A Battle Between Question And Mind, Pen And Paper, And Problems And Answers Will Collide. My Troops Are Not At All Ready, And There Is Only A 25% Chance Of Dominating Each Wave Of Attacks. My Master Told Me A Method Which Might Improve My Chances Of Winning, But It All On Luck, And I'm not Certain About It. But First My Troops Have To Survive The First Major Attack On Written Mountain. I Won't Know How Many Will Be Left After The First Attack, And How Many Troops Will Survive The Second. As A General, Regardless Of The Outcome, I Still Have TO Lead And Fight To The Ends Of The World. My Troops Support Me, As How I Give Them Encouragement. The Outcome Is Either We Are Defeated, Or They Are Beaten And We Survive Their The Countless Number Of Attacks. Even If They Are Barely Defeated, We Still Won.

Our Enemy: Chinese O'Level Examination Paper 1 & 2
Goal: To Pawn Them All. (I Hope)

Went To Help Out In A Street Soccer Competition. Then Went Home To Sleep. Woke Up And Used The Computer. Studied After That. Chinese O'Level Papers Are Tomorrow, I Will Need All The Luck In The World For This. I Wish To All(And Myself) Good Luck, Especially Those Who Are The Same Standard Or Worst Than Me, You Will Need It.

I Have To Go To A Junior College, And Tomorrow's Paper Decides That For Me.

I Feeling A Little Down, I Need To Run.

In Two Days Time, A Battle Will Rage To Determine The Knowledge My Army Upholds.

I made many calls today. I was so bored, I decided to plan my holidays. It is almost done.

First week,
Tomorrow: going to help out in a street soccer competition.
Monday: Chinese O'Level Examination Papers. P
Tuesday: Lessons(which includes school and superteens) and Parents Meet and after, it's time for my facial at... I think it's Jean Yip, and damn, I have to pass up my Mathematics file on Tuesday and hand up my Chemistry homework. What a bummer.
Wednesday: A Social Studies test on Globalisation and a possibly English test. Screw that.
Thursday-Sunday: Lessons and tuition, and maybe something other than that.

Second Week,
Monday: Lessons and an outing to buy stamps.
Tuesday: Lessons and the day Marcus buys a new bag. Anyone care to join us?
Wednesday-Friday: Lessons, tuition on one of these days and gong to meet my cousin and his friend on one of these days. Not totally confirm yet.
Saturday-Sunday: Tuition.

Third Week,
Whole week: Superteens and tuition. Unlikely to have activities here.

Last week,
*Unconfirmed*

So that's how my holidays are. Ya, not the enjoyable type i suppose.

Weird. I Keep Thinking About You.

O'level Chinese Is Just An Excuse Not To Blog. Anyway, I've Been Listening And Seeing Things Lately, Mostly Listening. Too Me, Some Of The Things Are Bullshit, Some Are Dangerous, And Some Are Plain Stupidity.

The World Is Full Of Gossip, And Sometimes When It Is About You, You're Totally Unaware. Words That Are Written Behind One's Back Is A Cruel Thing, Yet Everyone Does It. Saying It Is Human Nature To Gossip Is Bullshit. By Creating Gossip, Unconfirmed Rumors, Is Because You Let Your Feelings Overpower You. Letting Your Feelings Control You, Means You Have Not Control Over Your Mind, Only Thinking Of What You Want, And Not What's Right. The Feeling Of 'Hate' For That Person, Makes You 'Want' To Spread Bad Things About Him Or Her, To Detest Him Or Her, Sometimes Without Knowing, And Not Think What Is Right For Him Or Her. It's Stupid. It's An Attack From The Back, A Personal Attack, And I Despise Personal Attacks, Especially When The Person Does Not Know. That's Where I'm Stuck At. When You Know, You Feel Ashame Of Knowing This Piece Of Information While The Targeted Person Is Unaware. Should You Tell To The Victim? Or Keep It To Yourself?

Sometimes When You Feel Upset, Heavy In The Heart, There Will A Certain Something That You Will Want To Do To Take The Pain Away. When I Have That Feeling, I Feel Like Running. I Just Have A Urge To Run When I Feel Down. It Relives The Sorrow Inside. It's Like I'm Running From My Worries, And Leaving Them Behind For Good. I Feel So Much Better After That. But, Running In Public For No Reason Is Not Really What I Will Do.

I Seriously Want To Say 3 Words To You, Yet I Can't Do It Now. Feelings And Thinking Cloud My Mind From Carrying Out My Actions.

I Have Many Things I Want To Say, Many I Want To Do, Many Things I Want To Ask And Tell. Yet, There Are Restrains. Because Of My Friends And Family, I Endure Them. Because Of Them, I'm Tougher Than Life As I Live On Every Single Day Of It. Because Of Them It Makes Me Appreciate What I Have Now, Although Asking For More. It Is Because Of Them, I Say My Prayers And Wish Them Good. I Might Still Live Without Them, But My Soul Will Be Dead. Thanks Guys And Gals, Mum And Dad, Sister And Grandma, Uncles And Aunties, Cousins And Relatives.

My Mum Thinks I'm Like An Unsung Hero, And Facebook Thinks I'm An Unappreciated Friend In The Circle Of Friends I Have. I Think I'm Fine With It.

Is The One That I Can't Reach For Which It Pains Me.

Picture Two Majestic Ships Are Circling Around A Whirlpool(Like In One Of The Pirate's Of The Caribbean Movie, I Think Is Was At World's End, You Know? The Third One), Both Engaged In A Raging Battle Out On The Stormy Seas. Well I Was In A Passing Ship, When It Got Blown Up By One Of The Ships Firing Cannonballs. I Got Sucked Into The Whirlpool. Surprisingly, Each Battleship Threw Ropes To Me So One Or The Other Could Pull Me Out Of The Giant Whirlpool. I Would Cling To The Rope Which Would Lead ME To The Good Guys. But Sadly, Their Ships Where Identical, And The People Who Threw Ropes To Me Were Wearing Mask. Yet, I Got A Feeling One Of Them Is Good While The Other Is Bad. So, This Was A Tough Decision. Both Have Equal Advantages And Disadvantages. The Current Of The Whirlpool Is Sucking Me In, At A Slow Rate. It's Difficult To Think With All These Spiraling.
Gym Will Keep My Mind Off Of Things.

What Do You Want?

I Feel Lighter Now, Who Knew?

When You Get Pissed, You Use More Fuel While Driving Than When You Are Not. I'm Using Up Too Much. What My Friend And Cousin Says Were Right. Anyway, I Only Can Blame Myself. Thinking Too Such An Extend Won't Help, It Only Worsens.

I Feel Very Heavy.

Somethings Just Makes Me Feel Different, Too Different, And I Don't Like It Because I Have Difficulty Controlling It. Yet, To Have A Good, Healthy Life, It Has To Go Away. I Just Have Only One Word For It:


Fuck.

~220~

I feel like saying sorry to everyone I know today. Sparking that thought, that word, and being attack back verbally(maybe more of being typed out), sucks. But, that's what I learn from you guys. Most things you guys say are all jokes. I took that as a joke, but you took it so seriously. And when they insulted others, you didn't say what you said to me. Now, I don't really understand what a joke means. Maybe what I'm saying is a joke, I don't really know. Sometimes I don't know when to give up in an argument, because I believe I'm right, but when my friends get angry, I regret arguing and wish I did not. But what can I do? Anything. Anything just to still be friends after the argument. 'I'm sorry' is the only thing I can say to you now. I don't know if it will work, but I'll give it a try. Remember the sentence 'How Would You Like That Your Friends Ignore You' because I typed 'You Should Agree More'. Well, I replied 'I can live with that, I'll just die'. You can do that, if that makes you happy. I Don't want it to be to personal, so I'm stopping here. Sorry.

Today wasn't much. Chinese Intensive started today. NAFA today. It was raining. Wasn't one of my favorite day. Gave Marjorie her Birthday present. Happy Birthday Marjorie.

Today's Choice Of Song: How To Save A Life By The Fray

Sorry World, I Still Pray For All Of You.

Good Job For Being The Next American Idol, Chris Allen.

Well, lets start from yesterday...

The Exams are over! But I'm Still Bored. Anyway, after the exams, I celebrated by going home and bathing. It doesn't stop there. Went to watch a movie with Benedict and Marcus after helping them edit their project work. I played DOTA with Marcus before that. We caught the last time slot for '17 Again' at Vivocity. Freaking hilarious, but predictable storyline. Ate Carl's Jr for lunch, I'm broke now. Went window shopping for bags and shoes. Our main purpose was to find shoes for Marcus, but in the end, even after going to Wisma Atria, we still could not get what he wanted. Look on the bright side, the walking keeps me fit and we had plenty of laughs along the way. Went home and had a class conversation on MSN. It was the largest group I have experience so far. Well... It's career's day tomorrow, I shall see...

Career day! What else can I say? The guys looked smart and some suave(except Leonard), and the girls looked great, most of them were pretty! Anyway, we had a few talks at the start. Many of us soon got restless. Had recess and more talks after that. Boarded the bus to Chinatown for our Career/Communication and Dinning Antique Course. I learned so much from the Dinning Antique Course. The Communication one was fine, but could be done better. Had our lunch, which was, how should I put it... Superb. I won 107 calories as well(inside joke). I just loved it. Anyway, the Six of us headed to Plaza Singapura. Well, 5 only cause Jia Liang went off early. Had dinner at Kopitiam, and it sucked. We thought we would be having a class dinner, but it seems that many couldn't make it so it was canceled. Went for a movie, X-Men Origins. This is my second time watching. Anyway, I liked it, so who cares? Went home after that.

Looking Good Today.

Well, mid-year exams are officially over, excluding tomorrow's Chemistry paper. It's been great for me. I feel good, I have stop worrying pretty much, and I have limit myself from thing too much, only when it's needed, that includes day-dreaming. I think the prayers has helped me tremendously. I actually feel that I'm able to do more things a day than before. Either that, or I just seriously bored. If there is anything, any event, any occasion, call and/or persuade and/or drag to whatever is happening, even if I can't go. Hey, seeing that people are trying to ask me out actually reduces my boredom for a few seconds. Talk about split-second excitement.

Wanna Blow Something Up? I do. Seriously, Mythbusters, they just rocks my internal organs out. I mean hey, you blow things up for a living and it all in the name or Science, or just plain old fun, and to prove to people that 'yes, it can be done' and 'no, this is total bullshit'. What's more fun and exhilarating than seeing things get shot at high-speed, giant explosions, using chemicals not everyone can and causing massive destruction? Of course in an big area of wasteland, with supervision of paramedics, police authority, bomb disposal squad and your local fire department. Ya, I just love it.

High-Speed cameras are something that I really, really love to use! Seeing a balloon pop, a water balloon thrown at someone's face, glass breaking and waxing your calves and seeing how fast the pain travels to your brain, all in slow-motion. All can be seen slow in TimeWarp.

Just loving explosives and slowing the process of time, it's so cool!

Today's Choice Of Song: Fighting By Yellowcard(Twice Selected Already!)

The Feeling Is Still Strong And Deep, Is It Worth Fighting For?

F.Y.I, I UPDATED WZ!

Sick And Tired Of This.

THANK YOU BUDDHA!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

I love fun, weird, relaxing, spiritual, philosophical, complex, artistic and simple things in life.
Fun things like hanging out with friends with friends or playing computer games with my cousins.
Weird things like talking to yourself or attacking something that is not there.
Relaxing things like meditating under a waterfall or just falling asleep.
Spiritual things like praying to god or learning their practices.
Philosophical things like discussing the meaning of life or comparing things between different beliefs.
Complex things like the butterfly effect and the human mind.
Artistic things as in Literature and Art.
Simple things like the colour black and the colour white or just simple chatting.
This are the things that makes life for me enjoyable, and it helps rid my mind of worrisome and troublesome things. Please give or fulfill any of the above and make me lead a happy life! I will be so glad and thankful do this for me! Thank you of reading!

Today's Choice Of Song: Fighting By Yellowcard

When I Did The Above, I Forgot About It, But When It Stopped, It All Came Back.

Everyone breathes, everyone sleeps, everyone thinks. Breathing is natural, for the continuity of all life on planet Earth. It was God who made it that way, and other processes which help to support life on earth at an equilibrium. We can choose not to breathe, but after awhile we still have too. It only can be changed momentary, but not in an eternity. Sleeping is the same as breathing. It helps in the daily maintenance of our human body, to help keep it functioning in perfect-shape. It is similar to breathing in almost every way, the only difference is that you can either not sleep for a long period of time, which will greatly affect your mental and physical development, but will still have to sleep against one's control or forever rest in peace.

Everyone thinks, but the difference from the above two is it can be control in anyway you want. You are in control of your thoughts, and there is no limit to your imagination. You thoughts leads you to a world of possibilities, but your thoughts sometimes are not always something to be happy about. It's thoughts which controls our emotions, thus it is a reaction dangerous to any anyone, since everyone thinks. It may make you jump for joy, cry with regret, boil with anger or create a void of unhappiness and hurt. They are weapons which only works against oneself. It either helps you or kill you. Thoughts can be kept for a long time, even forever, and dwelling in some thoughts can cause misery. Thoughts, powerful and unstable. Can you control it?

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Sometimes without a presence of someone, just for a day, can greatly affect ones thoughts and feelings. I'm feeling wobbly, but heavy. It maintains equilibrium if I felt it's presence for that day...

SA1, plyyhhh, Cry. Sad, punch me, or so help me please.

After The O's, After The O's...

Time. It's Moving Too Quickly, I'm Not Sure If My Preparations Are Complete. Life Has Been Bitter-Sweet. Bitter As In Bitter, Sweet As In Sweet, Worries And Family/Friends. It Seems Normal, But I Don't Feel That Sense Of Normality In Me. It Just Feels Heavy On The Shoulders, To Carry All That Burden Around. But When I'm With Friends And Family, Or Just Chatting To Them Without Their Presence, That Thousand Tons Of 'Bitter' Just Falls Off. Maybe It's Just Me, I'm Tired. Or I Blame It On Radiation.

I Have Not Been Blogging For Awhile Due To Laziness, But I Can't Always Blame It On My Habits For Restricting Me To Carry Out These Simple Actions.

I Feel That I Sunk, Suck All The Way To The Bottom Of The Ocean, Digging Into The Depths Of The Seabed, Towards The Core Of The Earth. I Feel... Too Many That It Creates That Burden For Me.

I Know So Much, Yet Do So Little.

Went Out With My Cousins Today. It's Been A Long Time Since I Saw Them. I Really Missed Them. My Uncle Brought Us Out For A Movie. After The Movie, We Went For Dinner. Darren Said I Changed, And I Think So Too. I Wish I Was A Child Again, Where Things Were All So Simple. Where The Only Trouble We Had Was To Only Pick Who Was Going To Be The Next Catcher For Catching. Where We Could Frolic Around The Playground Without Anyone Caring. Where Everyone Would Hate Each Other And Be Friends Again The Next Day. It Was The Best, But Now Is All About Deception, Stress, Infatuation And Anything Else That Does Not Fit In The Term Simplicity.

I'll Change, For The Better Or Worse, It's A Simple Decision, But Why Oh Why Do I Feel That It's Becoming So Wrong?

I Miss My Friends And Family Ever So Much, They Are Always Remembered In My Memories, And Are Always Thinking About Them.

I Heard This Quote 'Life Is Tough, But I Am Tougher'. Am I?