The slit on my neck starts to bleed, it does not stop... It flows endlessly... My face goes pale, everything seems blur, I'm in severe pain, but no one is around... I call out in the darkness, but not even the wind answer... my vision gets worst. I feel as if I'm going to float, lift up in the air to be exact. Then there was a white light that shone on my face, blinding me. Is it a sign? A Blessing? Or will I face death? I fall to the ground, counting the last few seconds of my life, before I face what ever is ahead for me...
I woke up, and the pain came back. I started growling, but soon it came under control. When my vision was clear, I was at the hospital. I was alive. The doctor was next to me, checking my medical statistics. He told me I was fine, but I still needed rest. I wanted to ask the doctor about the kind soul who admitted me in here, but I was too week to speak. I started to close my eyes, and turn my head towards the room window. A shadow of a female was standing at the window, it wasn't clear, and soon she disappeared. She was the one, the kind soul... My eyelids became heavy, vision was a blur yet again, but I know who the lady was, as I went back to the place where anything could happen...

If I say 'no' to something, I can be easily force into saying a 'yes'... Think about it.
The endless amount of drugs makes me venture towards solitary...

Excessive use of Drugs are good..

My eyes are engraved with the flame of a Phoenix, engraved on it for eternity... Even when I close my eyes to sleep, or until the day of my Reincarnation, the flames will still live ... Until I meet the Legendary Bird, the fire will burn the container of this soul, till all that is left are ashes and dust... The cycle repeats, till I meet this Legendary Bird...

The friends are my life, without them it forever will be empty... Normal usual day, Physics test was better than expected. Elementary Mathematics test was troublesome. Nearly hit failure for Additional Mathematics, Biology lesson had some drugs, it was RAD in Mathematics lesson. Created a new life form, destroy it and cleared the evidence and existence of it in Chemistry Practical. More drugs in Chinese lesson, had American Mathematics examination, drew a fish and dinosaur fighting on the question paper.

Guo Sheng and Nigel, you have very violent nature. Jia Liang never fails to crack me up. Jeremy, I like your phone. Ryan, the past were good times, Darren, do not dwell in it too much. Marjore, so sorry that I forgot to add you in the post yesterday. SinLee, you seem pissed just now, and I'm sorry. Wei Zhuang, go to the hall after recess, same goes to you Juan. Corey, don't be a extra. Mdm Ng, don't force us to do things we do not want, Miss Phua, I'm afraid of you. NCC, going to miss Saturday training.. Judo, I De-proved. Headaches, Headaches, Headaches...

Upon hearing that the end is near, people try to look back in their past, of the good times and the bad, some try to fulfill their last wishes, others just don't bloody care, siting there till they die.. But what if you had a chance to continue or rewind the life which it is at the edge of a cliff? Would you do anything to get that chance? Would you risk your life or someone else to do it? Or will you die with the smile or frown on your face, felling satisfied of what you have done in the years that you have lived, suffered and experience the joy of the people around you? If there was another chance, I would..

-Envy, A feeling of discontent and resentment aroused by and in conjunction with desire for the possessions or qualities of another. In other terms, Jealousy.

-Hatred, The feeling of intense dislike or extreme aversion or hostility.

Some of the worst feelings of all. What are these feelings good for, they hurt you, harm you, and even kill you... And yet, it gives you a meaning to live, to continue and strive for the best. But if what you have no feelings? Nothing will hurt, nothing will bother, no worries for anything, you end up in nothingness. For some people, it is a good thing, you get wiser, you become clearer. To others, they suffer an even worst faith than before. But if there isn't any feelings, you won't feel the warmth that your friends give to you, you won't feel the excitement your family members give to you and you won't understand true love. Not many people will ever understand that, even I don't understand. In a dictionary, there are many meanings, but what is the real meaning of it? Is there even a word to express it? To me, no meaning can ever be used to express love, it is up to you to think what love is... a warmth, hearting-melting feeling

This is why sometimes things have to be kept a secret. I do not no if giving up is the right idea, cause giving up is not in my vocabulary. Usual CAs which take up my time studying. Nigel is still in his weird trance, Wei Zhuang is a good friend and we help each other in any solution. Sorry for whatever I said to you Joyce, can we still be friends? Thanks for being the first one to tag SinLee. Guo Sheng still hardworking as he is, Corey is still horny for sex. Ryan, Hi. Gerrald, shut the fuck up when needed, Alex, you are not irrtating today. Nicole, happy early birthday. Kok Wee, you give some funny shit. NCC, i love you mostly. Judo, sorry for missing lots of training, coming back soon.

Today, life was bad, I could not do any shit about it. Hell, Chemistry test was short, and marks was wasted. Chinese test was a joke, did not bother trying. Went to the Physics Laboratory quite late, Apple Chong ask me to place my butt on the floor. Chinese lesson was slack, took my drugs, and emo for 3 periods. Bell rang, Corey went home with Guo Sheng, Wei Zhuang and me were left. Continued to drown myself in music... Nigel came asking for Guo Sheng and Corey. Ryan and Alex came down to have a chat, KokWee joked around with SinLee, Joyce, Wei Zhuang, Alex and me. Gerrald came soon after, and Nicole. Studied with Wei Zhuang and my drugs...

If you give me your birthday and if I remember it, you might get something from me, if I'm informed early

Remade the blog, now at this link.

This is insanity, death can happen anytime, music is the only thing which keeps me going... My life has gone hey-wired, and rebooting it is the only option, clear all the memories... to prevent this from ever happening again, life now has to be recorded.