is up to them choose, even if it leads to their downfall.

Myself: And success?

Consciousness: Yup.

Myself: So what can you tell me about relationships?

Consciousness: Well that is for you to figure out yourself.

Myself: You mean together?

Consciousness: Ya, together. You have The Book, learn from it.

Myself: What Book?

Consciousness: You know that blue book?

Myself: Oh, you mean Peter's book.

Consciousness: Yup, you can learn lots from it about life.

Myself: I think I reading it a bit too slow.

Consciousness: It's fine, take your time to understand, plus you have that USSR thing right?

Myself: Russia?

Consciousness: No the reading thing you will be doing every morning. (geezzz, he's really an idiot)

Myself: Dude I heard that.

Consciousness: Heard what?

Myself: You calling me an idiot.

Consciousness: No I did not! (How did he know?)

Myself: I know because whatever you think, I think.

Consciousness: Really? (hello?)

Myself: Hi.

Consciousness: OK you are invading my personal space.

Myself: So are you.

Consciousness: When? When did I ever ready your mind?

Myself: (Now you are. You always were)

Consciousness: Oh, my bad.

Myself: Idiot.

Consciousness: Stop calling yourself an idiot

Myself: I'm calling both of us an idiot, since you're me and I'm you.

Consciousness: OK... We should stop insulting one another.

Myself: agreed

Consciousness: So what now?

Myself: Sleep, duh.

Consciousness: Meet you in a dream?

Myself: If we ever think of any.

Both: Sax.

---End Of Conversation---

Well, usual day, except for change of lessons and USSR.

Today's Choice Of Song: The Man Who Can't Be Moved By The Script

Remember That Rejection Is Part Of Your Everyday Life- Learned From Peter Lau's Autobiography.

Friends. I see them everyday. They are a boulders that build up my life, along with my teachers and family. Friends help get you through the day. They cheer you up, they protect you, they care for you. Yet, we sometimes take them for granted, using them as a tool and discarding them once their blunt. No one likes being the tool. I have seen this almost everyday, but am I thinking the way the user thinks? Or just thinking like any other human would?
I seen my friends quarrel with my other friends, and that makes me feel sad deep inside. Conflicts between one another is never a good thing, but we still see it. Is it out of impulse? Are they just trying to find trouble? Is it because we don't believe in them? Is it because you just want to hold the grudge? Or you just don't know forgiveness? Sometimes I try to help, but it might had no impact on anyone. Maybe it's my lack of confidence? Or the tone? No charisma? Now I think that no matter how much advise or support I give to someone, someone who is not seeking for advise and support, will just forget the conversation I had with whoever and continue to choose his or her own decision. Yes, no matter how much support, ideas, advice I give to anyone, it's the person's him/herself to choose the path that they want to walk on. Still, think. Will it harm you further than what's happening now? Or benefit you in the future?
The most important person in your life is not your family, teachers or friends. It's yourself. What have you been doing in your life that lead you to your downfall? What have you succeed in your life? How was it all achieved? The more you hurt yourself, the more you hurt the people around you. Hating, arguing, fighting are some examples that will hurt the inside of you greatly, both physically and mentally. Yet we see them everyday, between our friends as well. Say sorry to oneself and then to the other party, or else you will not forgive either one.
Friends, I love them. It breaks my heart to see anger and sadness trailing behind them.

Well, it's a Monday. School as usual. Had Mathematics Remedial and a chat on composition and ways to score in it with Mrs Gibson. Had my pre-dinner snack with Nigel at KFC.

I Wonder Why, I Really Do...

Guess today is Alex's belated birthday celebration... I feel so tired, I shall make this a short post. Cycled with Ryan and WZ while Sin Lee, Javen, Alex and Marjorie roller-bladed. Went to Tampines Mall after that to eat. Lazy to elaborated the rest. Leaving the rest in my mind, or one of the others blog.

Till 20 I suppose.

Love Is Difficult To Avoid

The 3 days greatly affected me, in every way. It changed me for the better thanks to the SuperTeens workshop. Feelings of happiness, remorse, love: such a overwhelming experience. Words cannot describe the experience I went through. You, yourself have to be there to experience the feelings, and how the course will forever affect your life. Thanks to everyone who made my fellow schoolmates and me understand more about the life and the love that we already have. Thank you Ernest, Peter and Ken for the valuable life lessons, the principal for making this happen, the two helpers with them, the caterer for the food, the teachers for the support, my friends who attended the workshop with me, and my parents for being at the closing ceremony today. I love all of you people!

I have plenty of things to blog about, but not today, about SuperTeens, I won't be talk through about the 3 days, so if you want to know more about this life-changing course, ask me or anyone else who attend it. It has been a long and tired day, time for some sleep.

Yesterday's Choice Of Song: All Fall Down By One Republic
Today's Choice Of Song: How To Save A Life By The Fray

YOU CAN'T SEE ME!

My Life Will Never... EEEE... Ever Be The Same Again!

~95% drops, 5% rises. Swap it over or better yet, make that 100% rise~
~20% fact, 80% bullshit, and the good thing is, 20% is only needed to get that A1~
~First care about myself, then others~
~Do it right on the first time~
~If failure really happens, learn from it and go back into the cycle again~
~Memorizing have never felt more interesting in my life~
~My left side wants to study, while the right side wants to relax until March Holidays ends~
~Nice way of teaching~
-Superteens-

Well, that is partially some of the things I learn during Superteens, and I saw a nice rainbow as well. Interesting, after listening, I felt greatly motivated. Success is not easy, if not everyone will be successful. I want to succeed in life as a Bio-Engineer and maybe even more or bigger, but first, the 'O's(it's killer dude).

Today's Choice Of Song: Thanks For The Memories By Fall Out Boy

Looking Forward To The Future

Today kept me thinking. I ask myself many questions, and hear are some of them:

1) Are 'Free Thinkers' really free? Or are they just lost or confused?
2) Relationships causes problems, yet we have them, why?
3) Are friends important or just distractions? Explain.
4) Love hurts, yet we fall into it, why?
5) If god created everything, why did he create suffering in the world?
6) Why can't there be everything in one thing?
7) Why do people have different ideology on everything?
8) If you do not have an umbrella, rushing for time and it's raining heavily, what would you do to get on the other side of the road?
9) Why can't there be equilibrium in everything?
10) Will asking questions always lead me to a solution? Or will it just lead you to no where?

I'm searching of an answer, if anyone of you have a good answer, tell me.

I want to ask myself a few questions. It's not a quiz, it's just the truth.

What's your full name?
Tan Yong Liang Glen
What is the name of your Primary and Secondary School?
Xinmin and Hougang Respectively
How old are you?
15 Years of Age
When is your birthday?
20 March
This is a series of yes and no question, if you seriously don't know, type a *BLANK*. There is no use lying, because you can't lie to yourself. Just a Yes/No answer will do, no need for explainations:

Do you love your parents:
Yes
Do you love your friends:
Yes
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend:
No
Do you have enemies:
*BLANK*
Do you hate someone in your life:
No
Do you have a crush on someone:
Yes
Do you go gaga over a pretty/handsome girl/guy you see:
Yes
If you were vegetarian for 10years, and some crazy guy force you eat raw meat or he will start killing people around you, would you do it?
Yes
Have you injured an animal before:
Yes
Have you skipped class before:
No
Have you talked behind people's back:
Yes
Have you kissed someone, with no blood-relationship to you, before:
Yes
Have you destroyed public property before:
Yes
Have you been caught by the police for something bad you did:
Yes
Have you been an annoyance to someone before:
Yes
Have you been condemned by a group of people before:
Yes
Have you ever thought you were a failure:
Yes
Have you thought of leaving home before:
Yes
Have you thought of killing someone before:
Yes
Have you thought of committing suicide before:
Yes

Actually some of these questions, it's quite impossible for you to lie, especially if you know the person. It's all just a trick to show how truthful you are. Anyway, I was totally bored and had nothing better to do, so sue me for being lame.

Went for tuition today, and followed Nigel to his church for a gospel talk. At lunch and dinner outside. Anything else? I end it off here.

Today's Choice Of Song: Fences By Paramore

Will This Urge Ever Stop?